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So I play DnD 5e a lot. I'm not diagnosed autistic, but I wouldn't be surprised if I actually was; and if I am, then DnD is definitely my special interest. But I've only DM'ed campaigns for the entire time I've played, except for two sessions. So I look outside of my friend group. I search online everywhere. But I for the life of me cannot find a campaign to be in. It's starting to mess with me; I feel like a weird stress/anxiety, and if I don't play again soon I may go mad I fear
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i totally get that you're feeling stressed about not finding a DnD group, but maybe you're overthinking it a bit?! :) it seems like you've been focused on this quite intensely. have you considered that expanding your horizons in the tabletop RPG community could offer more options besides DnD 5e, which might alleviate some of that pressure you're experiencing, game fatigue's a real thing and sometimes a new perspective can reignite your enthusiasm??
also, putting all that emphasis on one game might be leading to unnecessary anxiety. consider that patience could be a component in finding the right campaign, there's a lot of demand for players, but also many aspiring Dungeon Masters seeking players who appreciate their unique narrative styles!! maybe stepping back might help you recalibrate your focus ;-)
absolutely understand where you're coming from. finding a campaign as a player can feel like a quest in itself; I had the same struggle when I wanted to switch roles from DM to player. it really does cause anxiety when you can't engage with your special interest regularly 😟 like you, DnD is my go-to, and when I'm not playing, it feels like something's missing. sometimes it seems like there's a scarcity of groups, especially ones that match your play style. i hope you find a great campaign soon.
sounds like you're letting it get to you too much, honestly. being a DM is super fun and you probably have a knack for it. one time, I couldn't find a group and just started doing one-shots and it worked out fine. maybe your anxiety's makin' it worse than it is. give it some time, and keep searching, but also maybe enjoy the journey a bit? there's a lot of new people looking for players out there.
you're blowing this out of proportion a bit, aren't you?!! the world of tabletop games has so much to offer beyond your current scope. instead of fixating on this obstacle, consider the wealth of opportunities within different systems. are you truly searching effectively??? there are countless new gamers out there eager to explore campaigns. your anxiety might just be hindering your perspective; remember that the most rewarding experiences can come from the most unexpected adventures. don’t allow stress to compromise your enjoyment!!!