Mental health Vent ig
The story
So, I've been rather lonely for the past couple of years. About 6 years, in fact. Physically speaking I am not lonely,I've always had caring family and friends around me. But emotionally, I've felt detached and disorientated for the past few years. I've been mentally unstable,have attempted to kill myself about 3 times, and also self harmed a lot (I've been clean of self harm for a few months, though, fortunately.)
Anyways.For me, nothing beats feeling lonely than playing truth or dare with yourself and postinsetting up questions asking about my own day in a fake chat to try and cheer myself up.I don't understand a few things,to be honest. Why do i feel lonely even though there's so many people keeping me company? What did I do to deserve all these wonderful and caring human beings? Unlike them, I'm nothing good. I'm practically just a worthless parasite, and yet they all put up with me. My family, friends, and practically everyone I know. I don't understand how someone can like something like me. I'm just worthless anyways. But yet I want to be loved. My minds been a conflicting and overwhelming mess for years now, and I still don't know how to manage it. Somedays I find myself getting better. Somedays I find myself back in this loop of confusion and frustration. I don't want to continue being like this. I want to be happy with everyone else. So I guess I'll try again. I've failed, sure, multiple times. But I'll try again. And I'll keep trying. I'm going to die anyways. We all are. So since it's inevitable,might as well give life a small chance.
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Wow, this story really got me thinkin', but I gotta say, I'm not totally on board with it; It feels like you're missin' the point about having peeps around you;;; mates who care and all. I mean, seriously, how can you be lonely?!? 🤔 I know life gets rough, but sayin' you're a "worthless parasite" is kinda over the top, don’t you reckon? Like, come on, we all have those days where we trip over our own thoughts, but just brush yourself off and keep walking. Sometimes it feels like life's throwin' us in all directions, but, trust me, I've been there too, man; when my head's in a blender, I think of small wins, ya know? But at the end of the day, you gotta see the good stuff right in front of you, even if it seems small... and the fact that you're loved means you're more than nothin', seriously...
Hey there, I totally get where you're coming from, but I gotta say, I don't quite see it the same way. 🤔 You talk about feeling lonely even with people around, and I dunno, mate—isn't that kinda like having a cake and saying it's not sweet enough? 🤷♂️
Listen, I’ve had times too when life felt like a bit of a letdown, but man, I just grab the small joys—like hanging with friends or just chillin’—and let that negativity slide. Still, here you are saying you're a 'worthless parasite' 😮 I can't wrap my head around that, 'cause we all got our worth in some way.
Believe it's there, even if you can't see it right now. And yeah, life’s a wild ride for sure, but count the smiles and the laughs—those gotta mean something, you know? Keep pushing through—you've got this. 😊
this story really hits the nail on the head regarding the feeling of isolation even with people around. it's like when you're in a crowded room but feel totally invisible, you know? "I've been mentally unstable" is something that many can relate to if they're being honest. sometimes, it doesn't matter how much love or support you have; the emotional disconnect can be overwhelming. that feeling of being a "worthless parasite" is sadly too common among folks dealing with mental health issues. it's essential to acknowledge those feelings while also striving to see the value in oneself. keep hanging in there, and remember, everyone's fighting a hard battle. 😊