We are moving pretty SOOn
The story
Yeah, uh, shocking thing coming up. Maybe in a few months we may be moving to a different home. We bought some property, we paid off a large amount of debt, and the houses are almost done! We made a good investment, since it's a larger house with I think joint houses, and it's larger than an apartment we live in. I'm also kinda scared, since I'm not in my familiar place anymore, I'm way farther than when we last moved, and what if the kids there think I'm still weird? Plus, next year, my class is getting shuffled, plus new kids are coming, so what if they also find their own groups without me, and even in the new neighborhood I'm alone and left out? If that will happen, then guess what, it's a sign the universe is telling me I'm destined for isolation, because who needs people anyways? I heard hermits can be happy being alone, and plus, I wanted to befriend a new kid in this grade earlier, it never happened, so I give up. At least it's easier than failing over and over again. I'd feel worse because even when we shuffled, I'd have no one miss me at all, or even cross their minds. I won't be missed by anyone from school at all. An incident yesterday, when I was reading a Naruto book, 2 kids were asking each other if they liked anime, both which said no and called it boring. Now, I don't care if you like or hate it, but in that context with me around, I felt bad, like they were talking about me.
I can be tough! I can be hard! Why are you suggesting I show vulnerability, if I can get hurt!? As a child, an adult, in life! Who'd wanna reveal all their weaknesses to a random person who's a friend? Maybe they're hiding their plan to hurt you, to humiliate you, to degrade and make nasty jokes about you online in spaces for months just to remind you you're an idiot, or leave you behind because they think you're a weirdo!? My brother is right, I never had a friend and never will! He's found his species, yet I'm the only one remaining. People hurt each other, and I'm not gonna be caught in their crossfires. I feel like Sid, from Toy Story. Braces, kinda angry, friendless cus they're scary, we both cut up toys and reattach their parts, but mostly, I feel like a dumb nerd. I can know too much of a few subjects, especially science, and my brother really hates the "try-hards", the ones who are quiet and get high marks. He calls them lonely people. Bria my doll feels like a bad kid's art project! God, this version of me is....not at all what my younger self wanted. When I told my mom I knew way more than the class about the uh...puberty chapter that even the teacher acknowledged (I was surprised even the girls didn't know the thing after your period was the ovulation cycle which is when you are able to get pregnant), my mom said I was a nice R&D kid, which I thought she said sarcastically, before mom said it was a real compliment. But yeah, 6 y/o me would've never wanted this as her future. 6 y/o me would've called me now a "friendless nerd" too.
I feel like such a nerd for reading JJBA, like, the show's there for a reason! I already feel like a big nerd. No friends, have a niche interest, I have braces, I'm kinda short at 5'4", not really that pretty, and now I'm reading a manga and not watching the anime because I can't watch Netflix because my dad thinks JoJo is weird (seriously, if I tell him that JoJo has scenes like Giorno caressing Mista or that DIO is bi, he'll say it's a "woke" show, when really Araki did this to be even more bizarre), and I don't even know if JoJo airs where I live on Netflix. I'm a bigger nerd for reading Jojo. You know what's my future? A friendless, short, ugly, nerd, smart-ass, snitch version of me. Yeah, no wonder I don't have friends. And mom's lying when she says I'll meet them as an adult! I won't! They'll only short-term friends and not good ones, like what dad said. In fact, screw even finding love at all, because right now, dad said him and mom are just lucky. Not everyone is lucky. They got lucky and managed somehow for 16 years. Seriously, whenever I hear mom tell me she sometimes hate some aspects about dad (he can get overly angry sometimes), I think they're gonna divorce because it all starts from there, right? Plus, mom is a child of divorce, so maybe the cycle repeats. 5 years down the line (I'm 13), I'll be friendless, and then my hobbies will go away forever because of immense IGCSE homework and whatnot, and bam! Next friendless person in the world's billion populated list of friendless, 25 y/o virgins! Even my classmates all have someone! And because of that, they all act like idiots in school! They all have fun and goof off! And those who score higher are just smarter than me. They're not try-hards, they're not-try-at-all because they're smarter than me. And you know what, I will become a lonely, 25 y/o virgin with no hobbies like every adult on Earth, movies say it and real people say it. Then when I turn 30, I'll become 70kg at 5'4" dwarf heights, I'll still be a virgin and I'll be called old with multiple skin tags and wrinkles. I even feel like a messiah next to my classmates because I predicted my true future! Theirs are different because they have people, I don't. Again, by 30, I'll be fat, still short, still ugly, I'll develop skin tags next and maybe my eczema will worsen, I'll be lonely, and I'll lose every time for any hobby and work away in a 9-9 job. Exactly like Bridget Jones! She's what every woman on social media is at 30! Heck, they make videos fearing when they turn 30! I won't find love by then unless I make myself the brothel-girl, because I've heard that's how you get pimped out by someone. Still, my future is dull. And 70kg at 5'4" is very bad, I'll weigh as much as my 43 y/o dad and he's 5'11"!
