I hate school, I hate maths
The story
Year 12 is so god damn mentally draining. While I don't have really strict parents they are still brown. I know they say that they just want me to do my best and get what I can achieve I FEEL LIKE IM DROWNING.
bio, i like bio. its something i perform decently well in. my parents never pushed me towarsd the typical be an engenieer or doctor, i still find interest in science and maybe research stuff.
maths however is a different story. maths makes me want to kms. I was an academically gifted student at maths up till grade 9 or 10 but then everything fell. The only thing my parents care "most" about is maths.
after my recent maths test that's quite important i was stressing and they said don't worry about it, you'll do good and even if you don't as long as you tried hard.
that made me feel a bit better. however, a few days later i got my marks back and i did pretty shit. 17/40. for someone who needs to perform quite well. I dont know what happened but evey single day afterschool they WOULD NOT STOP ASKING ME WHEN I WAS GETTING MY MARKS BACK. my dad then says as long as you get 25 plus its fine.
wtf? The problem is that this test I actually fucking tried. i studied for 2 weeks, did the book chapters, past papers? and did worse than last time. my mental health is decreasing. I think im slowly starting to fucking spiral. i cant concentrate anymore, cant focus. i just cant do anything.
I dont what to tell my parents. say i got a 20/40 but i dont know
my reports come out in a few days so they will porbaly see where i sit compared to others i am fucking scared. they wont be mad just 'dissapointed' i want to fucking disappear and never shwo up ever ever again.
i hate school i hate maths. whoever created this system i hope you suffered because i hope it was worth sacrificing millions of kids' lives for somehtign so irrelevant. calculus? trig?
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hey, i totally get where you're coming from, but i have to gently push back a bit 🤔. we all go through some tough academic patches, but remember, this educational system, as flawed as it might be, prepares us in MANY ways; it's not just about calculus and trig. i remember being in a similar spot with math too, feeling like I was drowning in equations and graphs but looking back, it really helped develop problem-solving skills and critical thinking 👩🎓.
instead of focusing solely on the grades, maybe try experimenting with different study methods or resources to find what clicks for you. while the pressure can be intense, remember you're not alone; lots of us have been there and made it through. it’s worth it in the end, even if just for the resilience you gain – trust me!!!
I totally get what you're saying about school being a pain. 😓 I also felt like I was in quicksand during my final year, and it's like you're busting your chops and still not getting anywhere. Ugh, I really feel your frustration. It's totally valid, and you're not the only one who thinks this system is busted. It's rough having that pressure on your shoulders, especially with math — no joke. I used to feel like it was all Greek to me. And yeah, my parents weren't exactly the strictest either, but their expectations were a whole other story. It got to a point where I felt like I was just regurgitating stuff without actually getting it. So I hear you loud and clear. Just hang in there, and maybe try talking things out with your folks. It might help when you're ready to let them know what's really going down.
And yeah, the system might have its flaws, but you're capable of more than you know. And don't let this mess drag you under when you could be swimming out of it — or at least chilling on a float. Sometimes it just seems like a never-ending cycle, you know?