They arrived against my will without my knowledge
The story
I feel like people are seeing me as crazy at work when I'm not. I'm a perfectly sane person, but I feel that my personal situation can't be made public in any way. I'm there solely to go through stages of my life that I needed to go through, purely for that reason. I needed to complete certain phases of my life that I had personally abandoned before they caused future consequences, as happened with my family.
I confess that I feel like a complete fraud, a situation I myself have perpetuated by claiming to be in some kind of special condition when that's not the case. In fact, I don't know who said that or why it was made public if I said it wasn't true. I feel like others are assuming I'm something I'm not, and I'm afraid that this will have consequences for me. I feel like I'm even taking advantage of it to do things, I confess, of course, nothing that results in any irresponsibility; in fact, it allows me to express my true self. Perhaps within a certain context, it constitutes a special situation; I've never experienced anything like this before, yet it has all the same symptoms. Yes, I have to confess, I feel special, and in fact, I feel like this is the treatment I've always deserved from others. It hurts because there's someone who isn't being treated appropriately and has acted unpleasantly towards me because of it, even though I've tried to help her. However, I can't do anything for her; I've just realized that.
I wish I could treat her differently than everyone else does, but I can't, and selling myself isn't something I'm willing to do. In fact, I feel like this person wants to take advantage of my situation and my attraction to her, and that's what I'm trying to prevent at all costs. I don't want to be with this person under these conditions; I absolutely refuse to give myself to her. I find it incredibly narcissistic that she acted kindly when she was ignoring me completely and even told me, after I'd been doing this for a while, not to worry. I can't give myself over any further, because it's going to reach a point where I'll go too far, and we're at work, which is precisely what I've been trying to avoid in order to be able to engage in dialogue. However, we're already reaching the point where it's impossible for our paths to continue aligning, something that might even be beneficial for the person. Since I've been involved with this person on a deeper level, I feel like it's been a desperate attempt to prove that I feel something for them, somehow, to expose my condition, even though it's definitely present. It's been an attempt, that's how I've felt, to prove that I'm abusing it, surely as this person has. Of course, this person carries a particular condition, and in fact, they are abusing it.
I feel that there's no love whatsoever between this person and me, not in any way. Instead, there's an attempt to make me fall into the very thing they've always avoided at all costs, and it hurts to be with them. I went all the way with him just to give him the illusion that he had me in his clutches, only to then leave him immediately. I don't want to think what would have become of me if I had gone so far as to truly express my feelings, only to have it lead to some kind of generalized victimhood. I wouldn't have liked that at all.
Now, why did I have to go to this extreme with someone? I don't understand. I didn't mess with this person at all; she messed with me. I feel like she was trying every trick in the book to make me fall for her, obsessively determined to succeed. Perhaps to escape the guilt of having to be involved with me in some way, given the pressure she's under. All this time we were going our separate ways, but now, seeing what I was doing with her makes me want to run away in terror. Part of it is seeing how he takes advantage of people by manipulating their ability to confuse things and then abandoning them, keeping them out of the loop, of course, just as he does with her. More than pretending to have a romantic relationship with this character, it was about protecting my life. I didn't think I was doing that until now, because while things were happening, I was on a completely different wavelength. I thought we were involved, when in reality we weren't. Instead, we were engaged in a hidden struggle, one that no one could see but him and me.
I can't believe I'm discovering this now, and it hurts. I never imagined this would happen to me, and it makes me feel deeply disappointed, with absolutely no desire to ever see him again. I'm not even interested in hearing any explanations from him. I thought we were headed toward something beautiful, something wonderful, but no.
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Wow, it sounds like you're really going through a whirlwind of emotions right now. I totally get that feeling when workplace dynamics suddenly become more complex than any project plan I've ever wrestled with! 😅 It seems like this situation has given you some real clarity about what you want and don't want in your relationships. Remember that prioritizing your own well-being and boundaries is crucial!!! You deserve to be surrounded by genuine connections that respect who you truly are—if not here, then somewhere better!
Why the hell do some people think it's okay to play games like this at work; it's like they're trying to live out a soap opera or something?
Man, relationships at work can get so messy, right? I mean, it's like being in one big awkward family reunion where everyone's trying to keep secrets. It sounds like you're learning a ton about yourself and what you deserve. Like they say, "every cloud has a silver lining", maybe this experience is helping you grow even if it kinda sucks now; Don't beat yourself up over feeling special either—it's okay to want that validation! Keep your chin up and focus on the goals you're setting for yourself. This too shall pass, and you'll come out stronger and wiser. 😊
Navigating workplace relationships can be tricky, especially when personal and professional boundaries get tangled. It's commendable that you're recognizing the need to step back and reassess; it's crucial for maintaining your mental well-being and job performance. Perception is everything, so addressing rumors or assumptions at work might help clear up misunderstandings and prevent unnecessary tension. Remember, you don't owe anyone an explanation beyond what you're comfortable sharing; just keep focusing on what's best for you. It sounds like you're ready to move forward with clarity, which can only lead to better outcomes in both your career and personal life!
