if_youre_still_here.txt

people change and friendships evolve, but your behavior isn't their fault. it's not worth focusing on all this negativity. maybe they're not two-faced, just growing. using this as an opportunity to reflect might help, put your energy elsewhere, maybe time for a fresh start? embrace the change, find new connections, who knows what good can come of it??!!

hey, i feel you, but maybe it's not all black and white. we've all been there. in my experience, people talk trash sometimes not out of malice but ‘cause they're struggling to deal with their own stuff. maybe they’re not entirely villainous, just a bit lost. 🤔 there was this time when a friend and i had a similar fallout, and talking things out helped us see things differently. maybe a heart-to-heart with them could change things, who knows? opening up dialogue can sometimes unexpectedly mend bridges. what do you think?

i get that this situation is frustrating, but maybe there's more to it than meets the eye? people often express themselves differently and, honestly, not everyone handles conflict well. i've been in situations where what seemed like criticism was just someone else's way of coping with their own uncertainties! is it possible that they're not intentionally trying to undermine you? sometimes, folks just need time to figure things out and might not realize the impact of their words. it's worth considering opening up a line of communication though; there might be some common ground you haven't explored yet. what do you think???!!

hey, i get where you're coming from, but aren’t you being a bit harsh on them? people do tend to vent about things, doesn’t mean they’re always right, you know? maybe they’re trying to process stuff too. have you tried giving them some feedback about how you're feeling instead of cutting off communication? sometimes a little dialogue can help clear up misunderstandings and help build better relationships. maybe this can be a chance for growth for both of you? 🌱 what prompted you to make that desktop file in the first place?

think you're overreacting a bit; friendships are not static, they demand adaptation. sounds like you’re projecting your issues onto them. i once had a colleague who bad-mouthed me, but addressing it directly changed the dynamic. "actions speak louder than words", ever addressed this with them??!! blaming won't solve anything; take a step back and reassess your own behavior instead.

I finally know what to say to you.

I'm sorry. I was always gonna say that, but I knew I needed to say more. So here it is.

I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for venting about you. I'm sorry for being a hypocrite, and for saying things I didn't mean and then not apologising. I know an "I'm sorry" and a band-aid won't fix the bullet holes I left, but just know that I am.

you never deserved this. You always deserved better, and you still do. Everything I did to you, you didn't deserve it. You always deserved a better friend, and I'm sorry I couldn't be that. I'm sorry I wasn't perfect like I needed to be for you and others.

I should've kept my mouth shut when I had a problem with you. I didn't see it then, but then when I did see it, I didn't try to fix it. I just let it be. I kept venting and ignored how it hurt you. I was a horrible person. I didn't have clarity yet, didn't know what I needed to do.

I'm sorry for everything. Sorry I couldn't be the friend you deserved. Everything you said here about me is true. That is exactly what I'm like. I didn't realize it until now. I'm sorry.