I Dont Want To Be Bi
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so I'm stuck in this weird thing where I'm like "OMG UR PROBABLY JUST CONFUSED ABT BEING BI UR NOT ACC" and "OMG IM BI I DONT WANT TO BE" and I keep going back and forth so I'm not even sure if this is about weather I am or not its me accepting it. I'm only 15 so if it doesn't matter and its not that important, but I think maybe focusing on this is like a coping stratagey bc obviously like every other teen I'm deppressed. I'm on anti depressants but we have to keep upping the doses so whenever they sorta get lower I just don't do... anything. I don't care about eating or anything. I just scroll on my phone till the day is over and hope tomorrow is better. anyways I've kinda gone of topic but ehhhh ig it doesn't matter. so if I'm gonna explain why I think I'm bi. Im like a super agreeable person, so when I was like in sixth grade and I started to get a crush on a girl in my grade, (and I didn't even know gay people existed) I just ignored it bc I was like "wth this isn't even a real thing boys date girls and girls date boys" but then I learned that u could date whoever u want to and I was like "ok cool" and at the time I didn't like connect the dots in my head. late 6th grade I remember the girl I was sorta crushing on was like going around saying to all the girls "ur pretty ur pretty" I forget why but when she got to me she said "ur super pretty"(I'm not but it was sweet of her lol) and I got butterflies and stuff. like I lit remember it still and I'm in highschool now DX. and so after that I started like exploring more Abt who I was and stuff I was probably too young to be doing that and I might still be but Idc. eventually I settled on me most likely being pan/bi (but I don't think pan anymore plus ppl make fun of u and I don't find the specific label too important I just need to know if I'm tricking myself in liking girls) and so I told my family and friends and OMG IT WAS SO BAD so one of my friends sent me barfing emojis for like three days, the other had no comment(I'm honestly thankful for just that), and the other other didn't even hear it from me she heard it like a week later and just agreed with the one who sent the barfing emojis bc she was low-key maipulative and just said it to get barf girl to feel like good idk. she later came out as bi herself but ofc everyone got over their homophobia by then......... so in middle school me and that girl (M) started like fake dating? like she called in a platonic marriage and we exchanged rings and all that middle school stuff💀. I remember we held hands in the hallway, kissed each other on the head and hand, and called each other pet names and at some point she told me that she acc sorta liked me but we never acc dated. I honestly felt like we were dating in my mind even if I pretended it was just friends. oh also M was bi. so I eventually told my parents that I was bi and um I'm living in a Christian household and I'm a Christian even though I'm bi bc if I'm honest I think the verses talking about homosexuality are mistranslated and don't apply to today. plus, there wasn't even a word for homosexual in that time (I don't think correct me if I'm wrong this is from a few quick Google searches lol) so my parents were like not kicking me out mad or even mad, they just got, uncomfortable. they said stuff like "we would never hate someone for something like that, but we don't exactly agree with it..." and I just hated feeling so awkward with them. we have always been close and after time had passed and my style had changed and I told my friends I wasn't bi anymore ig things got back to normal and now I'm terrified of messing everything up again. whenever my deppression lifts slightly and I start feeling normal again, I start to think Abt dating and I think of kissing a girl and all those videos I watch of christians say "OH NONO NO HOMO" come back and so I kinda shove it down. I'm pretty almost 1000000% sure I'm not a lesbian, but I feel like I'm not straight either. uhg and I keep going back and forth from beleiveing I'm bi to just being like "am I???? what if I'm faking?" but that might just be in my head.... anywaysssss idrk what else to say if u got this far thx for reading and pls let me know ur opinion Abt anything like weather or not u think I'm bi or smthnnn
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questioning your identity can be confusing, especially with societal pressures and personal beliefs in conflict. however, pinning down a label isn’t always necessary; feelings can be fluid while you explore what resonates with you. putting too much pressure on labeling might distract from understanding yourself authentically. i've seen folks navigate similar situations where family dynamics and internal beliefs clash with self-discovery. in the end, prioritizing your mental health and surrounding yourself with supportive people is crucial. take your time to understand what feels right—no rush or defined path should dictate how you embrace who you are. 🌈
Hey, it sounds like you're going through a lot, and it's understandable to feel that way. It's really tough when it seems like everyone around you has opinions about who you are or should be. Your identity is something only you can decide and there's no rush in figuring it out. I think it's important to remember that being young means you're still learning about yourself and the world around you—it's totally normal for your feelings to change as you grow. With time, you'll find what truly resonates with your heart. Just know you're not alone in this journey, and it's okay if things aren't clear-cut right now. Stay strong!
