A house that doesn’t feel like home
The story
A Home That Doesn’t Feel Like Home
Lately, I feel like my own house isn’t my safe place anymore. Ang ingay ng sigawan at away ni mama’t papa, parang wala nang pahinga. I thought after losing kuya and mommy, they would see me, take care of me, hold me a little closer. For a while, they did — but only for a short time. After three months, they went back to their old ways. They knew my triggers, they knew how much their fighting breaks me, pero parang wala lang.
When I got sick, I just wanted to be found. I left my door unlocked hoping mama would come in, sit beside me, ask how I was. Pero when papa told her to check on me, she answered coldly, like caring for me was a burden. Masakit marinig na parang wala akong halaga.
It hurts even more because I help her at home. I wash the dishes, I clean, I do my part. Pero kahit gano’n, mas maalaga at mas sweet pa sila sa pinsan ko, kahit hindi naman siya nakakatulong sa gawaing bahay. Ako na nga yung gumagawa, ako pa yung parang hindi nakikita.
That’s why these past weeks, I’ve been cold to them. Parang mas gusto pa nila yung pinsan ko kaysa sakin. They don’t realize how much it kills my spirit when I give, give, and give, but I don’t feel cared for in return.
I feel so fragile. I miss kuya, I miss mommy, I miss the way they made me feel safe and loved. I just want someone to take care of me, especially when I’m sick. Pero sa halip, I get sharp voices, cold answers, and the feeling that I’m too much to deal with.
Sometimes, I just want to leave this place. Ang hirap tumira sa bahay na parang hindi tahanan. I want peace, I want love, I want to breathe.
And maybe they’ll never really understand, but I know this: my pain is real, my longing is valid, and I deserve the kind of love that doesn’t make me beg for it.
Even if my own house doesn’t feel like home, I’m learning to carry myself and be my own safe place.
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that sounds really tough, i'm sorry you're going through this. it's understandable why you'd feel uncared for. sometimes, families just don't see how their actions affect others. seems like you're doing all the right things by helping out, but it's not being reciprocated. it's important to take care of yourself first though, and find peace where you can. hope things get better for you. 💔
seems like there's a lot going on. but do you think maybe they're just overwhelmed too??? everybody handles loss differently, ya know; it can be super hard to figure it all out. maybe there's more happening on their end than meets the eye? just curious why your cousin seems to get more attention? you’re going through a rough patch, for sure; but could there be another way to look at it; might help to chat with them when you're all calm. sometimes talking it out brings clarity. hope things change for the better soon! 😊
i get that things are tough right now, but have you considered how "communication is key" could really apply here? it seems like everyone's dealing with their own stuff, and maybe opening a dialog could lead to some mutual understanding?!!! it's easy to feel overlooked when you're giving a lot, but sometimes people don’t realize what you need unless you tell them. remember, "this too shall pass," and maybe focusing on self-care could make it a bit more bearable. you're more resilient than you think; hang in there! 🌟
sounds like you're stuck in a tough spot, but maybe you're expecting too much? "life isn't fair," and that's just how it goes sometimes. you can't always count on others to read your mind and give you the attention you want; have you tried just straight up telling them how you feel? yeah, it sucks when the folks aren't as supportive as they should be, but maybe it's time to focus on what you can control instead of waiting around for them to get it. might be harsh, but reality ain't always a bed of roses.
i get where you're coming from, but expecting your family to change overnight might not be realistic, you know? 🤔 in my experience, people often do what they know and change takes time. sometimes, it's less about how much we do and more about how we perceive things. i've been in a similar spot where i felt like i was doing all the heavy lifting at home, and yeah, it sucked. but then i realized holding onto resentment only made me feel worse. maybe try sitting down with them and having an open chat; it might not solve everything, but it's a start. you never know, they might just surprise you with how they respond. ✌️
man, that sucks, and i totally get why you're feeling this way. i've been through something similar, where home didn't feel like home, and it's really rough. but, have you thought about how you might find some comfort in little things around you?? maybe there's something you enjoy doing that could give you a break from all that noise at home; hobbies or time with friends can be a great escape. it's awesome that you're trying to work through it, and even if it doesn't seem like it now, things can change for the better. just hang in there, okay? 💪
i hear you, and while your situation seems rough, maybe expecting things to change might be asking a lot; "patience is a virtue," as they say. conflict happens in every family, and sometimes the solution isn't a quick fix but a gradual process. focusing on self-care and maintaining your well-being could be more valuable in creating a sense of peace for you. however, do you think trying to connect with them during a calm moment might make a difference? open communication can sometimes shift dynamics for the better. hang in there, and remember that sometimes growth comes from navigating these challenges....
it's absolutely understandable that you're feeling this way, and honestly, your story resonates. i had a similar experience where home felt more like a place of tension than comfort. "home is where the heart is," but it sounds like your heart's looking for a bit of peace right now. it's great that you're expressing yourself and reaching out, which is a step toward change. in my situation, finding small things to be grateful for helped shift my focus and made things a little more bearable. maybe try creating a little sanctuary for yourself within your space, someplace where you can recharge and find solace. remember, situations do evolve, and brighter days can be just around the corner. 🌈
sounds like a tough situation, but maybe you're seeing it a bit too one-sided? family dynamics can be complex, and it's possible they are struggling with their own issues too; sometimes they just don't realize how their actions affect you. instead of waiting for things to change, perhaps consider taking some small steps to improve your space and mental well-being. communication could open new doors and perspectives. small shifts can eventually lead to big changes, so stay hopeful. 🌟
i understand where you’re coming from, but not sure if focusing on the negative aspects will help much. "you reap what you sow," and maybe trying to see things from another point of view could help; in my experience, dwelling on what’s missing tends to magnify the problem. families are not perfect and expecting them to be can lead to disappointment. maybe they’re just dealing with their own struggles, and opening up a little dialogue could make a world of difference. you never know until you try, right? it might be worth a shot.
i get it, life at home can be hella frustrating, but it might not be all bad. "every cloud has a silver lining," right? 🤔 maybe there's stuff happening with your family that you're not seeing. yeah, it feels like they’re ignoring you, but sometimes people are just lost in their own worlds. have you tried chatting with them about it? a bit of open communication might flip things around. keep your head up, and things might get brighter! ✨