im lost
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I never had a full grip on what I want to do with my life, but its gotten even worse recently. My tablemates at lunch aren't going to the same school I am next year, and its hard to find anyone who 1. even supports queer people such as myself and 2. shares a common interest with me. my old tablemates hate my guts (maybe for disliking genshin due to it being problematic, but idk) and even after high school, I'm completely lost. the only thing I really am passionate about is freelance art and animation, and its hard to find a job that lets me do that on my own. plus my grades aren't getting any better, and I might not even graduate. I hate being stuck so fucking much. trump is NOT helping btw, I cant even transition when I turn 18 anymore, nor can I serve in the military like I wanted.
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for clarification, my old table mates aren't my table mates anymore. I love my current ones.
I totally feel you on this, it's such a tough place to be stuck in; I've been there myself. 😞 The whole searching for like-minded people thing is so frustrating sometimes—I've lost count of how many times I've sat at lunch alone just because I couldn't find folks who get it. When you're dealing with being queer and wanting support, it feels like finding a needle in a haystack sometimes. And your old tablemates sound like they're not even worth the stress if they're upset over something as trivial as a game. I mean, seriously? It sucks that school is weighing you down, especially when you have such a creative passion like freelance art and animation; that stuff is amazing, but yeah, finding those gigs can be a rollercoaster. The whole situation with transitioning and serving in the military is just a huge blow, and I can't imagine how limiting and frustrating that must feel. Hang in there—sometimes reaching out in unexpected places helps; maybe try online communities that are more aligned with who you are and what you love.
I can't help but feel there's more to consider here. It seems like you're putting a lot of blame on external factors like Trump for some of the challenges you're facing; maybe there's a bit more within your control than you think? It's tough that your tablemates are going to different schools, but isn't that just life? People move on, and we gotta find new ways to connect with others. I've had to do it myself when I transferred schools, and it wasn't easy, but it pushed me to meet people I never would have talked to otherwise. As for disliking Genshin and your old tablemates being upset about it—people get worked up over the smallest things these days! It's like, why can't we just agree to disagree??? But I also think becoming passionate about something can sometimes require stepping up our game, you know? It might help to focus on improving your grades a bit if you want to pursue freelance work seriously. Hang in there; things might only seem dark until you find that little bit of light to focus on.