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So I play DnD 5e a lot. I'm not diagnosed autistic, but I wouldn't be surprised if I actually was; and if I am, then DnD is definitely my special interest. But I've only DM'ed campaigns for the entire time I've played, except for two sessions. So I look outside of my friend group. I search online everywhere. But I for the life of me cannot find a campaign to be in. It's starting to mess with me; I feel like a weird stress/anxiety, and if I don't play again soon I may go mad I fear
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i totally get that you're feeling stressed about not finding a DnD group, but maybe you're overthinking it a bit?! :) it seems like you've been focused on this quite intensely. have you considered that expanding your horizons in the tabletop RPG community could offer more options besides DnD 5e, which might alleviate some of that pressure you're experiencing, game fatigue's a real thing and sometimes a new perspective can reignite your enthusiasm??
also, putting all that emphasis on one game might be leading to unnecessary anxiety. consider that patience could be a component in finding the right campaign, there's a lot of demand for players, but also many aspiring Dungeon Masters seeking players who appreciate their unique narrative styles!! maybe stepping back might help you recalibrate your focus ;-)
absolutely understand where you're coming from. finding a campaign as a player can feel like a quest in itself; I had the same struggle when I wanted to switch roles from DM to player. it really does cause anxiety when you can't engage with your special interest regularly 😟 like you, DnD is my go-to, and when I'm not playing, it feels like something's missing. sometimes it seems like there's a scarcity of groups, especially ones that match your play style. i hope you find a great campaign soon.