I really want someone caring in my life.
The story
Im 15 and ever since I got into middle school, I thought by the end of it Ill have a bestfriend but no. I feel like every friend I make - by next year/grade we split up and no longer in contact. Right now I have friends, but I know so well once we arent in the same class, they'd forget my existence or if their other friends were in the same class they wouldnt be with me. I always feel like Im the one chasing everyone - chasing my friend or friends, just to not seem like Im excluding myself. Yet I still feel left out cause no one cares whether Im around or not. I reached a point where I feel like people my age no longer want meaningful, forever lasting friendships. I dont know if Its only in my class or school but I was supposed to change schools and I saw it as an opportunity that'll be able to meet new people and possibly find great friends or at least one, however things didnt work out and Im now stuck till the end of the semester. I just dont understand why am I always the last pick ? Im trying to be patient and hopeful but Im scared overtime Its gonna hurt me so much especially of how long the semester is going to be.
There was a moment, not too long ago. Its still stuck to me - during class, I was chatting with my friend and classmate. We were then told to pick partners and play with each other. My classmate and friend stood and walked away while I just sat there .. they didnt even look back at me or asked me to join them. I know it sounds like Im excluding myself but I swear Im trying to include myself by every chance I get but It just gets tiring. I might as well accept it. I didnt want to just sit there so I partnered up with my other friend (her friends didnt want to play). Anyways, after class I wanted to jokingly tell my (first) friend about it but I just thought it was unnecessary, maybe I was overthinking it and it wasnt that serious.
I dont know who to talk to anymore. My mom never tries to understated me, she just shames me and calls me names. When I do talk to her, she just sees me as a pity and calls me emotional - sensitive everytime I cry. I feel like I can no longer cry anymore, like rarely. I just cant, especially infront of my mom.
I hate feeling this negative but those are just some of my thoughts. I just want someone loving, caring and understanding in my life. I dont want to rely on myself my entire life. It gets lonely.
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Wow, that hits close to home... I totally get where you're coming from...!!! Middle school was a real rough patch... Friends? More like constant switch-ups, you feel me...?? Constantly chasing others ain't the vibe...!!! I recall how lonely it got when folks switched gears without a glance back... Feels like the "best friend" concept is losing its charm these days... Scary thought...!!! Everything feels fleeting, and yeah, it kinda sucks... Can't even rely on family sometimes, am I right...??? Just hang tight... There’s gotta be a light at the end of this long, tiresome tunnel... but I ain't holding my breath... You do you...!!! 🌟
Hey, I’m 14 and I feel you completely, maybe if you’re up for it. We can be lonely together? Just a thought.
Hello! Im looking back at this and Im sorry I saw this late. I didnt receive any notifications but if youre still up for it, maybe we could (:
Oh hey I didn’t expect you to respond lol
So uh how are you doing now? I’m hoping good.
Not the best but Im fine. Thank you. What about you ?
I’m fine, but why aren’t you? What’s up? You can talk but if you want we can talk on other platforms :3 just call me Kay for now until we can talk privately!
Just trouble with some stuff buts Its alright. We can be friends if you want! ^^
Yes ofc! Do you wanna contact a different way? If not I completely understand!
Yeah sure. Do you have discord maybe ?
Yes I do :3 I also use other things like insta etc so yea! Wanna add me? Thighzz_ I don’t use it much but I’ll try to respond!
Mine is lv_zoozy (for discord)
Hey guys!
We saw your comments here and that rekindled the discussion about whether we should offer private messages here... :) We haven't implemented this yet because we were afraid people would use it to harass, but maybe the best solution would be to let users disable this feature (plus block users they don't want to talk to)?
What do you think about that?
I think Its a great idea. Perhaps you could make a post and ask people about their opinions ? Though I think with the solution hopefully it would go well!
Thanks for the feedbacks! We will think about that for the next features!
I think you guys should make a chat request or pending so they can either accept it or decline it and it should be blurred if it’s rude, explicit, or asking personal info!
Honestly, I feel like you're blowing things out of proportion. Middle school? It's not meant to last forever. People drift; it's life. The idea that people "no longer want meaningful friendships" sounds a bit melodramatic; 🤨 You're not "the last pick," it's just timing and circumstances.
When I was in middle school, friendships came and went, too. It's not the end of the world. Your situation with your mom is rough, but calling you emotional? Maybe she means well and just doesn't know how to express it.
Focus on what you can control rather than worrying about what you can't. Good friends will come when you least expect it. Just hang in there and stop waiting for people’s validation; believe me, it's a game-changer in the long run.