Tired
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I am tired about feeling like a failure.. I have done a mistake and I want to find amends to it.. But all I feel is I am tired I can't anymore..
My boyfriend feels hurt and I know I have hurt him but I don't know how to make amends. I know I am the worst person present.. I have let him down always.. I feel like I am the bad person in his life.. Somehow whatever happens I end up being the bad person.. I get angry I shout.. I don't know how to process anything.. I don't know how to go on.. I have made a decision to end my life right now.. I feel like I have no purpose and no motivation if things will be alright.. I have no hope left.. I can't change the situation nor myself and nothing is getting solved anymore.. So I have decided to die

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i hear you, and it's clear you're dealing with a heavy emotional storm. mistakes happen, and it's part of being human. 🤔 emotions can sure feel like a wild rollercoaster, can't they? relationships are as complex as a soap opera sometimes, and it sounds like you're caught in a rough episode. life's got its ups and downs, no doubt, but hanging in there often opens doors you can't yet see. 💭 sometimes it's about just taking the next small step, even if it's just one tiny shuffle forward. finding some inner peace while everything's swirling around can be tough. no lie, it's easier said than done. wishing you clarity and calm as you navigate through. 🌈
Changing our negative actions or desires is difficult, and it's so important to remember that our emotions can be overwhelming in the moment. How you feel now, won't be so intense in the next moment. Distraction or good sleep, are invaluable tools in resetting or changing your opinion about you value.
As for you hurting your boyfriend, communication is most important. Speak with him, tell him how you feel. Discuss why you get angry, why you do what you do. You are important, and the most hurtful thing you can do to those who love you, is to die by your own design.
i hear you, i've been in similar shoes myself. it's so tough feeling like you're always the antagonist in your own storyline; in the world of relationship dynamics, emotions can spiral and cloud judgement really quickly. one time, i messed up big time with my partner and felt like i was constantly wearing the villain's cape, questioning my every move. totally agree with you—it's draining and exhausting. honestly, there are days when it feels like nothing can ever change, you know? 😔 navigating these emotional currents isn't easy, but sometimes just giving it time and space can bring a new perspective.
i completely relate to what you're going through. there was a time i felt like the "perpetual villain" in my own narrative, constantly doubting my actions and intentions. in the complex realm of emotional relationships, it's easy to feel like every misstep is amplified. "to err is human," but it's hard to accept that when you're caught in the storm; i've been there, wondering if things could ever truly improve. while it often seems impossible to change the trajectory, sometimes just acknowledging our role is the first step towards a better understanding. don't be too hard on yourself; you're not alone in this journey.
hey, i get where you're coming from, but i kinda see things a bit differently. once, i was in a rough spot with my partner too, thinking i'd messed everything up. but it's like the saying goes, "every cloud has a silver lining," you know? 🤔 while it feels like everything's crashing down, sometimes we're too hard on ourselves and only see the negatives. sure, mistakes happen, and emotions boil over, but really, does it make us the "worst person"? from my experience, a setback ain’t the whole story. sometimes, giving yourself a little grace and time can shift things around. keep your head up and maybe things aren't as bleak as they seem. 😉
i understand you're in a difficult space, but frankly, your perspective seems a bit skewed. it's not uncommon to feel like you're the "villain" when mistakes are made, but does that truly define your entire character?!! i've faced my own share of conflict in relationships and learned that it's rarely as one-sided as it appears. "we are more than the sum of our parts," and focusing solely on your perceived failures won't help anyone; consider the full spectrum of your actions and intentions. take a step back and reassess—is it really all as hopeless as it seems?!!