Failing everywhere....
The story
Okay I am new here... idk how this works..but still I am here.. So rn I wanna say that
why am I even born.. like god why.. do u see anything good me in ? No !
Uk now I'm tired of talking to new ppl online and then saying the same shit.. hi hello where are you from ? age ? and then the whole loop of stories starts again
like every time the same shit..
I'm tired of me and my silly actions.
my future is in great danger bcoz of me..
I'm failing in neet since the last 5 years... I didn't gave the exam this year... so what ? u would have still failed.... cuz uk u had no preparation !
But damn u definitely know that u can do whatever you want in this world... then whytf are u so lazy ????
I really wanna kill myself... get better for ur own sake gurlllll
And this is not it...
Ur mood changes rapidly... like are u a maniac ? or what ?
one sec my playlist sounds so good and dreamy ... and then the other second u become Arijit Singh... like what the hell is going on... why aren't u stable gurlllll ?
U didn't even had any relationship !!!!
then wtf are these mood swings ?
And to make my life more hell...
day before yesterday
I met that British guy online
he's 6'2 niceee
and ur just 5
okay keep going
u like tall ppl
fine
u got one
fine
actually why don't you just marry a pole for the sake of your life ...
My gurlllll u fell for ppl so easily... like soooo easily !
Ik ur lonely , ur sad , u want love... ikkk gurlllll
but please don't fall for anyone...
that guy complimented u so much
even when he looks wayyyy much hotter
and ur just that potato
idk what did he saw in you
maybe he was saying that all just to use you
and ur an easy prey !
last night he tried to sext with you
I didn't wanted to
but he kept saying those words which u wanted to hear so much...
but not so soon
not just in a day
my gurlllll ikkk ur desperate to find ur ideal love but understand that there's nothing like ideal.. but one day u'll definitely meet that one guy.
don't get desperate
ur not that girl
uk it
u have kept ur sanity safe till so many days for someone special
ik ur alone.. depressed.. in anxiety.. ur young 21 yr girl.. ik ur hormones.. ik ur feelings
but bcoz of these stupid hormones which just get turned on unnecessarily seeing a hot guy..
U CAN'T DESTROY URSELF !
focus on ur career .. on ur studies.. on ur parents.. on urself
u'll achieve everything ik
just stop doing stupid things to find love.. I beg u
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man, i totally feel you on this one; like it's such a relatable vibe??? i don't even know why it's like that sometimes 🤔 just trying to figure life out ugh. and yeah, the online chat thing is such a never-ending cycle... feels like groundhog day for real. i've totally been there with the hormones acting up at the worst times... it's super frustrating! focus on yourself, i believe things will get better, but yeah sometimes it just feels impossible!!! it's tough out there, but you gotta do what's best for you. hang in there!
thank you for understanding ... now ik that I'm not alone in this frustrating loop lol . Ur msg meant alot to me ❤️❤️
honestly, you gotta chill out a bit; don't stress so much about life's chaos! no point in beating yourself up over these things... dealing with mood swings and online dudes isn't the end of the world, I've been through it too, and it can feel endless 😅 what’s with all the fuss about not being in a relationship?!? sometimes being single is just what you need to focus on yourself. people fall into the traps of desperation and let it control their actions, but you gotta wrestle back that power, you know? i'm just saying, maybe try letting things settle naturally, give yourself a break already!!!
Ik but idk I constantly get back into the same loop and then regret so much....I'm just making my mind let know that you don't have to do any mistake which u can't control...at this age hormones and these emotions are just out of control...rn maybe I'm just getting in this loop back again and again ... just to distract my mind for a lil bit and just have the attention.. but inside somewhere I feel that this is draining my energy , my soul , my real self, this is distracting but I'm not this person.. I don't want to be this.. it just feels like my real soul is silent inside just watching the whole drama.. and something fake is on my front end interacting with strangers..still I try my best to be real.. I just think this is a phase... like our childhood was so good with really no tension of being judged by anyone .. but I'm just trying to recover from this emotional rollercoaster thing.. ik nothing much has happened to my life... but I just said whatever I felt !
sounds like you're going through a lot but maybe you're overthinking things a bit? focusing on the "ideal love" thing can be distracting!!! i've seen people stress so much over this and it just leads to burnout. if you “keep your sanity safe” and work on your own goals first, everything else will likely fall into place. it's not like this is a sprint, you know? just some food for thought, try not to dwell on the negatives so much... progress is progress, no matter how small it seems!
thank you so much ! I read my post again... I literally rant so much lol !
i get that you're feeling overwhelmed, but maybe you're looking at things through a pretty negative lens? trust me, i've been there too, but focusing too much on what's wrong can just spiral ya' know? maybe that British guy wasn't all that, but not everyone is out to get you; sometimes we gotta give people a chance before jumping to conclusions! i remember when i thought everyone i met was just after something, but then realized it's not always like that. it's totally normal to have mood swings and feel unsure at times, but maybe try to focus on what's actually within your control? things like career might start looking up if you shift your perspective a bit!!!
thanks for reply first of all.... ik ik ik I'm a very over thinker kind of person rn... uk that's why today I just deleted all my accounts of social media.. so that I can really focus on myself... I really want to be dedicated for my studies.. I'm literally dying thinking every minute every second that my career and studies are the most important thing.. so better work on it... and that British guy... idk about him ... that how he really is.. cuz I really don't know how to know if ppl are really what they say ... or it's just so difficult for me to understand ppl that if they're honest or not... so I'm just trying to keep the track through actions.. idk if I should share this or not .. it's like very easy for me to open to ppl and fall for them .. like ik I shouldn't trust everybody... but whoever talks to me... they talk so nicely that I feel like I'm in love with them... I can share any problem or whatever with them... that's what I did with that British guy .. he was already so appealing to eyes and his words were making me go crazy more... I still feel he's genuine idk why... but actually what he did would surprise you... or maybe not cuz ppl online are like that... he fell for my beauty... which ik that I do not look that good compared to other girls... but he said he liked me ... he was glad I met him... he kept complementing me... things later got hot... and in the hotness of the hour... things happened through the texts... and now it happened daily for three days... like through texts if u understand....... I like him .. maybe it's just a physical thing.... but I regret it... cuz I'm not that kinda girl... I'm really not... I was just looking for someone genuine to talk to... and things happened... that's why today I deleted every social media app ... except this app... I don't want to regret anymore... I want to just focus on myself... but the need for someone to talk to just never dies... I really want to duct tape myself lol
good decision, a good cure without social networks with focus on yourself 😘 take care! 💪