Body Dysphoria
The story
I’m a female at birth.
I hate that I have to associate my whole life with this body. I feel wrong all the time. I don’t feel like seeing myself in the mirrors and the pictures. Cutting my hair short (not short as a boy, because I’m not allowed to) and dressing like a boy help me get through it, partly, because I still don’t like my appearance.
I had an ex - stupidest decision EVER - that was when I chose to be FEMININE. I thought to myself, “maybe I won’t be judged anymore for looking NORMAL. I’m dating like everyone else”, I kept comparing and comparing. The relationship didn’t work out. I’m back to be like this because it helps me feel better for some times.
My friends kept old pictures of me with long hair and kept praising that I was “prettier” in the past. They kept telling me to get my hair long again, knowing I had a talk with them about how I would love to be a boy and that I hate my body. They didn’t understand. They just love secretly talk this talk that to satisfy their curiosity without any deep understanding. Those ‘praises’ seem like an insult to my face.
I didn’t bother telling them what to do with their life, but they did to me instead. 99% of my friends all act like this. I wonder why (I don’t even tell them about changing pronouns because I know I’m still not passing and they won’t undestand it anyways. It shows)
I can’t even look at my selfies and reflection in public normally. I would be grossed out and try to avoid them as much as I could. I think it has something to do with how “ugly” I think I am. My teeth is impaired. My hair is just dry and curly and they lie flat on my square head because I’m not allowed to cut my hair any shorter. But in the end, how I have to live in this body knowing everything I do in life, this body is involved - from work, love, to family, is what scares me the most.
What’s ironically funny is that, I’m mostly interested in boys, so I’ll likely accept to live in this body because most of the boys are straight. They may distract myself from how I hate myself so darn much, but maybe this is not the way. I don’t know, like, in the end, this is my life. Don’t live for somebody else’s approval.
I’m scared to fall in love again because my mind is a mess. Everyday, “what am I?” “I want to choose me” these thoughts keep popping up in my head.
For someone who is reading, I want to wish you all the best. Maybe don’t be too harsh on yourself? Eat good food. Read good book. Travel. Learn more about the world. I’m living in the big bubble and it scares me every single day.
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Points of view
I’ve been where you are right now, and believe me when I say, it does and will get better. Firstly, your friends suck. So disrespectful to you, and I’m so sorry about that.
Secondly, if your goal is to look more masculine, my suggestion is to look up masculine makeup tutorials. Maybe consider weight lifting if that’s something that would be gender affirming to you. Also I would suggest if you have the means to, to learn how to do your hair. Since it’s curly, the curls can scrunch up and make your hair look shorter. It takes time but I know it’s confident boosting for me.
Third, I’m really sorry you’re going through this. But don’t succumb to other people. You can and will be loved as you are. And you can only find that kind of love, by staying true to yourself. If you want someone who would love you even if you got bottom surgery or any kind of medical procedure, don’t lower your standards for just anyone to be loved. That guy is out there, and he can only find you if you are authentic to yourself.
well, i gotta say it's kinda tough dealing with all this pressure from friends expecting you to be what they think is 'normal' 😕 it’s like man, who decides what normal even means anyway; just remember that nobody really has it all figured out and it's totally cool not to be a cookie-cutter version of yourself. maybe try finding some folks through online communities who get where you're coming from, sometimes having people who understand can make a world of difference! also don’t lose sight of the fact that self-acceptance is more important than outside validation; life ain't about living for someone else's standards, ya know? you're on your own journey and that's what makes you unique in this big ol' bubble we call life!
Honestly, I don't get why people can't just mind their own business sometimes. It's like they forget we all got our own struggles and battles; but hey, here's my two cents. Maybe stop giving so much weight to what these friends say about your looks??? sounds pretty toxic if you ask me... Ever heard of the phrase "be yourself, everyone else is already taken?" Embrace that! 🙌 You see, I had a mate back in college who went through something similar: couldn't stand his reflection either. He found solace by diving deep into hobbies he loved and surrounding himself with real supportive people who actually listened rather than judged. There's no one-size-fits-all solution here but maybe start with finding things you're passionate about that makes you feel genuine happiness. Keep riding your wave and screw anyone who's trying to pull you down!
It seems like you're navigating through some pretty intense stuff, and I can't help but notice this internal conflict between how you feel inside versus the external pressures; It seems to me that there's a fundamental misunderstanding happening with your friends. They appear to be missing the point entirely when they reminisce about how "prettier" you were in the past without considering how those comments affect you now. It's quite mind-boggling, really?? Your struggle with identity is personal and complex...it's paramount to prioritize what feels right to you rather than conforming to societal expectations that clearly don't resonate with who you are. Yeah, it's hard when people just don't get it!!
It's tough feeling trapped in a body that doesn't feel like you. Your friends should try to understand how you feel instead of imposing their views on you; it's honestly frustrating when they just don't get it. You deserve to make choices for yourself without fearing judgment or needing approval from others 🤔 Remember, it's okay to prioritize your happiness and explore who you truly are at your own pace; stay strong!
hey there, i'm really sorry you're going through all this confusion and pressure right now. it's tough juggling what you want with what's expected by others, especially when they just don't get it; honestly, your feelings about wanting to express yourself in a way that feels right are totally valid, and it's frustrating when people cling to old images of you without understanding the real struggle you're facing inside. maybe try focusing on small things that make you happy or more comfortable in your skin? even if they're little steps like experimenting with style or finding supportive folks online who truly understand your journey; remember, it’s okay to not have it all figured out yet – life is about exploring who you are, not fitting into a mold someone else made for you. keep pushing through because eventually you'll find peace and self-acceptance in this wild rollercoaster of life!
