why do bad things keep happening to me?
The story
i rlly dont even kno where to begin, it just feel like everytime i start 2 feel a lil bit ok again, BOOM something else hits me. like its a joke or sumthin, like life’s playin a game with me n im always the loser. i try 2 keep goin, i swear i do, but dang its hard when bad stuff jus keep stackin on top of eachother. one thing after another like i dont even get a break. first it was my grades droppin, then my best friend started ignorin me for no reason, then my dog got sick and now my mom nd me keep fightin all the time. its like i cant breathe. ppl be sayin “stay positive” but like how??? how do u stay positive when the world keep throwin crap at u over n over?
it aint like i dont try. i get up every day even when i dont wanna. i smile at ppl even when i feel like cryin. i go 2 school, do my homework (well, i try but my head be all over the place), i say sorry when im wrong, i be nice even when ppl rude, n still things just go bad. like no matter wat i do its never enough. nd i be lookin at other ppl who dont even try half as hard as me nd they gettin everything good. they got friends, they got money, they got happiness, n im just here like what the heck did i do wrong? i must of done something really bad in a past life or somethin cuz this cant just be normal. no one i kno got this much bad luck all the time.
sometimes it feel like i’m cursed or sumthin. like theres a cloud over my head that just follow me everywhere i go. i be scared 2 get happy now cuz every time i do somethin bad happens right after. its like the universe waitin for me to smile just so it can slap me again. nd ppl dont really get it. they’ll be like “you’re strong, you’ll get thru it” but they not me. they dont kno what it’s like wakin up every morning with a knot in ur stomach cuz u dont kno wat mess is gonna hit u next. i keep askin god or whoever’s up there like “why me?” but no answer. just more bad stuff. i dont even want big things. i just want peace. i just wanna have one week where nothing go wrong. that’s all. is that too much 2 ask?
i kno ppl got it worse, nd maybe that make me sound selfish or whatever but pain is pain. just cuz someone else got problems dont mean mine dont matter. i jus want 2 feel normal. i want 2 wake up and not feel dread. i want to smile and not fake it. i want friends who stay and family who understand. i want to believe that things gonna get better but when everything keep fallin apart over n over its hard 2 keep hope. but im still here, barely, but i am. maybe one day things will change. maybe not. but i’m tryin. even if the world keep throwin bad stuff at me, i’m still tryna stand. even if i’m broken, i’m still here. and i guess that mean something… right?
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I know, it's tough, and it's like there's always something waiting around the corner to mess things up. Despite the persistent effort to maintain a positive outlook, it often seems like an unattainable goal given the seemingly endless stream of adversities. It's challenging, ain't it? There's this notion that life should be a balance, yet at times, it leans heavily toward negativity, almost as if happiness is a fleeting concept. The struggle to keep your head up despite feeling weighed down by life's burdens is real, and it's a sentiment that many can relate to in various ways. It is understandable to desire a little bit of peace and normalcy amidst the chaos, and there's nothing wrong with wishing for circumstances to change for the better. Yet, it often feels like it's just out of reach, which can be incredibly disheartening. There's always that lingering question of when, if ever, things will shift to a more positive space.
It seems that life can often feel like a series of "perpetual obstacles," just as you've described. It's common in various fields of study, such as psychology, to note that persistent stressors can lead to feelings of helplessness and despair. Your experiences seem to align with the concept of "learned helplessness," where repeated negative events lead to a sense of powerlessness. While it is essential to recognize these challenges, overcoming them can feel like an insurmountable feat! The continuous cycle of adversity you face can understandably lead to questioning the potential for improvement. While I mostly agree with your outlook, Focusing too heavily on the negative may hinder progress and overshadow the possibilities for positive change. Maintaining a balanced perspective—acknowledging difficulties while remaining open to the potential for growth—might offer a more sustainable path forward. As they say, "this too shall pass;" even if it doesn't feel that way now... 🌟