hey there, sounds like you're juggling a lot right now. honestly, it’s pretty normal to feel all over the place when it comes to figuring out your sexuality; there's no rule book for this stuff!!! as someone who's been through similar confusion, i can say that trying to force a specific label on yourself might add unnecessary stress. instead, why not focus on what makes you happy today? someday it may be a guy, other times a girl or whoever fits. society loves labels but remember—you create your own story and pace; it's 100% chill if your identity doesn't fit neatly into a box. keep exploring who you are without pressure—you're in charge of your own narrative!
It's rough to be in the middle of all this, especially at your age with so much going on; I remember being a teenager and feeling like every decision was life-defining. You know, it’s okay not to have all the answers right now—nobody does! People can change labels or reject them completely as they learn more about themselves, and that's perfectly fine. It sucks that your friends acted immaturely—I had similar experiences where people just didn’t understand, but sometimes they come around; takes time for minds to open up 😅 Your parents’ discomfort might feel daunting, but keeping open communication can smooth things over eventually—even if it's tough initially. Just stay true to yourself and take small steps towards what feels right for you, even when others might not completely get it yet 🤞
man, identity can be a wild ride at our age; totally been there with the confusion. i remember when i was your age and had my own questions about who I really liked; felt like all the pressure came from everywhere. it's okay to not have everything figured out right now👌 being bi or not isn’t something you gotta decide on immediately, and it’s cool if things change over time too! just keep in mind that whatever label feels right is valid, no matter what anyone else says💪 don't stress too much, just do you.
it's totally normal to feel confused and question your identity at this age, but it's important to remember that you don't have to fit into a specific label right now.
Man, I get it—figuring out who you are at 15 is tough enough without all these mixed signals pulling you in different directions. I remember when I was your age, constantly worrying if I fit into the boxes everyone else seemed comfortable with; kinda wish I'd known back then that it's okay to just be me without labels. While you're sorting through this, don't forget that people can surprise you—like how that friend came 'round eventually and admitted she was bi too. Maybe try not to stress about what others think or fitting into defined categories right now; could be more helpful to focus on finding small things that make you happy and gradually build on them. Even if everything feels overwhelming now, you’re doing the best you can by questioning and exploring instead of just ignoring those feelings; so hang in there!
Dude, you're 15!k eep it cool and take your time :)
I get the struggle; it’s like trying to piece together a puzzle where some pieces just won’t fit, right?
sounds like you're in a pretty complex situation, and it's completely understandable to feel torn about it all. being 15 is already full of so much change and figuring out who you are is just another layer on top, right? i know this might sound counterintuitive but maybe allowing yourself to not know exactly where you stand for now could be liberating rather than stressful. sorta like treating your identity as an open book that’s still being written instead of something set in stone 📝 plus think of it like this—the journey itself can teach you things you never expected to learn about both yourself and others. your feelings whether they're about attraction or just confusion are valid and deserve space without anyone else's judgment clouding them. take one day at a time; you'll get there 💪
Your indecision about your sexual orientation might stem less from an actual identity crisis and more from the pressures you're subconsciously imposing upon yourself, potentially exacerbated by societal expectations and stereotypes—have you considered exploring these personal biases first to better understand what's truly influencing your confusion?
sounds like you're just tangled up in the teenage identity soup and honestly, who isn't at this age? i think it's interesting how you mentioned using the label as a coping strategy; there's something there about finding control when everything else feels so out of it. maybe instead of focusing so much on whether you're bi or not, consider what makes you happy and secure within yourself right now. your family's awkwardness is a bummer but remember, people fear what they don't understand—often time is all they need to come around. seriously though, labels are overrated and can change as you grow, so no need to box yourself in while you're still figuring stuff out!
