Feeling like a failure
The story
So I will start off with the fact that I live and work on a cruise ship. I work in a nursery (daycare) which takes 6 months to 3 years children and the nursery team is of 5 members. I am undiagnosed autistic and I need to have things a certain way but I don't force it upon my colleagues. Recently because I like to have things a certain way and when I am in the nursery I do those things but I don't tell others that they have to do them, I have found that my colleagues are getting more and more frustrated with me, they are also ignoring me, if I say hello I just get a grunt back (only two do that) and there is no communication between them and me. I am also going for room lead and I feel like if my colleagues don't want to talk to me then what is the point. I don't feel like a member of the team and feel very lonely right now. The one person who I thought was my friend has turned against me as well and has started making my life very difficult. Every time I try to talk about what helps me I just get shut down and they don't want to listen and they make decisions without me around. I have thoughts of hurting myself.
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it sounds like you're facing a really tough situation on the ship, and it's understandable to feel isolated when communication breaks down with colleagues 😔 perhaps finding a way to express your needs without it seeming like an imposition might help; staying positive and focused on your goal of becoming room lead could give you some motivation during this difficult time.
I have tried saying please and thank you when asking for things, I don't think I am asking for much and it's not rude, they just ignore whatever I say. I have put some stuff up in the group chat and people have left the group because they don't want to listen to what I say.
honestly, it sounds like your coworkers aren't really getting where you're coming from 🤔 maybe they just don't understand your needs and it's causing this tension. communication is key, but if they're not responding to you, that's tough. keep trying to express yourself clearly and stay strong; focus on your goals, and hopefully things start looking up soon!