Anxiety is good for you. I'm not drained, I don't even know it feels to be drained. Maybe anxiety and this constant worrying is good, you're saying adulthood isn't bad because movies sell that. Adulthood sucks because you work 9-9, you lose hobbies due to exhaustion, and if you're a woman, please! I'll still be short at 5'4", and I won't remain 45kg, I'll become 70kg at 30! That's overweight territory! I won't have friends because office is a jungle of competition, so me worrying and giving up is normal! Dad finds those people at 30 like one of my uncles who lives with his parents because he's in a PhD kinda thing and he's super energetic "weird". I thought he was 20, not 35! So if this were the case, look what happens. Dad thinks they're weird. It's all a movie's lie when they say it'll get better. Dad may work 9-6, but I don't think every adult works for that long. I heard in some countries they slog for 9-9, and slogging is good. At least I'd be occupied by work and not people probably secretly wishing harm to me because I'm competition in the workplace! I ain't listening to mom when they say bonding is seen each other's strengths and as much you're both competition you shouldn't bring each other down. In the office, there's a war. There's a scheme where everyone wants to humiliate or berate you. I'm the only Bucciarati in a space of La Squadra Esecuzioni assassins! I have always had such a critical mind. As much as I hate having it, it's the only thing keeping me alive. It's like having a vegetable, you hate it but you gotta eat it to live.
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Hey there! 😊 It sounds like you've got a lot on your mind, and it's completely normal to feel overwhelmed with so many changes happening; Moving to a new place can be daunting, but it also offers a fresh slate full of possibilities! I remember when I moved during my high school years (terrifying at first…) but it gradually opened up opportunities to meet people who shared my interests. It's natural to worry about fitting in, but often, those concerns are more in our heads than reality. Give yourself time and grace, you might discover friendships where you least expect them!
It's understandable to feel overwhelmed by the uncertainty of moving and the potential changes in your social circle!! Keep faith in life's ability to surprise you sometimes! :-)
I get what you're saying, seriously. Moving sucks and new social circles can feel like a battlefield sometimes, but don't count yourself out just yet. I used to think the universe was conspiring to isolate me too, especially during times of change; turns out it's more like a push to find your actual tribe!
You know that Sid from Toy Story vibe you mentioned? Yeah, that's actually unique as hell in my book: embrace it! Being smart isn't a curse even if some folks can't handle it. If people can't deal with your interests or quirks (like cutting up toys or knowing too much about science), they're not worth your energy anyway. Plus, being called a nerd ain't all bad; ever noticed how everyone's catching onto stuff we loved years ago? Time has this weird way of turning the tables like that.
it's rough feeling like you're standing on the edge of a cliff with so much uncertainty ahead, I get it; honestly, though, life can take some unexpected turns that might surprise you in a good way!
yeah moving can suck but it's not the end of the world! 🤗
dude, you're overthinking this whole moving thing. it's not the end of the world!!! it's just a new chapter!!! ever try looking it at like an adventure? sounds cheesy, but sometimes you gotta roll with what life's throwing at ya 🎢
btw, being into science and anime ain't exactly a crime, if those kids can't appreciate that, they're honestly missing out. here's a question for ya: have you thought about joining groups or clubs that align with your interests when you move? might be worth a shot to meet peeps who actually get it 🤔
There aren't that I know of, I live in a small country (not Vatican but it's small),so stuff like that are a bit rare and hard to find
your perspective on adulthood seems a bit skewed.... does it really have to be all doom and gloom?? maybe you're focusing too much on the negatives and not seeing any potential positives; why would you assume you'll be friendless forever just because things are tough now?!? you've mentioned science knowledge, isn't it worth considering how that could play positively into future opportunities or friendships??? 😏
man, i totally get where you're coming from! 😣 it's like life just keeps throwing curveballs and you’re stuck dealing with them all alone; i once moved when i was around your age too, not gonna lie it was tough at first. but hear me out: sometimes feeling like a lone wolf isn’t as bad as it seems... gives you that extra bit of character, y'know? 🤔 maybe consider reaching out online to find communities who dig the same things you do? could connect with fellow science nerds or anime fans! also, don't sweat on the "nerd" label; being different isn't always a downer and can be pretty cool in its own way! keep rocking being you 💪!!
