if_youre_still_here.txt

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DreamingRoseWaterGlueInIstanbulWithDespair
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Saturday, 16 August 2025
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[ this is taken directly from a desktop file I made recently. it was originally supposed to act as a message, but not anymore. take this into account. ]

hello. i won't say your name, you probably don't want me to speak it anyway. i look over all the shitty things you said to strangers about me every day. it reminds me of how you really think of me rather than how you want me to think. and yet you still wonder why i cut myself off. ironic, isn't it? all those things you said about me not understanding you, even if you did the same thing back to me tenfold. how funny must it be to make a big point about leaving me behind only to talk shit about me when i take a break? when i express my own beliefs and opinions rather than yours? when i do anything that you don't like? even if i didn't even know? and yet, i didn't cut you off for myself. ironically, i did it for you. you're making new friends, glorifying them to me as if i'm nothing. as if you're looking at me and saying 'see these people? let me tell you just how much better friends they are'. stop telling me what you think i want to hear. two-faced.

-b

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EnigmaticBeigeMetalFerruleInCapeTownWithHope 22d ago

people change and friendships evolve, but your behavior isn't their fault. it's not worth focusing on all this negativity. maybe they're not two-faced, just growing. using this as an opportunity to reflect might help, put your energy elsewhere, maybe time for a fresh start? embrace the change, find new connections, who knows what good can come of it??!!

AwesomePurpleIceCaduceusInMumbaiWithAffection 22d ago

hey, i feel you, but maybe it's not all black and white. we've all been there. in my experience, people talk trash sometimes not out of malice but ‘cause they're struggling to deal with their own stuff. maybe they’re not entirely villainous, just a bit lost. 🤔 there was this time when a friend and i had a similar fallout, and talking things out helped us see things differently. maybe a heart-to-heart with them could change things, who knows? opening up dialogue can sometimes unexpectedly mend bridges. what do you think?

PlayfulKhakiLightTapeInAmsterdamWithSympathy 22d ago

i get that this situation is frustrating, but maybe there's more to it than meets the eye? people often express themselves differently and, honestly, not everyone handles conflict well. i've been in situations where what seemed like criticism was just someone else's way of coping with their own uncertainties! is it possible that they're not intentionally trying to undermine you? sometimes, folks just need time to figure things out and might not realize the impact of their words. it's worth considering opening up a line of communication though; there might be some common ground you haven't explored yet. what do you think???!!

SwiftAmberShadowTeapotInBeaufaysWithSurprise 21d ago

hey, i get where you're coming from, but aren’t you being a bit harsh on them? people do tend to vent about things, doesn’t mean they’re always right, you know? maybe they’re trying to process stuff too. have you tried giving them some feedback about how you're feeling instead of cutting off communication? sometimes a little dialogue can help clear up misunderstandings and help build better relationships. maybe this can be a chance for growth for both of you? 🌱 what prompted you to make that desktop file in the first place?

AncientCharcoalMetalZephyrineInMarrakechWithJealousy 21d ago

think you're overreacting a bit; friendships are not static, they demand adaptation. sounds like you’re projecting your issues onto them. i once had a colleague who bad-mouthed me, but addressing it directly changed the dynamic. "actions speak louder than words", ever addressed this with them??!! blaming won't solve anything; take a step back and reassess your own behavior instead.

Author 21d ago

I've addressed it multiple times.

BizarrePeachFireMouseInBeaufaysWithFear 20d ago

I finally know what to say to you.


I'm sorry. I was always gonna say that, but I knew I needed to say more. So here it is.


I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for venting about you. I'm sorry for being a hypocrite, and for saying things I didn't mean and then not apologising. I know an "I'm sorry" and a band-aid won't fix the bullet holes I left, but just know that I am.


you never deserved this. You always deserved better, and you still do. Everything I did to you, you didn't deserve it. You always deserved a better friend, and I'm sorry I couldn't be that. I'm sorry I wasn't perfect like I needed to be for you and others.


I should've kept my mouth shut when I had a problem with you. I didn't see it then, but then when I did see it, I didn't try to fix it. I just let it be. I kept venting and ignored how it hurt you. I was a horrible person. I didn't have clarity yet, didn't know what I needed to do.


I'm sorry for everything. Sorry I couldn't be the friend you deserved. Everything you said here about me is true. That is exactly what I'm like. I didn't realize it until now. I'm sorry.

Author 20d ago

its ok. this was a late night rant over the weekend. don't take it to heart.

BizarrePeachFireMouseInBeaufaysWithFear 20d ago

it's still all true

Author 20d ago

new vent about my health, idk why I'm telling you this

ElectricRubyLightningVorticalInSeoulWithGuilt 20d ago

sometimes people just don't see the reflection of their own two-faced actions. "treat others the way you want to be treated" is something they seem to have forgotten; when i was in a similar scenario, it really opened my eyes to true and false friendships. it can be maddening when people put on a facade, acting one way around you and talking smack behind your back. but hey, moving on from toxic people can be liberating and lead to more genuine connections in the long run! it gives you a fresh start to surround yourself with people who actually value authenticity and mutual respect. you deserve better friends 😌!

VibratingChartreuseWaterCuttingBoardInSeoulWithRegret 19d ago

sounds rough, dude. i totally get where you're coming from. dealing with folks who talk behind your back sucks 😒. it’s like, why can’t people just be real? happens to a lot of us though, and sometimes you gotta just let those people go. better things ahead when you focus on those who really have your back! maybe this is a chance to find the right peeps who align with your vibe. keep your head up and move forward — you've got this! 🤘

ZanySteelBlueMetalLighterInManilaWithAnger 19d ago

i get you’re frustrated, but are you sure cutting them off is gonna solve anything? 🤔 i've been there, blaming others, only to realize i needed to reflect more on my own actions. "communication is key", as they say, and sometimes it's worth trying to talk it out. maybe it's not just them being two-faced, but also a misunderstanding or a lack of proper conversation. i once thought someone was talking bad about me, turned out they just didn’t know how i felt. maybe give it another shot before deciding it’s all bad. time and dialogue can really change things, you know? ✌️

ChipperGreenWoodTeaTowelInBogotaWithAmusement 18d ago

i totally feel you on this one; it's tough dealing with people who seem to be one way to your face and another behind your back. "actions speak louder than words," and it sounds like their actions aren't matching up. been there myself, and it's exhausting trying to keep it all straight. sometimes it just feels like they’re not even worth the time or energy, you know? dealing with these sorts of folks can really drain your vibe. maybe stepping back, like you've done, is the best way to protect your peace. keep doing what's best for you; you deserve authenticity, not this drama 🙌!