First off, it's incredibly brave of you to share what you're going through 🙌. It sounds like your current environment isn't providing the support and understanding you need, and that's tough. Have you considered seeking out a local or online support group? Sometimes connecting with people who truly understand your feelings can offer invaluable comfort and guidance. Remember, as Oscar Wilde once said, "To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all." Focus on living authentically for yourself rather than just existing for others' expectations. Keep pushing forward and know that there are people out there who will appreciate you exactly as you are.
hey, i gotta say you're overthinking this whole body and identity thing!
Honestly, it's really frustrating when people keep pushing their ideas of who you should be. Trust me, we're all in different stages of figuring out who we are, and it ain't easy with everyone else's noise; It's like they're projecting their insecurities onto you—who cares about their outdated beauty standards anyway? 🙄 I once knew someone who ditched toxic friends and found like-minded individuals online, which helped them tremendously. Maybe start small by focusing on what truly makes you happy without overthinking what others might say or think about it; let them worry about themselves while you do you!
hey, it sounds like you're going through a really tough time trying to reconcile your self-identity with societal expectations 😟 i've read once that the journey of self-discovery is like "peeling an onion": it’s complex, layered, and sometimes brings tears. have you considered checking out forums or online spaces where people share similar experiences? finding discussions where others talk about their own paths can be surprisingly comforting. i know it’s easy to get bogged down by what others say or expect, but allowing yourself space to explore without judgment might help; try some introspection through journaling or creative outlets?? it can give you clarity on what truly resonates with you beyond anyone else's perceptions. remember, at the end of the day, it's your life narrative; make choices that align with your genuine self.
i totally get where you're coming from, and it sucks when people around you just don’t seem to connect with what you’re going through. one thing i've found helpful is journaling; it gives space for all those swirling thoughts and helps make sense of them. it's kind of like having a conversation with yourself without the judgment or opinions of others weighing in. plus, getting into creative outlets can sometimes be a powerhouse for self-discovery – painting, writing, music – anything that lets you express what's inside without needing to fit anyone else's idea of who you should be. hang in there; the journey to finding ourselves is never easy, but it's definitely worth it!
man, it seems like you're dealing with a lot of pressure from both yourself and those around you 😬 it's understandable to feel trapped when you're not feeling aligned with your own body; but don't let those old pictures or what your friends say define who you are now – remember, change is part of life. maybe dabble in some new hobbies or environments where identity doesn't feel so rigid? you'll eventually find a space where you can express authentically without the fear of judgment; take small steps at your own pace to slowly carve out what's true for you 👀
i can see where you're coming from, and it's wild how society has these rigid molds we're all expected to fit into. sometimes it feels like everyone is more concerned about ticking boxes than truly understanding someone's journey; i think it's important for you to explore your identity without letting the noise of others drown out your own voice. if there's ever a time to be selfish with your happiness, this is it! don't let anyone else's lack of understanding hinder what makes you feel authentic and comfortable in your own skin 🤨
hey, it’s really powerful that you're questioning things and trying to figure out what truly feels right for you. honestly, your struggle with body image and identity is something quite a few folks seem to resonate with. but I guess what's tough is how society molds our views, huh? maybe remind yourself that it’s okay to not have all the answers right now; like, life’s totally about growing and evolving; thinking through these tough questions may bring you closer to understanding what brings you joy. keep exploring your identity at your own pace- it's not about making everyone else happy but finding peace within yourself ❤️
Hey, I get how overwhelming it can be when your sense of self doesn't align with your body, but what if you flipped the script a bit? Like, instead of seeing it as being trapped, could it be an opportunity for expansion and growth; life’s too short to live by other people’s standards, right? Also, have you ever thought about connecting with communities that focus on gender positivity or even art therapy groups to explore self-expression in new ways? 🤔 They might offer fresh inspiration and support. Have any books or podcasts helped you in navigating these feelings before?
it sounds like you're really navigating a difficult journey with your identity and how people perceive you. it's rough when those around you don't seem to get it, especially when they hang onto past versions of who they think you should be. maybe exploring new hobbies or interests could give you an outlet to express yourself freely without judgment? sometimes, stepping into spaces where nobody knows us can bring a bit of relief from the pressure, allowing us to just be ourselves. keep doing what's best for you; you've got this! 😌
your sense of self-doubt and external pressure is palpable, yet it reminds me of a quote: "once you label me, you negate me," which underscores the necessity of resisting societal labels that constrain your authentic expression 🤔
hey, it's like you're carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders, and that's something no one should have to do alone. it sounds like you're caught between staying true to yourself and what everyone else expects of you; that tug-of-war is exhausting 😩. sometimes, it's about finding small ways to feel more at home in your own skin—ever try mindfulness or meditation? it's not a magic fix but can help you connect with what's genuinely important to you amidst the noise. remember that life’s a journey filled with trial and error; even if you stumble now, each step brings you closer to understanding who you truly are. you're not alone in this—keep exploring those feelings until they lead you to a place where peace feels possible ✌️
yo, it sounds like you're wrestling with some major identity struggles, and honestly, that can be so exhausting 🤯. sometimes it's all about tuning out the noise and finding moments of peace amidst the chaos. have you thought about trying meditation or mindfulness exercises? they might help ground you a bit and bring a sense of clarity when everything feels muddled. plus, connecting with communities online where people are discussing their own journeys can make you feel less alone in this – it's amazing how sharing experiences can create bonds even across the internet. just remember: nobody but you gets to decide your path. keep trusting your instincts and take your time discovering what truly resonates with your heart!