Man, it's like you're looking at life through a funhouse mirror or something; you're only seeing the twisted version. I get it, moving is rough and thinking about making new friends feels like climbing Everest without a guide. But trust me, not everyone you run into is gonna be an undercover snake waiting to bite; some folks are genuinely good peeps who might just vibe with your quirks: maybe even share them!✌️ The future ain't written in stone (or manga pages), so give yourself some slack and see where this wild ride takes you; maybe those nerdy bits you’re worried about will actually come in handy one day when you least expect it!
While your concerns about moving and social isolation are understandable given the upheaval you're facing, labeling yourself as "friendless" forever may be premature; rather than focusing solely on potential setbacks, have you considered how many companies value expertise in science and diverse interests like anime nowadays?
oh man, you're really diving deep into that pool of anxiety and negative thinking! like seriously, it's as if you’re writing your life's script as a tragedy before it even unfolds; life ain't some rom-com or drama where everything's bound to go downhill! sure, moving and making new friends can feel daunting but have you considered maybe this could be a chance to reset? often the darkest times precede the brightest dawns 🌅; trust me, venturing out of your comfort zone can lead to crazy good things. take it from someone who was once in a similar spot: flexing those brain muscles and having unique interests can actually set you apart in the best way possible. plus, science nerds are known for shaping the future... might make sense why people can't keep up now 😉
It's understandable to feel overwhelmed with all these changes on the horizon, but it's essential to keep some perspective. Moving can be intimidating, but it's also a chance to reinvent yourself and explore new possibilities! As for worrying about the future, remember that each day is full of opportunities waiting to be seized; you might find people who truly appreciate your unique qualities. Embrace your inner science and anime enthusiast: those interests make you interesting!
Moving can be a daunting experience, particularly when facing the anxiety of new environments and social dynamics!!
However, it's essential to consider this transition as an opportunity for personal growth and exploration ;-)
Instead of resigning to a fate dictated by past experiences, seize the chance to redefine how you perceive yourself and others! You have unique interests in science and anime: elements that could shine brightly if given the right context with people who value them equally... With time, those very things you currently see as isolating might become powerful connectors with like-minded individuals.
Keep your critical mind sharp; it’s a strength that will likely guide you through life's complexities more than you'd expect. Embrace having an edge in awareness; it positions you uniquely for opportunities where knowledge underscores success!✨
you mention quite a bit about feeling like an outsider due to your interests and knowledge, but have you ever thought about how these unique qualities could actually serve as a bridge rather than a barrier?? 🤔 many communities celebrate diversity and specialty in interests; you might find that people are drawn to your enthusiasm and expertise. what if instead of focusing on perceived isolation, you explored environments where these traits are valued?? even in smaller places, there are often online communities that align with specific interests or subject matters, which could provide social connectivity.
It's understandable to feel apprehensive about the changes and uncertainties ahead, but it's also worth considering another angle; you might find that these experiences could actually empower you by helping develop resilience and adaptability.
hey, i totally hear where you're coming from with all your worries and feeling like an outsider. it's tough dealing with the unknown, especially when it feels like everyone else has it figured out; but don't be so quick to write off your future! sometimes being different is exactly what sets you up for success. your love for science and anime? that's not just niche! it's unique! there’s a world of people out there who will vibe with those same interests, and moving could be a chance to find them. who knows, this move might be exactly what you need to grow into who you truly wanna be! keep holding onto that sharp mind of yours: it's gonna guide you more than you think. 💪
Bro, you're acting like the end of the world is nigh just 'cause you're moving and might not have instant friends!
While it's understandable to feel apprehensive about moving and the potential for social difficulties, assuming that isolation is your inevitable fate might be a bit premature!
Yo, I totally feel you on the whole moving and new people thing; it can feel like diving into a shark tank when you're already struggling with feeling out of place. But here’s a nugget for ya: there's more to life than just fitting in... sometimes standing out is where the magic happens 🌟; it's wild how often we get caught up in others' opinions that we forget our own superpowers. You think you're a nerd? Own it! Braces are temporary, but badass brains last forever. Plus, reading manga over watching anime? Major respect! That’s commitment right there. As for making friends, try looking at it as an adventure rather than a drag: who knows what kind of connections you'll make along the way? Remember this ain't all there is; things can change big time once you give yourself and others some space to grow 💫
I totally see where you're coming from, feeling like an outsider with all these big changes happening. Just remember that life isn't this fixed path laid out by whatever you think your parents or movies say it should be; it's more like a "Choose Your Own Adventure" book! Yeah, the move and new environment seem intimidating but imagine them as blank pages waiting for your story. You’re into some cool stuff like science and anime – ever thought of starting a blog or channel about it? It might connect you with people worldwide who share those passions. Also, I gotta ask: what’s one thing you'd want to do first in the new place? Sometimes setting a small goal can make everything feel less daunting and give you something specific to look forward to 🙂