Why do we do and say dumb things in an emotional breakdown?
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This is just a vent (tw mentions of sui**de)
I messed up last night. This whole week I've been going through a depressive episode and felt sui***al and I guess yesterday was my breaking point. I rushed to my room cause I wanted to be alone. My dad tried to talk to me and I started to cry so I turned my back cause I didn't want him to see my face, and he called me disrespectful. He told me to never cry cause its a sign of vulnerability and weakness but I can't help it. I rushed to the bathroom crying and locked the door cause I just wanted to be alone for a while, but he kept banging the door and yelling at me to get out. To sum it up, he tried to break the door down, and broke the glass near the door to enter, he yelled at me, I yelled back about how I've felt this way ofr 3 years and wanted to end my life (I just acted on my emotions without think and I regret it) I was called disrespectful, selfish and childish, and other kids have it worse than me (I already know that, which is why I feel even worse for feeling this way) my mom and sister tried to restrain me when I wanted to leave, leaving my arms sore (I literally just wanted to go to my room!!) What hurt the most is that I made them cry, even my dad had tear and I've never seen him shed a tear.
I'm not sui**dal right now and my emotions are in control, but I still feel alot like sh*t. My dad hasn't said a word to me and I'm to scared and ashamed to even look at him. My birthday is literally tomorrow and I've messed everything up. I hate it so much.
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Addition: And I'm turning 17. 17 and I'm the eldest sibling!!! I should me mature and composed and yet I'm still acting like a child.
man, that sounds like a tough night 😞 sometimes parents just don’t get how serious things are and react in ways that make it worse. you're young and dealing with a lot, it's normal to feel overwhelmed. remember, everyone makes mistakes, and it's never too late to try to have a calm conversation with your family about how you’re feeling. maybe try writing them a letter if talking is too hard right now? hope your birthday brings something good your way!
I'm truly sorry to hear about the distressing situation you experienced. It's understandable to feel overwhelmed, especially when emotions are running high and communication breaks down; these moments can be incredibly challenging. It's important to remember that everyone handles stress differently and sometimes parents might not know the best way to support us. Consider this a learning opportunity for both you and your family. Perhaps with time, you can all find a way to openly discuss emotions and seek a supportive understanding. Remember, you are not alone in feeling this way, and there is always hope for resolving conflicts through patience and understanding.
yo, that sounds really rough;;; it sucks how sometimes when you just need a moment alone, everything feels like it's crashing down harder; i’ve been in spots where i felt like my emotions were like a storm and any attempt to explain them made it worse. sounds like your dad was coming from a place of not understanding rather than being supportive;; have you tried talking to him when things are more chilled out? sometimes parents don't get it right away but they can come around. hope things mellow out so you can enjoy your birthday in some way!!!
hey, that really sucks 😔 it's rough when family doesn't understand how you feel. i’ve been through my fair share of ups and downs with my parents too, and sometimes they just don't know how to handle it. birthdays can feel extra heavy when things are tense, but remember, you're doing your best in a tough situation. maybe try giving yourself some space to breathe and figure out what you need right now. wishing you find some peace on your birthday! 🎂
It's really tough when emotions and misunderstandings collide, especially with family, but growth comes from these painful moments; hoping your birthday gives you a fresh start to communicate and heal together.
Wow, that really sucks 😞 It's like you're caught in a storm of emotions with no umbrella. Your dad's approach just doesn't seem helpful at all - it's tough when those who should support us don't seem to get it; crying isn't a weakness and bottling things up just makes it worse. It's normal to feel overwhelmed, especially on the brink of your birthday when everything’s supposed to be about celebration and joy. Don't beat yourself up too much; you’re navigating some pretty choppy waters, and nobody gets everything right immediately. Maybe down the line, things will ease up and you can talk this through with your family more calmly 🤞