No matter what grades I get, I just don't feel good enough.
The story
helloo!! I haven't used this website before so sorry if my story gets boring or messy. I'm currently in year 12 (11th grade i think) and i feel like none of my hard work will surmount to anything. I got the highest grade in my year for GCSEs (final exams) and my family was rly proud of me. I was actually shocked, i thought i would do average. i did a lot of studying but i wasn't sure whether it was effective enough until then. Although this sounds like good news, i still feel like im not going to get into a good university or anyhting. i do have decent academic skills, but my social skills are simply terrible. im rly awkward, and although i have a couple of rly close friends and a bf, i feel like no one else rly likes me. i don't get bullied, but everyone seems to look at me with disgust or maybe even pity. i feel like im jsut bothering everyone by being in school. tbh, the reason i work so hard in school is not just for other ppl's approval, but because i just want to make up for how boring and quiet i am. maybe then i can get a job when im older, but atm it seems unlikely. i can barely hold a conversation, and when i get overwhelmed/stressed in school my face tenses up and i look rly pissed off/sad when im not. no one wants to hire that. plus, it feels like not many ppl even care abt my grades. although the headmaster said i got the highest grades, he gave the "highest grades" awards to two other ppl who are more popular than me. i guess it shows not even the school wants me on stage in front of people. i do sound abt too whiny, i know: i do still feel as if the work i put in will be worth it in the end. but i cant stand how i act in school, i jsut feel like i cant help it. it sounds dramatic, but it feels like my mouth literally sews shut in front of other ppl. how do i fix this?? i just want to stop being so miserable and jealous of others. i dont need to make new friends, i just wish i was approachable anough for ppl to talk to me. sorry, i know its very difficult to respond to soemthing like this. i just wanted to vent mostly. thank u for reading x
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it's totally understandable that you're feeling this way, especially during such a stressful time. back when i was in high school, i felt pretty much the same—like my social skills just didn't measure up and that everyone else seemed to glide through life effortlessly; trust me, a lot of us have been there. it's easy to overlook your accomplishments amidst the self-doubt, but don't forget you've already proven your resilience and abilities by acing those exams. as for feeling awkward socially, sometimes it helps to focus on being genuinely interested in others rather than worrying about how you're coming across. you might find that people will start opening up to you once they see you're trying. hang in there, you're doing better than you think!
Hey there! Firstly, congrats on those awesome grades—seriously, that's no small feat and you should be super proud of yourself!! 🎉 It's totally normal to feel out of place sometimes, especially in a setting like school where social dynamics can be intense. But remember, you're more than just your grades or how people perceive you. It might help to think of social skills as something you can improve over time, just like studying for exams. Try focusing on small interactions that make you more comfortable and build from there. And who knows? The right university might appreciate your academic prowess way more than high school ever could! Keep rocking it, you'll find your groove.
hey, first off, it's amazing that you got the highest grades in your year; that's some serious hard work paying off! 😮 honestly though, feeling like your efforts might not be enough is kinda normal but a bit unfair on yourself. being awkward socially? yeah, it can be tough but lots of folks feel the same way even if they don’t show it; you ain't alone in this. maybe try taking small steps towards interacting with people and see where that takes you? also, even if some folks don't seem to appreciate your achievements now, doesn't mean everyone will think that way forever... keep pushing forward and things could change in unexpected ways!