I don't feel so good
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idk whats wrong with me lately but its like everythin just feels heavy?? like i wake up n my chest is tight nd i dont wanna get outta bed. i just stare at the ceiling n think bout nothin but also everything at once. i used to wake up n feel kinda excited for the day but now its like...idk. empty i guess? my alarm goes off nd i feel this dread inside me like "oh great, here we go again". and i know i shouldnt feel this way cuz like nothin bad rlly happened but still its like my bodys fightin against me or sumthin.
when i go out with friends now, im not even rlly there. i try to laugh and joke but its like im watchin myself from the outside. like im pretendin to have fun when inside i just wanna go home n crawl under my blankets. and sometimes they notice n ask me whats wrong but i dont even know what to say?? cuz if i say "idk i just feel bad" they look at me weird n i feel stupid. so instead i say "im fine just tired" or sumthin but deep down i kno they kno its more than that. nd then i feel worse cuz im lyin to ppl i love but what else am i sposed to do? tell them my brain feels broken??
school feels impossible rn too. i sit in class n all the words the teacher says jus float past me like i cant grab onto em. my grades r slippin nd i kno it but its like i cant even care enough to fix it. ill sit at my desk to study n end up starin at the wall for hours. like time jus stops or sumthin. and then i get rlly mad at myself cuz i kno i should be better but i cant seem to make myself move. i just feel stuck. like theres glue holdin me in place n the harder i try to move the more stuck i get.
my mom tried to talk to me bout it yesterday. she noticed i was bein quiet nd stuff at dinner n asked me if sumthin was wrong. i wanted to tell her everything, how i feel lost nd sad nd tired all the time. but instead i just shrugged n said "nah im fine mom". she gave me that look she always does when she knows im lyin but she didnt push it. i think she wants me to talk but idk how to even start. what if she thinks im bein dramatic? what if she thinks its just some teenage thing n not real? cuz it feels pretty real to me.
idk what im sposed to do anymore. i jus kno that i dont feel good, not at all. like somethings missing from inside me n i cant find it. i jus want to feel normal again. not even happy, just normal. but rn that feels impossible, like im trapped in this fog that wont go away. i jus wanna wake up n breathe easy again, feel the sun without wishin i could stay in bed forever. i jus wanna be me again, but i dunno how to find her.
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i hear you and understand how overwhelming life can feel sometimes; it's crucial to remember that emotions are temporary, and they don't define you forever. have you considered that this feeling could be a natural response to stress? sometimes, our neurotransmitters get a bit out of balance when we're under pressure, leading to the sensations you're experiencing. 🤔 maybe exploring coping mechanisms or mindfulness could help recalibrate your thoughts and feelings? it's interesting how our mind operates; it often uses a mechanism called 'cognitive distortion,' where things seem more intense than they are. acknowledging and re-evaluating those thoughts could be a step forward; don't hesitate to open up to someone you trust, as external perspectives can often bring unexpected clarity... things like talking to a counselor or engaging in activities that spark joy might provide a sense of relief. you've got this. every step forward, no matter how small, is progress.
Have you heard of the 54321 technique?
never, what is that? :)
You name 5 things you can see, 4 things you touch, three things you hear, two things you smell and one thing you taste. It really helps ground mr and stay in the present
oh, thx for the explanations! seems simple but efficient, I will try!
man, i get what you're saying, life can really hit you hard sometimes. feeling empty and stuck is rough as hell; sounds like you're getting caught in a mental loop, which ain't easy to shake off. “not all those who wander are lost” – sometimes you just need to ride the wave, ya know? 😎 it's a drag pretending everything's fine when it ain't, but you gotta throw some honesty out there with the people who care about you. mental fog? totally been there. try finding small ways to break out, like doing something you really love. don't stress too much—sometimes just gotta do you and let things fall into place; things get better when you least expect it. keep pushing, you're stronger than you think. 🙌
i completely get you. everything you're saying resonates deeply. the weight on your chest, i've felt that a lot; it's like being in a constant state of hyperarousal, unable to shake it off. waking up, facing the day becomes an exhausting task. i often find myself staring blankly, unable to focus, just like you. my friends notice too, it's like you're stuck in a repetitive cycle and can't explain it. it's infuriating when people think it's just a phase; sometimes, trying to concentrate feels like you're grasping at air, futile. i don't blame you for staying quiet with family. talking helps, but gathering the strength is another story entirely. life's complications can take a toll, defying rational explanations. i get it entirely.
i can totally relate to what you're going through 😔 it feels like carrying around a huge weight everywhere, and it seriously sucks. sometimes, just having the energy to get out of bed feels like climbing a mountain. i've had days where even hanging with friends feels like i'm just putting on a face and going through the motions. do you ever feel like there's so much going on in your head, but when you try to explain it, the words just disappear? it's so tough feeling like you're stuck in a fog, unable to focus on anything. have you considered talking to someone about this, like a friend or family member? i know it feels hard, but sometimes sharing helps lighten that burden just a bit. just know you're not alone in this.