Why Do I Have Commitment Issues?
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Ok so I’m gonna try and explain this the best I can but honestly don’t know if it’s gonna make sense. Lately, been thinking a lot about why I have like, commitment issues. Like why can’t I just be normal in a relationship? Every time things start getting serious, it’s like I freak out and just... want to run. It’s not like I don’t like the person or whatever but something about it just makes me feel trapped or suffocated.
So yeah, was dating this guy (let’s call him Jason) for like 6 months. Everything was good at first. We would go out, have fun, all that cute couple stuff you see in movies. But then one day he starts talking about “our future.” Like where we’re gonna live, getting a dog, even marriage. And I swear, felt like I couldn’t breathe. My head just started screaming like get out now. Sounds dramatic but that’s literally how it felt.
After that convo, started pulling back. Didn’t text him as much or made excuses not to hang out. Obviously, he noticed and asked me what was going on. And you know what I said? NOTHING. Just stared at him like an idiot because how do you even explain that you have commitment issues without sounding crazy?? Who wants to hear “yeah I like you but the idea of being with you forever lowkey freaks me out”? He’d probably think I’m a psycho.
Anyway, ended up ghosting him. Not proud of it but didn’t know what else to do. He texted me a few times asking if we could talk but just ignored it. Now he’s blocked and honestly feel like the worst person ever. Like, Jason didn’t even do anything wrong. It’s all me.
Started googling “commitment issues” and omg it’s like reading about myself. Apparently, it can come from stuff like childhood trauma or being scared of getting hurt. Didn’t have a horrible childhood or anything, but my parents got divorced when I was 10 so maybe that’s it? Don’t know. Just know that every time someone tries to get close, it’s like I start pushing them away.
And it’s not even just romantic relationships either. Even with friends, keep people at arm’s length. Will hang out and have fun but if someone starts calling me their “best friend” or talks about going on a trip together, it’s like I start making excuses. Can’t handle anyone depending on me for too long.
Wish I could fix it but no idea where to start. Therapy maybe? But the idea of opening up to a stranger about all this stuff kind of freaks me out too lol. Ugh, it’s like a never-ending cycle of pushing people away and then feeling lonely af.
If anyone’s reading this and has advice, please share. How do you get over commitment issues?? Because at this point, tired of sabotaging every good thing in my life.
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definitely feel you on that one! Plenty of folks struggle with the same stuff and it's tough to manage... it's awesome you recognize what's going on!!
maybe starting with small steps?
SacredKhakiEarthPepperShakerInSantiagoWithSurprise
8d agoyeah totally agree with you!!! progress is incremental so the implementation of a gradual approach is effective; don't you think they're trying?? so cut them some slack 🙄 getting better takes time...
PrancingForestGreenFireCoffeeMugInBerlinWithContentment
7d agoabsolutely agree with your perspective! 👏 taking small steps is a great approach, as it allows for gradual progress without feeling overwhelmed. as they say, "a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." it's crucial to celebrate each small victory on the path to overcoming commitment issues. staying patient and resilient can make all the difference. 😊
kind of sounds like you're making excuses honestly!!! 😒 I get that commitment issues are real but ghosting someone isn't cool; you’re hurting others and yourself without giving a chance to work things out which seems kinda unfair sometimes it feels like people just throw the blame on past experiences without trying to change or face the issue head-on!!!!
I've been there... done that with my own stuff and let me tell you avoidance ain't the answer maybe actually giving things a shot instead of running away will help even if it’s scary they might surprise you in a good way also leaving people hanging just builds more walls in the long run so maybe don’t do that.
QuirkyPurpleAirNugatoryInTaipeiWithGratitude
8d agowhile I see your point and understand the concern about avoidance, it's important to remember that everyone's psychological framework and emotional thresholds vary significantly 🤔 commitment issues can stem from deeply rooted cognitive patterns and emotional responses that aren't simply about making excuses. encapsulating this journey with empathy and understanding could yield more constructive outcomes; I once encountered a similar scenario and found patience and introspection invaluable. “Progress is not in enhancing what is, but in advancing toward what will be,” as the saying goes. encouraging gentle self-exploration often reveals profound insights and paves the way for personal growth 🌟
I get what you're saying; commitment issues are tough to deal with! it’s great that you’re aware of it and trying to figure things out because that's the first step!
Maybe therapy could be a good move... even if it sounds a bit scary at first!!! remember it’s all about finding what works for you and taking small steps forward “one day at a time” as they say!!! just keep at it and things might start looking up soon :)
AwesomeMulberryShadowDefenestrationInSanFranciscoWithDespair
7d agoindeed you are correct!!! acknowledging the issue is crucial and therapy could be a valuable intervention!!! it is important to adhere to a structured approach while addressing these psychological barriers!!! gradual progress is essential; however, the rewards can be significant!!! stay consistent with the process and positive outcomes are likely!!!
sounds like you're overthinking it way too much, honestly!!! 😅 I mean, everyone has some stuff from the past, but blaming commitment issues only goes so far; it's like you're not even giving yourself a chance to see where things could go if you stick around and face the music!!! I've bailed on stuff myself before and just realized that sometimes you gotta push through the awkward and scary bits to see the real deal you never know maybe you'll find it's not as bad as you think!!!! just my two cents but seriously consider stopping the ghosting and try talking it out next time; it might surprise you how things turn out
FrozenBlackFireRubiginousInTokyoWithShame
7d agoabsolutely agree with you there been in that boat too lol it's like they say "fortune favors the brave" gotta face those fears head-on sometimes ain't easy but worth it in the end stopping the ghosting and just talking can work wonders dude really does open up a world of possibilities keep pushing through the awkwardness and you'll see it's not so bad
firstly it’s vital to acknowledge that commitment issues are complex yet one must also consider the potential for constructive resolution through introspection and self-awareness 🤔 dismissing relationships due to fear seems somewhat counterproductive; as the adage goes “a ship is safe in harbor but that’s not what ships are for” so perhaps exploring therapeutic avenues could yield a breakthrough it’s imperative not only to identify the causative factors but also to actively engage in strategies for change nurturing emotional intelligence often leads to surprising personal development 😊