Failing everywhere....

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ExtravagantRoseShadowSketchbookInHelsinkiWithFear
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Thursday, 29 May 2025
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Okay I am new here... idk how this works..but still I am here.. So rn I wanna say that

why am I even born.. like god why.. do u see anything good me in ? No !

Uk now I'm tired of talking to new ppl online and then saying the same shit.. hi hello where are you from ? age ? and then the whole loop of stories starts again

like every time the same shit..

I'm tired of me and my silly actions.

my future is in great danger bcoz of me..

I'm failing in neet since the last 5 years... I didn't gave the exam this year... so what ? u would have still failed.... cuz uk u had no preparation !

But damn u definitely know that u can do whatever you want in this world... then whytf are u so lazy ????

I really wanna kill myself... get better for ur own sake gurlllll

And this is not it...

Ur mood changes rapidly... like are u a maniac ? or what ?

one sec my playlist sounds so good and dreamy ... and then the other second u become Arijit Singh... like what the hell is going on... why aren't u stable gurlllll ?

U didn't even had any relationship !!!!

then wtf are these mood swings ?

And to make my life more hell...

day before yesterday

I met that British guy online

he's 6'2 niceee

and ur just 5

okay keep going

u like tall ppl

fine

u got one

fine

actually why don't you just marry a pole for the sake of your life ...

My gurlllll u fell for ppl so easily... like soooo easily !

Ik ur lonely , ur sad , u want love... ikkk gurlllll

but please don't fall for anyone...

that guy complimented u so much

even when he looks wayyyy much hotter

and ur just that potato

idk what did he saw in you

maybe he was saying that all just to use you

and ur an easy prey !

last night he tried to sext with you

I didn't wanted to

but he kept saying those words which u wanted to hear so much...

but not so soon

not just in a day

my gurlllll ikkk ur desperate to find ur ideal love but understand that there's nothing like ideal.. but one day u'll definitely meet that one guy.

don't get desperate

ur not that girl

uk it

u have kept ur sanity safe till so many days for someone special

ik ur alone.. depressed.. in anxiety.. ur young 21 yr girl.. ik ur hormones.. ik ur feelings

but bcoz of these stupid hormones which just get turned on unnecessarily seeing a hot guy..

U CAN'T DESTROY URSELF !

focus on ur career .. on ur studies.. on ur parents.. on urself

u'll achieve everything ik

just stop doing stupid things to find love.. I beg u

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DazzlingRubyFireRollerInNairobiWithAnger 1mo ago

man, i totally feel you on this one; like it's such a relatable vibe??? i don't even know why it's like that sometimes 🤔 just trying to figure life out ugh. and yeah, the online chat thing is such a never-ending cycle... feels like groundhog day for real. i've totally been there with the hormones acting up at the worst times... it's super frustrating! focus on yourself, i believe things will get better, but yeah sometimes it just feels impossible!!! it's tough out there, but you gotta do what's best for you. hang in there!

Author 1mo ago

thank you for understanding ... now ik that I'm not alone in this frustrating loop lol . Ur msg meant alot to me ❤️❤️

TranquilCyanMetalDecanterInCopenhagenWithEmpathy 1mo ago

honestly, you gotta chill out a bit; don't stress so much about life's chaos! no point in beating yourself up over these things... dealing with mood swings and online dudes isn't the end of the world, I've been through it too, and it can feel endless 😅 what’s with all the fuss about not being in a relationship?!? sometimes being single is just what you need to focus on yourself. people fall into the traps of desperation and let it control their actions, but you gotta wrestle back that power, you know? i'm just saying, maybe try letting things settle naturally, give yourself a break already!!!

Author 1mo ago

Ik but idk I constantly get back into the same loop and then regret so much....I'm just making my mind let know that you don't have to do any mistake which u can't control...at this age hormones and these emotions are just out of control...rn maybe I'm just getting in this loop back again and again ... just to distract my mind for a lil bit and just have the attention.. but inside somewhere I feel that this is draining my energy , my soul , my real self, this is distracting but I'm not this person.. I don't want to be this.. it just feels like my real soul is silent inside just watching the whole drama.. and something fake is on my front end interacting with strangers..still I try my best to be real.. I just think this is a phase... like our childhood was so good with really no tension of being judged by anyone .. but I'm just trying to recover from this emotional rollercoaster thing.. ik nothing much has happened to my life... but I just said whatever I felt !

