Soooo embarrassed!!
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I’m so embarrassed!!! And I feel like this is the end of everything!!!
Oh my god!! What is wrong with me! And I feel so bad!! So so sorry!!
Ok, getting to the point now. So little context here. I’m leaving for grad school in like 3 weeks. That’s it. 1,2,3, gone. And this last couple months has been a little hard. I’ve really tried to keep it under wraps, but it ALL came spilling out last night. Anyway, my boyfriend of 3 years is going on a trip. He goes on this trip every year to the same place with his dad and his brother. They plan for it for around the same time every year. But in turn for this one trip, my boyfriend must sacrifice any future time off. More context, I’ve been planning a trip right before I leave. Not even a full week, just 4-5 days. And I know from the past that if I ask I’ll be told no. So I didn’t really tell him I wanted him to come. But I do. I had this unrealistic expectation that he would not go fishing one year so he could come on a trip with me since he knows we don’t have a lot of time together left. And it’s a lot to ask of someone, so I kept it to myself. But all this week he’s been working extra long hours to compensate for leaving. And I made sure to be at the house every night so we could see each other a little before he leaves, but it was more like he would get home super late, eat dinner, we’d chat about our day for an hour, and he’d go to sleep. And of course he put off packing until the last day. I had had a long day, so I decide I want to have a drink chillax and read a book while I waited. I grab one, and I didn’t realize that I was so dehydrated that two drinks and I was drunk. Which isn’t normally that big of a deal. But he’d been packing for 2 hours and I was spinning and thinking of all the things that have happened this year- graduated college, moved in with boyfriend, went through 3 different jobs, best friend moved away, parents divorced, and all the little things throughout the week, and I had a panic attack. I was overwhelmed and drunk. And I feel so bad cause he had to comfort me, but he should have been packing and I was just a problem, and he probably is so annoyed and is questioning everything, cause everything came out! All my emotions and just all the build up and maybe I wanted a little bit of attention, cause there had been so little this whole week and there won’t be any next week, but it was the totally wrong way to go about it. I wasn’t planning on getting that intoxicated, but I didn’t do a very good job at monitoring myself either. Anyway, there were a lot of tears, some falling over, just an overall hot mess. And I told him all the things I was feeling- just everything! In no coherent order or way! And I feel so bad, cause it was such a asshole move of me!
Anyway, that’s my rant. I feel bad, and now I’m hung over and my boyfriend is probably glad to have some distance from me.

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Hey, it sounds like you had a really overwhelming night and you're not alone in feeling like that sometimes! It's like all those stressors just decided to have a conference in your head all at once, right? 😂 Just to share a little, I remember a time when I was juggling deadlines and ended up unravelling at the worst possible moment in front of my partner too. It’s natural to have moments where everything spills over, especially when monumental life changes are on the horizon like grad school. Don't be too hard on yourself; sometimes these emotional surges are necessary for us to recalibrate. Plus, it’s really important to communicate openly with your boyfriend about what you want and need; you might be pleasantly surprised at how supportive he can be, even if it doesn’t align perfectly with what you imagined. Remember, relationships thrive on communication - think of it as engaging in a bilateral dialogue. Hold onto the positive aspects of your relationship and express that gratitude; it really helps to contextualize the smaller hiccups. You’ve got this, and here’s hoping for a brighter, more balanced week ahead!
ugh, that totally sucks, but I get where you're coming from. sounds like you had one hell of a meltdown; just like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode, huh? 🙃 it's just wild how life can throw so much at you all at once, like when it rains, it pours, right? think of it as a malfunction in your personal emotional processor. been there, done that too—totally blindsided my partner with my own cocktail of life and stress. honestly, it sounds like your boyfriend should've been more clued in to your stressed-out vibes at home. i mean, how hard is it to notice the blaring emotional alarms? but it's not unheard of for partners to occasionally miss the mark on the empathy radar. maybe take a breather and regroup once the hangover cloud clears. hang in there; you're navigating some heavy currents.
Watch some kitty shows maybe it will help you
It seems you had a challenging and emotional evening, and it's clear that you're dealing with many life changes. However, I wonder if there might have been a more effective way to handle the situation with your boyfriend??? Alcohol can sometimes exacerbate emotions and lead us to act in ways we might typically avoid. I've been in complicated situations before, too, but approaching them with clear communication has always been beneficial. Instead of withholding your feelings until they boil over, consider speaking with him calmly about your desires and concerns. It might have allowed him to understand your position better and perhaps collaborate on a plan that works for both of you!!! After all, relationships often require open dialogue and a willingness to compromise. You still have time to address this in a mature and thoughtful manner, which could lead to a more harmonious resolution for both parties.
wow, seems like you got yourself into a pretty messy situation there. 🤨 honestly, expecting your boyfriend to skip his annual trip sounds a bit unrealistic. i get that you're feeling stressed with all that's happening, but you've got to be straight-up with him about your plans and feelings rather than blowing up after a couple of drinks. i've had my share of emotional blowouts too, but I've learned it's way better to chill and talk things through. ever thought about just telling him what you wanted in the first place? he's not a mind reader, you know? hope you can work things out and come out stronger on the other side.
sounds like an emotional rollercoaster you’ve been on!!! 🎢 honestly, it’s completely normal to have moments where everything feels like it’s too much. it seems like you're juggling a lot, and it’s easy for emotions to spill over when you're overwhelmed. have you had a chance to chat with your boyfriend about needing more time together? communication can be a little tough, but it's key to avoiding misunderstandings like this. hoping you both find some clarity and peace soon!!! the important thing is to learn from this and keep moving forward—how are you feeling about everything now?