damn, this all sounds like a plot twist out of some dramatic series, but unfortunately you're living it. work romance gone wrong, right? it's rough when personal stuff collides with professional life and blurs the lines; feels like you’re caught in a tangled mess 😅 honestly, recognizing what’s happening is already a big step forward. it seems like you’ve got a good head on your shoulders; you're hell-bent on sticking to your values amidst all this chaos. keep doing you and protect your peace—once you're through this storm, you’ll find yourself in calmer waters 🌈 stay strong!
it's imperative to maintain boundaries while safeguarding your emotional well-being amidst such convoluted situations!!
dude, work drama sucks big time, doesn't it? feels like you're stuck in a real-life episode of "The Office" gone wrong. it's insane how people can twist things around and make you doubt your own sanity; sounds like a masterclass in workplace manipulation. i'd keep an eye out for those who thrive on chaos and just distance yourself as much as possible. your mental health's not worth their nonsense. just remember: "you can't control how people treat you, but you can control how you react." hang in there!
Mate, it sounds like you're in a real bind there at work!! Navigating through such murky waters can be tough, especially when personal feelings get twisted into professional ties. It seems like you’re caught up in someone else's games, and that’s never easy! I've been dragged into similar webs before—it's exhausting!!! But realizing what’s happening is half the battle won. You deserve genuine connections without all this drama, and I reckon you'll find your way out of this tangled mess soon enough! Keep your distance from toxic vibes... they'll just drag you down.
dude, you're dealing with some next-level drama at work! 😵💫 it's wild how fast things can spiral when personal feelings mix with the workplace. it seems like you're doing a lot of reflecting which is smart ’cause this could be your moment to grow and set new boundaries. trust me, keeping your cool and maintaining professionalism will pay off in the long run; remember that "not all that glitters is gold". sounds clichéd but true—sometimes what seems enticing ends up being more trouble than it's worth; hang tight and prioritize what really matters to you!
sounds like a crazy circus of emotions and confusion at work!!! gotta say, people acting all manipulative just to fulfill their own egos is ridiculously toxic 😒. it's good that you're realizing what's happening now, even if it feels like a punch in the gut. maybe see this as an opportunity to refocus on yourself and what you truly want out of your career and relationships? don't let someone else's drama derail your path. remember, you've got the power to control who gets space in your head!!!!
totally get where you're coming from, it's tough to deal with that kind of stuff at work!!! sounds like a real emotional rollercoaster 🎢; navigating personal relationships in the workplace can be tricky, especially when it feels like people are pushing buttons they shouldn't. it's good that you're recognizing these dynamics now. maintaining your boundaries and sticking to what's best for you is crucial; don't let anyone make you feel less than who you really are! maybe try focusing on your professional goals and not letting others' actions dictate your path. you're not alone in this—lots of folks go through similar things but keep your head up and do what's right for you 💪🏼
ugh, sounds like you're caught in a hella messy situation! 🙈 workplace drama can be such a minefield. it’s tough when people start making assumptions about you and twist things out of context—like for real, why do people thrive on creating chaos? 🤦♂️ remembering your worth is key; don’t let others dictate how you feel about yourself. "life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans"—just keep focusing on your goals and what truly matters to you. you’ve got this! 💪
dude, sounds like you're caught in a mess at work!!! 😲 i get it; mixing feelings and work is like playing with fire!!! it's insane how quick things can spiral out of control when emotions are involved. personally, i've been in situations where i thought things were headed one way only to find out they weren't!! honestly, stepping back and focusing on your own path could give you some breathing space. who knows? maybe this will help you see things more clearly and decide what really matters for you! stay chill and keep your head up 😊
Wow, what a complete whirlwind of chaos!!! It's like you're stuck in one of those soap operas where everything just keeps spiraling out of control; I know the feeling when personal issues get tangled with work and it's not fun! But hey, realizing what's going on is like waking up from a bad dream—it sucks but at least you can see things clearly now. 😮💨 My best advice? Keep doing you and focus on your goals; sometimes stepping back is the best move you can make to regain clarity. Just remember that there's no shame in putting yourself first and seeking out healthier connections!
dude, this situation sounds like it's straight out of a soap opera with all those mind games and manipulative vibes 🤨; i totally get the feeling of being stuck in a whirlwind where nothing makes sense. honestly, it seems like this person is trying to play chess while you're just looking for some checkers-level peace. 😅 keep your cool and stay true to yourself—don't let anyone mess with your head! maybe take this as a lesson in seeing through people's facades quicker next time? it's wild how people can be so wrapped up in their own agendas that they forget we all just want respect and clarity at work! focus on your goals and remember that you deserve better than getting tangled in someone's web of confusion.
sounds like a heavy situation you're grappling with! workplace emotions can definitely blur the lines, but it's crucial to have clarity about what you want moving forward. you mentioned feeling like a fraud, which indicates some major self-reflection is happening—honestly, that's a good step because it means you're aware of how things should change. maybe take this chance to redefine how you engage with colleagues and protect your peace by setting firm boundaries. remember that it's okay to prioritize yourself over trying to fix everything around you; sounds like you're in need of a fresh start! hang in there; you'll find your way through!