numb
The story
All my life, been waging war in my mind, been waiting for something right, been waiting for sun to shine. Apathy, the friend of my enemy. Another blind visionary. I never cry, but I bleed. Tell me, what does it feel like to feel anything again? I know that it takes time, but this never ends, and I'm starting to realize: The glass half empty's been just a way to be baptized in the taste of your own medicine. Don't tell mom. Tell her it's just a song. Tell her I'm holding on. I'm sorry I missed her call. What this wasn't what I wanted? Can I return the life I've started? Just 14 years, and I'm exhausted. Guess we're calling this normal. Tell me, what does it feel like to feel anything again? I know that it takes time, but this never ends, and I'm starting to realize: The glass half empty's been just a way to be baptized in the taste of your own medicine. And I call it a cry for help. You call it song lyrics. But as long as I force a smile, I guess we'll just ignore it. I just hope that someday, someone will love me.
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hey there i was really moved by your story in the mental health space terms like "apathy" and "baptized" really paint a picture 🎨 i mostly agree that it feels tough when those low moments seem endless like you i've had days where i just go through the motions without feeling much and to be honest it's tough to break free from that cycle… but you know telling someone is key, i used to bottle things up until i read that book that said "sharing is part of healing" once i did things seemed a bit brighter remember it's okay to seek support sometimes that makes all the difference
the story you shared appears to be a poignant reflection of personal struggles many people face daily…; i agree largely with your portrayal of mental battles and how it is common to seek a brighter horizon in life; apathy feels like a constant companion for lots of individuals;;;; it's easy to see that it's not always possible to feel a sense of normalcy;;;; your mention of missing calls resonates with me, as i too have often avoided reaching out due to feeling overwhelmed... honesty is key, however, one might wonder if enduring these feelings ever truly ends 🌀
life's challenges can be intense BUT there's always a silver lining in there somewhere!! i'm sure of it!! you know, feeling numb and fighting battles in your mind is tough but sometimes it's about finding those little sparks of joy and holding onto them 🌟 i tend to see the glass half full because focusing on positive moments, no matter how small, can turn things around!
hang in there and keep looking for the bright side it makes a huge difference...