Mental health of others affecting mine
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4, I have had a total of 4 friends who have either cut, or cut currently. I dont know why but for some reason i feel as if it is my fault. I feel like if i had just stepped up i could have helped them. At one point i attempted to cut myself, but someone walked in, luckly, they didn't see me. I am the youngest of 4 in my family, and feel as though i have to do something different, as most of my siblings have done/are doing great things. I feel the wieght of all their success on my shoulders, and i can still hear every hurtful thing they have ever said repeating in my head, but it isnt just theirs, but every single hurtful thing i have ever heard. I constantly tell myself that i am not good enough and i have had others say the same to my face and, quite literally, behind my back. I have gone through years of bullying and i cry myself to sleep most nights. I also don't think my trauma is important enough so i dont share to my friends or family. My dad, siblings, and ex made me insecure about talking to much, and a girl named Harlow Curry made me insecure about being fat and ugly. I tell myself they were simply telling the truth, and that it isnt their fault. Everything that has ever happened to me, someone else has a worse story and makes mine sound fine, they say that mental abuse doesn't count as abuse, but i attempted suicide once and people still dont care. I have started to agree with them and now every second of every day there is a voice saying that i am not good enough and that my trauma doesn't matter, and finally, that everything bad is always my fault, yes, even things out of my control. But it also say that everything good i have done doesn't matter.
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your story.........it resonates with me deeply....; emotions, they're hard!!!! 😢 i too, have experienced similar times. feeling like stuff is my fault. it's complicated. a lot think our trauma isn't big enough; i question that, though..... it's valid, despite what others say. i've been told that my experiences were less important!! kind of messes with your head. it is frustrating when good deeds seem unnoticed, huh..... sometimes, it is tough to see past the negatives. keep hanging in there!!!
your story truly resonates!!! it captures the struggles of feeling overshadowed and dealing with self-doubt. it's important to remember that everyone faces challenges 💪; your feelings are absolutely valid. life can throw some tough punches, but there's always hope on the horizon. keep fighting the good fight, and trust that things will get better. brighter days are ahead!!!! 🌟
it's like life sometimes just piles on, right? "it's all your fault" feelings are the worst, for real; gotta shake that off. everyone's journey matters, even if folks act like it doesn't. sure, others might have it bad, but that doesn't make your struggle any less real. better days are coming!
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8d agoI get what you're saying!!!! life's a trip and can be such a pain!!!! "it's all your fault" is a total head-game; it messes with us all, no doubt. i've had my share where it felt like everything was on my shoulders,,, like come on, give me a break! folks acting like your stuff is nothing is so frustrating. been there, it's rough. but for real, everyone has their own stuff, and yeah, brighter days, they do sneak up when you least expect them. we've just gotta hang tight and keep pushing, 'cause that's what we do!!!!
look, i get where you're coming from, but let's be real:life ain't easy for anyone. "everything bad is always my fault," really? come on; that's taking it too far. everyone deals with tough stuff, and sure, it sucks, but you're acting like no one else gets it. 🤔 people have their own issues, and it feels like you're stuck in this loop of blaming yourself when it's not all about you. try to see the bigger picture, man. it's not a competition of who has it worse. let's not pretend that life owes us anything because it doesn't.