Kinda wanna end it all but at the same time cant

man, i'm so sorry to hear you're going through all this 💔 it sounds incredibly tough and like you're shouldering a lot on your own ;; feeling like spare parts is brutal... those voices and visions must be super scary too; have you thought about talking to a pro? might help lighten the load just a bit. we're here for you if you wanna vent more!!!

sounds like you're going through a lot right now; i'm really sorry to hear that. feeling like nobody cares is tough, but that doesn't mean it's true??? sometimes our minds can trick us into believing stuff that's not quite accurate. the idea of being just spare parts with a price tag sounds really intense and dehumanizing; i wonder what small steps you might take to change that perception? it could be helpful to challenge these thoughts and start seeing value in yourself beyond how you perceive others view you. hang in there 💪

Dude, this sounds heavy. Feeling like you're just spare parts is rough as hell... but seriously, why do you think no one cares???? Ever considered reaching out to someone who might surprise you? Sometimes we underestimate how much of a damn people give. You mentioned life insurance—what makes you feel like that's your only value?

hey, it sounds like you're really going through some heavy stuff, and i'm genuinely sorry to hear all that. life can be so brutal sometimes, but ending it is not the solution, you know? i don't know your whole story, but from what you've shared, it's clear you've been carrying a lot on your shoulders. have you thought about reaching out for help??? there are folks who'll listen without judgment and could lend a hand...that's pretty important when everything feels like it's crashing down 💔 take care of yourself; you're worth way more than spare parts ❤️

dude, putting a price on your organs like they're a car parts shop is dark; you seriously gotta reach out to someone who can help because bottling is only gonna make it worse.

Wow, I'm really sorry you're going through all this. 🙁 It sounds like you're carrying a ton of emotional weight right now. Your father's passing must have been incredibly difficult… feeling responsible for something so heavy can be overwhelming; but remember, you were just a kid and not at fault. Have you ever tried writing down your thoughts? Sometimes getting them out on paper can help clear the mind a bit. What do you think might be something small that could bring you some relief or joy?

hey there, wow it sounds like you're carrying a massive weight on your shoulders 😟 i can see why you feel so overwhelmed and it's understandable; seeing something as traumatic as your dad's passing at such a young age is bound to have lingering effects. it's tough when negative thoughts take over and make everything seem hopeless, but remember, feelings aren't facts and you matter more than spare parts; maybe reaching out to someone who understands might help shift things a bit? sometimes taking even the tiniest step towards talking about these feelings, like venting here, can begin to lighten that heavy load you're feeling. keep holding on, there's always hope for brighter days ahead!

Damn, it sounds like you’re in a really dark place right now. Seeing your dad pass must’ve been traumatic as hell and it's totally understandable how that would mess with your head. But thinking of yourself as just spare parts? That's harsh...you're worth so much more than the sum of your organs, dude! Why do you think bottling things up is better than letting it out? Maybe unloading some of these thoughts could help clear some space in your mind, even if that means screaming into the void sometimes.

Wow, this is a heavy load to carry. I get what you're saying about feeling like no one cares, but honestly? People might surprise you with their capacity for empathy and understanding, more than we give them credit for sometimes. Trust me, I've felt pretty damn low myself (thinking my only value was being a cog in the machine or just another body taking up space) but it turned out I was wrong. Life's cruel twist is that we're often our own worst critics; could be worthwhile to cut yourself some slack and seek help outside your usual circle. There's more to life than just shuffling through each day feeling like you're an empty shell; maybe explore what makes you tick internally rather than externally pricing your worth.

Mate, life's not just about being a cog in the machine or some damn inventory list; everyone feels insignificant at times. Your experiences are intense and it's clear you've been through hell and back...especially witnessing your father's death so young, that's trauma right there 😟 But thinking you're only worth your organs? That's just not true. Look, everyone's got demons to wrestle with, but you gotta get some help for those voices and hallucinations. Maybe tap into something that actually brings you joy or fulfills you even if it seems pointless now; you'll be surprised where you find value beyond what anyone else thinks.

man, it sounds like you're caught in this whirlwind of emotions and it's no wonder why with everything you’ve experienced; seeing your dad's death at such a young age is seriously heavy and it's okay to feel how you do even if it doesn’t seem fair. i get that money might be an obstacle when reaching out for professional help, but maybe looking into local support groups or online resources could be a step forward; sometimes they can offer guidance or just a place where people truly understand. also, bottling things up might seem like the easiest route, yet over time it can actually amplify the weight on your shoulders; perhaps finding new ways to express these feelings, like art or music, might ease some of those burdens in unexpected ways. remember that feeling human is more about embracing imperfections than measuring yourself against them; take care of yourself and keep fighting!! you’re worth every bit of effort you put into healing..

man, that sounds like a load of bullshit to deal with and going through this alone is heavy... real talk, it feels like you're in survival mode every damn day. can't believe how rough it must be, but you've been holding on so far. ik it's hard but try reaching out to local support groups or hotlines, they might have free resources you didn’t know about. maybe there's someone out there who can give you the help you need without costing an arm and a leg? even us venting together here could be ya tiny lighthouse through the storm...

hey man, i'm really sorry to hear how heavy things are feeling right now. it's understandable to feel stuck when you're dealing with so much. sometimes it seems like life's a never-ending uphill battle and nobody's got your back, but you gotta remember that even the darkest nights have mornings; maybe there's something small you can do for yourself right now that'll make things suck a little less? also, don't underestimate the power of just taking things one day at a time...even if tomorrow looks hazy as hell. venting here isn't a magic fix but it's something and that's already brave af.

Wow dude, it sounds like you're going through some seriously tough stuff and I wish I had a magic wand to make it all better.