I can't stand what's happening anymore

[Translated from Spanish. Reminder: IIWIARS is English only]

A few months ago I met a girl, a bit older than me. We started talking, seeing each other, and began a 'relationship' but it wasn't formal yet. My parents are very religious, they found out about this and punished me for 2 and a half years without my phone, no going out for a while, and they have to be there when I do go out. Besides that, they kept telling me that what I was doing wasn't right and that I would go to hell or things like that, among other things, and obviously I couldn't talk to or get close to her. But I love her, and I kept writing to her. Two days ago they found out about our now formal relationship, and yesterday they didn't talk to me. Today they scolded me really hard, started rebuking demons, and are going to sue my girlfriend. They are going to keep me away from all my friends because I'm a bad influence and I feel really bad. I don't want to testify against my girlfriend, nor be left without friends. Besides, the feeling of being at home was already very uncomfortable because of all the arguments, rejection, and conditional love (since if I'm not how they want me to be, they show me contempt). My little dog died recently and almost all my life I said that if she died I would kill myself. She was my only safe place at home and as you can imagine I've been thinking about killing myself or leaving home for a while but I haven't finished school and it's complicated for me. Now all I want is for this to end, but I'm scared to kill myself, I don't know what to do. Without my girlfriend or friends, I have nothing left, I just want to die.

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