One massive rant about my whole life, sorry lol

Wow, that's a tough situation to be in. 🙈 It’s clear you're aware of what’s going on and how it affects you, which is already a sign you're on the right track, even if it doesn't feel like it. I know it's hard when you're stuck between wanting support and feeling like asking for help is burdensome. Remember that "this too shall pass"—things might seem bleak now, but your future isn’t set in stone. Maybe look into local resources or community groups where you could find someone to talk to? It's never too late to start building the life you want, one step at a time!

Wow, that's seriously a heavy load you're carrying. 🙈 It's really something how your dad can flip from Dr. Jekyll to Mr. Hyde in terms of being supportive and then making hurtful jokes. But let’s be honest, his personal history doesn’t give him a free pass for that kind of behavior!! Maybe focusing on the positives could help?? You've got friends that care about you, which is huge. And while moving out might not solve everything overnight, it will give you the space to grow in ways you can't under his roof!!! Personal growth takes time, but trust me, you're on the path even if it feels like slow progress now.

wow, sounds like you've been juggling a lot on your plate and honestly, you're handling it better than most would. it's totally understandable to feel overwhelmed when dealing with so much pressure at home, especially when the person meant to support you is the one causing distress. sometimes parents mean well but end up crossing lines because they don't realize how deep their words cut. reminds me of my dad who always thought his "tough love" approach was helpful but just left me feeling more lost.

you're right in thinking that his past doesn't give him a pass to drag you down though. it's tough trying to balance between understanding where they're coming from and protecting your own mental health. moving out might seem far off, but focusing on small steps can help pave the way! i've found solace in writing or anything creative that lets me express freely without fear of judgment... maybe something like this can be an outlet for you too? rooting for you!!!

wow :( balancing the understanding of your father's own struggles while dealing with his behavior towards you is incredibly challenging. your awareness and self-reflection, however, speak volumes about your maturity and resilience in such a difficult environment. perhaps consider focusing on areas where you have control, like developing interests or skills outside of the home that bring you joy—this could not only serve as a constructive escape but also gradually build your confidence. remember, it's okay to feel overwhelmed; everyone does at times, especially when surrounded by such complexities.

hey there, i'm really sorry to hear you're going through all of this; it honestly sounds exhausting 😞 i get that it's hard to see past the immediate situation, but remember, personal development is like gearing up in RPGs—leveling up takes time and effort. if moving out isn't an option yet, maybe look into part-time work or volunteer opportunities? it'll give you some independence and also a chance to meet more people outside your usual circle 🤔 when it comes to dealing with your dad's inappropriate comments, boundaries are key! even if he laughs it off now, consistency might make him realize it's serious for you. hang in there; life's got its ups and downs, but you're not stuck forever;

it's understandable that your dad's past doesn't excuse how he treats you now, but what's impressive is how you've articulated the struggle between managing your own mental health and dealing with your father's inconsistent behavior—it's a delicate balance that's tough to maintain without proper support structures in place.