Try to change me, bastards (longer version)
The story
(read this first https://iiwiars.com/school/try-to-change-me-loser-bastards)
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I won't change too much size if I cosplay Joseph, right? And my parents won't get mad and not let me go to MEFCC if I score low or not pass, right? I just want a break from school, and when I messaged mom, "I have been more motivated to sleep, draw, eat food and walk listening to music than this.😑" She messaged, "Don’t we all want that 😂🤪" while laughing when I called her. Like, mom even told me she was a topper, she wanted to do well all the time, it was high pressure stakes, mom didn't wanna score 80% because that was her low, and she told me that "There are other jobs which require you to not be good at math" when I asked her why she doesn't hold me at high standards. I asked mom why the kids score the specific decimal scores in those India topper boards, and mom agreed when I asked if they do this for extra competition, kinda like, "Yes" and didn't say much.
I know kids who failed in school become great, but I think I'm not one of them. I'm no Einstein, or Mark Zuckerberg, or Bill Gates, or any great person who flopped school and made it big. I'm just me, just a loser in school. I'm not even gonna secure a job. When mom said when she got her first salary in a telecommunications, she spent it on gifts for her mom, her brother, her young cousins at the time, and for herself she got a reservation in a posh restaurant in India. And I was like, "Why would you do that?! Don't tell me to do that, I'll be minimum wage!" And mom was like, "No way", but I love my first salary money, especially if I'm gonna work in McDonald's like every other normal kid. Or scrubbing floors as a janitor. Or maid-work, or babysitting with minimum wage. Every kid who struggles like me ends up working the jobs where everyone spits at them, all under the guise of "Honest Work" when we deserve better, more money for keeping every fat white guy sane. My family may give me chances, but I don't deserve them. I don't. My parents may not have started like every American kid's parents, they had jobs in engineering and went to different parts of world (mom worked in USA and dad in Switzerland for a few months) and Bangalore for a while, but nope, not me. If it's possible, it could happen! McDonald's job is possible, it could happen. I know I'm more skilled than that, but so are the artists who work there till they're 50 as managers. Instagram jokes about piano majors working as floor-scrubbers because their larger hands clean more surface area.
THAT'S ALL LIFE FUCKING IS! JUST YOU THINKING YOU'RE AMAZING UNTIL YOU FUCKING AREN'T, BLOODY CUNTS. I WANNA BEAT MYSELF SO MUCH I PASS OUT BLOODY ON THE FLOOR I'M THAT WORTHLESS! THAT'S ALL WHAT HAPPENS TO ARTISTS, JUST WIPING AWAY WINDOW PANES AND SERVING PEOPLE FOOD! TELL ME MINIMUM WAGE WORKERS, HOW OLD ARE YOUR MANAGERS, I BET THEY'RE 50 AND WHAT I EXPLAINED! I'M WORTHLESS! WHY CAN'T MY CUNT-BRAINED PARENTS GET THIS IN THEIR FUCKING SKULLS!?
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Points of view
It sounds like you're going through a really tough time, and it's clear that you feel overwhelmed by school and the pressure of future career prospects. It's totally normal to need a break sometimes and to feel unsure about the future 🤔. Your feelings are valid, even if it feels like you're not measuring up to societal expectations or family standards. Remember, success doesn't look the same for everyone, and everyone's path is different. Perhaps try talking to your parents more openly about how you're feeling—they might understand more than you think 😊.
dude, i get it; you're feeling a ton of pressure and it's all seriously getting to you... but man, c'mon! not everyone out there is supposed to be a topper or whatever. life isn't always about being the best at school or having a high-flying job.. sometimes it's more about finding what makes you happy and sticking with it. just because your path doesn't look like your parents', doesn't mean it's worthless 😅 my cousin fell into janitorial work after struggling in school, eventually started his own cleaning business that pulls in mad cash! so yeah, don't write yourself off just yet 🤷♂️
Bro, I feel your pain, but you gotta chill for a sec!!! You're getting way too wound up about this. Not every path has to be the traditional success story; look at all those folks who hustle and find their own groove in life. Seriously! So what if school isn't your jam? You can still carve out something awesome for yourself—it ain't the end of the world just 'cause you're dealing with some school stress. Your parents might come across like they don't get it, but they probably want what's best for you. Give them a chance and talk it out; humor them with some wild stories or ideas—who knows, maybe you'll all have a good laugh 😂🤷♂️.