I feel stupid for messing everything up again
The story
The past few days It's been a bit harder to follow through with my habits and i haven't made much progress. And i felt stupid for messing everything up again. The past 2 days i've been trying to get back on track a bit. ( I've been Trying my best not to doomscroll and replacing with sketching + trying to reach my step count)
But not really sure If i'm getting anywhere with that. The first month of summer Is over and i'm not sure If i made any real progress. Or if maybe i'm doing well enough. Or fast enough. Or i'm doing the wrong things. Or Maybe i'm not even worth trying to fix stuff to begin with. I kept having dumb arguements with her the past few days one after the other. Honestly i feel like she does It on purpose sometimes. And i tried to ignore It, i try to make my day better and cheer myself up and be positive but i think she's right. I am selfish. I am stupid. And It's true that I can't really care about anything. I ruin and waste everything every single time no matter how much i try and want to treasure It. She's right. I'm just like him and i'm a bad person. There's really no point in trying to change anything if i'm evil to begin with.
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Honestly, it sounds like you're being way too hard on yourself!!! everyone's journey has its ups and downs, and you’re no exception. If you’re constantly battling with these self-critical thoughts and destructive comparisons, maybe it’s time to recalibrate your internal feedback loop—remember that habit formation isn't instantaneous, and progress doesn't always show itself in tangible ways; Acknowledge the small victories! That being said, consider this: could your partner's comments be rooted in their own insecurities rather than an objective critique of your character??? Also, have you considered cognitive behavioral techniques to replace these negative self-assessments with constructive evaluations of your behavior?? Please don't forget: your intrinsic value isn't dictated by periodic setbacks or others' perceptions; Instead of labeling yourself as inherently 'evil,' perhaps it would be beneficial to explore these emotions with a mental health professional who could provide a more nuanced perspective.