Is my mom narcissistic?

This may sound a bit confusing because im young but my mom is always the type to start talking about herself and completely turn everything to be about her and how she is the victim, once i wanted to talk about my feelings to her but she went behind my back and turned my feeling into gossip to my brother and laughed about it, when i confronted her and got mad at her, i asked her why she is suddenly so quiet, she answered with " if i say what i wanna say, u will get mad at me" and this might sound reasonable for some but she is this type of person who doesn't give her own child advice, so when she tells me this i just hate how stupid and disgusting a person that is my own mother can be, she expects me to figure my life out all by myself and she wants me to just stop talking about my thoughts to her, she wont get me a therapist because i think she is embarrassed to have her daughter going to therapy at such a young age and she thinks people will think of me as a psycho and stuff, i know it's not a money problem because she pays for my brother therapy and she is all good with it.

I recently started having conversations about my own pov about some topics and i don't have anyone to talk to so i talked to my mom but everytime i speak she just makes fun of me and she keeps telling me to "stop talking about my feelings because life isn't that serious", she thinks the solution to every problem in her life is to be angry and make it about herself and how she is such a victim, im so young that ill be waiting years too get a flat or safe space in general all by myself but honestly, just because of my mom and stuff i dont believe I'll even make it to 20. i just feel so weak and vulnerable and i feel like such a disappointment at all times and i just don't see myself being able to have everything figured out at 20 or even older since right now i have problems with myself such as forgetfulness, i can think about something, get distracted and just forget about it like it never happened, but I don't want my mother to help me in adulthood because im afraid she will just argue with me about everything

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