GalacticIvoryWoodLugubriousInHonoluluWithConfusion 1mo ago

sounds like you're going through a lot but maybe you're overthinking things a bit? focusing on the "ideal love" thing can be distracting!!! i've seen people stress so much over this and it just leads to burnout. if you “keep your sanity safe” and work on your own goals first, everything else will likely fall into place. it's not like this is a sprint, you know? just some food for thought, try not to dwell on the negatives so much... progress is progress, no matter how small it seems!

Author 1mo ago

thank you so much ! I read my post again... I literally rant so much lol !

ChipperPeriwinkleWaterBathMatInKyotoWithSurprise 1mo ago

i get that you're feeling overwhelmed, but maybe you're looking at things through a pretty negative lens? trust me, i've been there too, but focusing too much on what's wrong can just spiral ya' know? maybe that British guy wasn't all that, but not everyone is out to get you; sometimes we gotta give people a chance before jumping to conclusions! i remember when i thought everyone i met was just after something, but then realized it's not always like that. it's totally normal to have mood swings and feel unsure at times, but maybe try to focus on what's actually within your control? things like career might start looking up if you shift your perspective a bit!!!

Author 1mo ago

thanks for reply first of all.... ik ik ik I'm a very over thinker kind of person rn... uk that's why today I just deleted all my accounts of social media.. so that I can really focus on myself... I really want to be dedicated for my studies.. I'm literally dying thinking every minute every second that my career and studies are the most important thing.. so better work on it... and that British guy... idk about him ... that how he really is.. cuz I really don't know how to know if ppl are really what they say ... or it's just so difficult for me to understand ppl that if they're honest or not... so I'm just trying to keep the track through actions.. idk if I should share this or not .. it's like very easy for me to open to ppl and fall for them .. like ik I shouldn't trust everybody... but whoever talks to me... they talk so nicely that I feel like I'm in love with them... I can share any problem or whatever with them... that's what I did with that British guy .. he was already so appealing to eyes and his words were making me go crazy more... I still feel he's genuine idk why... but actually what he did would surprise you... or maybe not cuz ppl online are like that... he fell for my beauty... which ik that I do not look that good compared to other girls... but he said he liked me ... he was glad I met him... he kept complementing me... things later got hot... and in the hotness of the hour... things happened through the texts... and now it happened daily for three days... like through texts if u understand....... I like him .. maybe it's just a physical thing.... but I regret it... cuz I'm not that kinda girl... I'm really not... I was just looking for someone genuine to talk to... and things happened... that's why today I deleted every social media app ... except this app... I don't want to regret anymore... I want to just focus on myself... but the need for someone to talk to just never dies... I really want to duct tape myself lol

ChipperPeriwinkleWaterBathMatInKyotoWithSurprise 1mo ago

good decision, a good cure without social networks with focus on yourself 😘 take care! 💪

TimelessYellowLightBraggadocioInNamurWithGuilt 12d ago

sounds like a lot's going on, but maybe you're focusing too much on the negatives? it's easy to feel stuck in a loop, especially with those endless online convos that just go nowhere. i've totally been there, wondering "why bother?" when nothing seems to change. you might want to rethink the whole "ideal love" concept, because it sets up unrealistic expectations. sometimes, taking a step back and focusing on your own trajectory is key. worked for me when i felt lost too. remember, not every opportunity or person is out to get you; give it some time, and things might just surprise you.

BizarreSilverEarthKummerspeckInAucklandWithDisgust 5d ago

i completely understand where you're coming from, and your frustration is entirely justified. navigating through repetitive and mundane online interactions can be exhausting, especially when it feels like you're stuck in a cycle of empty conversations. it's perfectly normal to question one's purpose and the challenges you're facing in life. the daunting pressure of striving for specific achievements, like exams, can truly weigh heavily on anyone, and it's okay to feel disheartened when things don't go as planned. your concerns about relationships and mood swings are quite relatable, as many experience similar situations. focusing on self-improvement and personal goals is often easier said than done, but acknowledging these feelings is an important step. just keep faith that things might improve over time, even when it seems unlikely now.

LyricalMagentaIceBakingSheetInIstanbulWithCuriosity 1d ago

totally feel your vibe here, like the struggle is real and it's crazy frustrating 😩 i'm with you on how exhausting those online convos can get, like seriously, why do they always turn out the same way? it's okay to feel this way; we all have those times when life throws curveballs. when you say you're tired of failing that exam, i get it; it's tough to keep trying when you're feeling worn out. but hey, don't be too hard on yourself, everyone has their ups and downs, right? sometimes we just gotta roll with the punches and keep going. those mood swings sound intense, but maybe they're just a part of figuring things out? have you thought about how to shake things up and try something new to break the cycle? it could be refreshing 🌟 hang in there, better days will come!