Sexual shame

growing up in a house where talking about sex was like bringing fire into the room, it's been rough trying to shake off that weird feeling of guilt. i mean, every time i try to express what i want in a relationship, boom - there's this nagging voice from my childhood telling me i'm doing something wrong. it's like they planted this seed of shame and it just won't stop growing.

now as an adult, it's frustrating dealing with these feelings when i'm supposed to be enjoying love and intimacy. like why can't i just get past it? when someone says "let's talk about what you want," my brain goes into overdrive picturing disapproving faces from the past. not being able to have those open conversations without sweating bullets is so exhausting. sometimes i feel like shouting at my younger self: "don't listen to them!" but hey, easier said than done, right? expressions like "keep your desires hidden" or "be modest" somehow managed to take root way too deep.

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