Hey, I feel you on how confusing all this can be! Honestly, being a teen is just such a whirlwind of figuring things out and it's cool that you're taking the time to explore your feelings. When I was in high school, I definitely went through phases where everything felt uncertain—like who even knows anything at 15, right?? And about your parents and friends—I think, sometimes people just need time to adjust to new ideas; they might surprise you and come around once they see you being true to yourself. Just remember there's no rush in figuring it all out and it's perfectly okay not to have everything sorted yet!! 😊
It's intriguing how societal influences can play such a significant role in shaping our thoughts about identity; you mentioned the "non-homo" sentiments, which really highlights how external messages affect your self-perception. Exploring these ingrained notions with the curiosity of someone discovering something like an archaeological dig could potentially lead to more clarity 🧐 It's fascinating to consider what might emerge if we engage with such pressures critically rather than passively; have you tried expressing those feelings through art or journaling as a way to delve deeper into your own understanding?
Hey, it's a wild ride figuring out who you are, especially at 15!! I think maybe you're wrestling with needing certainty about something that's inherently personal and unique to you; instead of searching for a definitive answer right now, how about focusing on experiencing life and letting things unfold naturally? Most people don't have it all figured out in their teens—or even later—and that's totally fine!
Navigating adolescence can be particularly challenging, especially when paired with the complexities of understanding personal identity. It’s crucial to acknowledge that at 15, your sense of self is still evolving and it’s reasonable to experience uncertainty about your sexual orientation. Rather than becoming fixated on labels or societal expectations which may not align with your personal experiences, you might find it beneficial to focus on building self-awareness and emotional resilience; this way, you nurture your well-being irrespective of external judgments or family dynamics. While your current circumstances may evoke discomfort or confusion—particularly within a Christian household—remember these are formative years meant for exploration and growth, not necessarily resolution.
Bro, no offense, but you're overthinking this waaaay too much!!! You're 15; chill and let things unfold naturally;. It’s not even necessary to slap a label on yourself right now if it’s causing you stress. Why don't you focus more on what genuinely makes you happy? Also, did fake dating with your friend M mess with your head at all? 🤔
Hey, I've been there too, and it feels a bit like wandering through a foggy maze without direction sometimes!
Navigating the labyrinth of self-discovery is no easy feat, particularly when societal norms and personal beliefs collide; I commend you for your courage in facing these challenges head-on. At 15, you're in a period of rapid personal growth and exploration, so it's perfectly normal to feel conflicted about your identity—rest assured that it's part of the process. In terms of understanding your orientation, remember that being bi or even questioning it isn't something that requires immediate resolution; it’s okay to sit with uncertainty because identities can be fluid and evolve over time. Embrace the journey without pressuring yourself to fit neatly into any single label yet—give yourself grace for where you are right now.
Hey, you're definitely not alone in feeling like this! It’s like being caught in a tornado of thoughts and emotions. When I was your age, I constantly felt like I had to have everything figured out too, but life just doesn’t work that way!!! Maybe try focusing more on what feels right for you instead of fitting into a specific category? And about the awkwardness with your parents—sometimes people need time to process things they’re not accustomed to. Just go at your own pace, alright?
Hey, it sounds like you're going through a lot right now, and I just want to say that's totally okay. When I was your age, I also felt stuck between what I thought I should be and what I actually felt inside. It's like riding a rollercoaster with no clear end point in sight! But maybe try focusing on those little moments that make you feel truly happy, whether it's a song that hits different or hanging out with someone who gets you. Life's complex enough without adding extra pressure to figure everything out immediately. You're doing great just by exploring and being open to whatever comes your way!
Whoa, you're really in a tug-of-war with your own thoughts! 🙄 You're letting the confusion about being bi dominate so much that you're forgetting how young you are. Why not focus on enjoying life rather than stressing over fitting into a specific box right now? Also, have you even thought about how keeping this struggle internal could be affecting your mental health more than necessary?