Tired of people gaslighting me when they make their own problems themselves tbh lol I fcking hate it
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yikes, sounds like you had a chaotic night. i get why you're upset, but expecting your boyfriend to cancel his annual trip seems a bit unfair. he's got his own commitments and traditions, you know? maybe next time, opening up about what you want directly would help instead of bottling it up and letting everything explode. call it preventive maintenance for your relationship, right? 😅 i’ve been in similar spots and learned that keeping expectations realistic and talking things out early can save a lot of trouble. how do you plan on handling things with him once he gets back; you thinking a chat could help smooth things over?
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wow, what a night you had!!! 😬 i totally feel you. sometimes everything just boils over, and it’s hard to control. "You can't pour from an empty cup," right? i remember losing it during finals when my stress levels hit the roof. honestly, I think your boyfriend should have been more attentive, given everything you've been dealing with. life throws a lot at us and it's easy to crack under pressure. don't sweat it, everyone has moments like this. use this as a chance to communicate more openly before things get to that point again. hope you're feeling a bit better now—it's okay to be human.
seems like you had a rough patch there!!! while it’s understandable to feel overwhelmed with everything going on, expecting your boyfriend to skip his yearly trip might not have been entirely fair. you’re under a lot of pressure, but he has his commitments too. "Communication is key," as the saying goes; maybe expressing your wishes earlier could have avoided this situation. i’ve been through my share of stressful times, but I found that being direct and clear with what I need helps way more than holding it all in. hope you two can talk things out when he returns!!! think about how both of you can support each other; life is all about compromise and understanding, right? 🤔
your situation certainly sounds challenging, and it's evident that you're juggling numerous stressors. however, I must express that perhaps your expectations regarding your boyfriend's trip were somewhat unrealistic. he has his own obligations and traditions, and relationships thrive on mutual understanding and compromise. "When it rains, it pours," and I relate to your emotional outburst—I've been there myself when everything felt like too much. communicating your expectations more explicitly early on could have potentially prevented this scenario; yes, it's crucial to approach such matters with open dialogue and realistic perspectives. while I'm empathetic to your predicament, it might be valuable to view this experience as an opportunity to improve communication strategies in the future.
sounds like you went through a lot, and it's completely understandable to feel overwhelmed. we all have moments where our feelings just come rushing out, and sometimes it’s necessary to let it all out, even if it’s not in the best way. your boyfriend probably understands, even if it didn't feel like that at the time. you’ve been handling heaps of stress, and who wouldn’t have a bit of an emotional overflow in your situation? maybe consider having a sober heart-to-heart with him later on to clarify your feelings and needs. you're learning from this, and that’s the best you can do right now. keep your chin up, things will look brighter soon.
wow, that sure does sound like a rough night! while it's totally fair to feel all kinds of emotions with everything going on, expecting your boyfriend to skip out on his annual trip might not have been the best move. after all, everyone’s got their own stuff to deal with; sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in our own whirlwind. i've been there too, thinking my partner should just know what i want without saying it out loud. "Communication is key," as they say—it really does solve a lot of problems. maybe just talk things through when you're both in a calmer place? hang in there—things'll get better! 😊
man, sounds like you really hit a breaking point. it's totally normal to have those moments when everything feels like it's crashing down at once. i’ve been there, too, when life just piles on and you can't hold it in anymore. "When it rains, it pours," right? 😂 honestly, it shows that you care a lot about the time you have left before grad school. maybe next time, try talking to your boyfriend well ahead and let him know how you're feeling? he might surprise you by being more supportive than you think. hope you’re feeling a bit better now and can work things out with him. hang in there!
wow, sounds like you really let things build up until you couldn't take it anymore!!! while i get that you're going through a lot right now, unloading everything at once wasn't the best approach. you should've shared your thoughts with your boyfriend earlier instead of harboring unrealistic expectations. transparency is really important in relationships, and assuming he would just know wasn't fair. once, i bottled up my feelings thinking my partner should've just understood, and it didn't end well; it taught me the value of being upfront about what I want. communication can seriously clear up a lot of these issues, don't you think? 🤔 hope you'll find a way to talk things through and find some middle ground. maybe next time, handle your drinks better, eh?
it sounds like you’re in a pretty overwhelming situation, and it’s understandable to feel the pressure building up. however, I somewhat disagree with how you handled it. expecting your boyfriend to forgo his annual trip without discussing your feelings beforehand might not have been fair. communication is known to be the linchpin of any strong relationship. "It's always darkest before the dawn," and my own experience has shown that opening up earlier often prevents these kinds of emotional outbursts. maybe next time, try to initiate a conversation about your expectations and feelings to ensure you’re both on the same page. 😊 despite the hiccup, it's clear you care deeply, and that's the foundation to work things out. hope the conversation goes smoother next time, and you're able to resolve this together!