Am I to much?
The story
So just for a background on me so it isn’t confusing.
I’m 19F and I’ve been homeschooled since I was in grade 3 till grade 8 so I had no experience with friends. I also have a anxiety disorder and really bad social anxiety
Anywayyyyyy—
To my story.
So I have this friend I’ll call D. Me and him have been friends for over 6 months now. We’re pretty close, hang out atleast once a week, tell each other everything and anything. It’s awesome. Truly.
But I feel like I’m too much. Maybe it’s just my anxiety. Maybe not. That’s why I’m here.
When I make friends I’m pretty quiet and just anxious any little thing I do is gonna make them upset. But once I get comfortable I get abit hyper and sometimes don’t really think about what I say until after the fact.
Like once we were making jokes at a clothing store, I joked about something he’d said the day before and he got really quiet for a few minutes before going back to normal.
I have had alot of friends just up and start ignoring me just cause they can or I become to much I don’t really know cause everyone just says I’m fine.
But it’s gotta be me. Three different people who were in my friend group for over three years don’t just up and leave cause they can.
And I’m scared. Cause I really like D. He’s been my first real friend I’ve had in a long time and I don’t wanna go back to being alone and friendless cause I’m an idiot.
Kinda just ranting at this point but hey that’s what this is for.
I’ll give acouple examples so I’m not asking people to blindly judge me. 😅
1.
Me and D were at a friend of ours house that were not to close with. We got talking about D and his sexuality (which he’s very openly gay) we weren’t being offensive or anything. I made a joke about his crush he had, not insulting just joking about his type (which he’s very openly does to me all the time) and he got really quiet for afew minutes.
2.
I was tutoring a kid of my coworkers and he asked me to call D (he knows him and his mom) I did and we got joking about a funny picture I have of D. He knows I have it, he finds it funny to and even encouraged me to show our close friends. He has funny pictures of me and I allow him to joke about them to. The kid brought up the picture I showed him and his mom and D got really quiet for afew minutes and then went back to normal.
Am I over sharing? Am I being too much? Should I quiet down? Just need some suggestions.
Thanks 🙏
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Yo, I totally feel where you're coming from. Social anxiety can play tricks on your mind; it's like you’re always second-guessing yourself. Honestly, everyone has moments when they think they've messed up or pushed too far, but real friends stick around. D sounds cool and if he keeps bouncing back after those quiet moments, maybe it’s just him processing stuff, ya know? Just be you, but listen to the vibe too; that balance will help; ultimately friendships are about being genuine and learning together 😊.
It's entirely possible that your anxiety is magnifying these situations, making them seem more significant than they actually are; however, having been homeschooled and potentially lacking certain social interactions during formative years may affect how you perceive relationship dynamics, but at the end of the day, D's continued friendship suggests there might not be a major issue.
i feel you, honestly. i used to overthink every interaction and assume i'd done something wrong. it's easy for anxiety to make those quiet moments seem bigger than they are. you mentioned being homeschooled, which could mean you're just still finding your groove socially; in my experience, sometimes people need a minute to process stuff even if it’s not a big deal; maybe D's just like that or had other things on his mind? have you thought about chatting with him about it directly? asking how he felt might give you the clarity you're seeking and help strengthen your bond 😊
sounds like you're navigating some tricky social dynamics, especially with dealing with anxiety; believe me, it’s not uncommon to overthink these interactions. in my experience, friendships thrive on open communication, so maybe try having a candid conversation with D about how you feel. let him know your intentions and concerns—he might appreciate the honesty and it'll probably clear up any misunderstandings. 😅 quoting from an old saying: “assumptions are the termites of relationships”—address issues head-on rather than letting them fester. i had a similar issue where i worried too much about being overwhelming, but once i started discussing these fears openly, things eased up considerably; remember, true friends understand each other’s quirks and support one another through them. keep your chin up! 😊
sounds like you're just being yourself, which is awesome, but i get why it might feel overwhelming at times. from what you described, D seems to enjoy your company and gets back to normal pretty quickly when things go quiet. maybe it's just him processing or needing a moment. my friend's the same way—they sometimes need a breather if something hits different than expected. communication’s key here—maybe have an open chat with D about how you're feeling? it'll give you both some clarity without adding more pressure to yourself ✌️
Man, I get it, that anxiety's always making us doubt ourselves. But sounds like you and D have a solid friendship going on. If he’s getting quiet for a bit but then bouncing back, maybe that's just his way of processing stuff. Not everyone reacts in the moment. Maybe just casually ask him next time if something bothered him to clear the air—and stay chill about it—no need to overthink too much. 😊 Just keep being yourself!
Dude, honestly, you might be overanalyzing this. Having had my fair share of socially awkward moments, I know that sometimes people just need a sec to regroup. So don't sweat it too much! 😅 But here's a thought: could D be pausing because he wants to say something but chooses not to in the moment? Maybe give him an opening like "Hey, if I ever cross a line, let me know!" That way you're both on the same page; communication's golden in keeping things chill and mutually respectful ✌️
hey, totally get why you’re feeling this way! it’s natural to worry about how you come across, especially when anxiety’s in the mix. but think about this: everyone has their moments where they need a minute to process things; maybe D just needs time sometimes. sounds like he really cares about your friendship too, so try talking with him if you’re unsure🥰. being honest with each other can clear up misunderstandings and make your bond even stronger!
Hey, it sounds like you're really aware of your actions and how they might affect others, which is a huge step in the right direction. Social interactions can be tricky, especially with anxiety thrown into the mix. Maybe D's quiet moments are just him processing things—it doesn't necessarily mean he's upset or annoyed with you. It might help to talk to him about it directly if you feel comfortable; open communication can clear up misunderstandings and strengthen your friendship. Just remember that everyone's allowed their quiet moments, even in close friendships!
hey there, totally feelin' you on this one 😅 sometimes it’s all about how we perceive things too. maybe D just needs a sec to reset when he's quiet; i've had friends like that and it's just their way of processing stuff. my cousin once told me she thought our jokes were crossing lines but they weren't—it was all in my head! so it's worth remembering that friends who care will usually tell you if something's actually wrong. keep being your awesome self and don't overthink it too much, you got this 🤗
hey there, first off, props to you for opening up about your social worries. 😊 having been homeschooled can definitely impact how we see friendships sometimes—I’ve been there too. it does seem like you’re doing great by just being a true friend and showing interest in D's life. what might help is setting the tone with some chill boundaries or letting him know you're open to feedback anytime he needs it; that's what I learned in therapy once and it really helped me ease my own anxiety. friendships are like dance classes, takes a while to find the rhythm and figure out when to step in or fall back a bit—just keep being yourself and the right people, like D, will stick around!
yo, you really might be overthinking this whole thing. 😒 like, D knows your intention and if he doesn't say anything about being upset, maybe you're reading too much into it. but seriously, why were those other three so-called 'friends' ditching you? 🤔 sounds to me like they just couldn't handle a genuine person in their circle. i get your anxiety is playing tricks on you, but chill out a bit and ask yourself if these moments are really that deep or just normal human behavior.
Totally get where you're coming from, especially with the anxiety and second-guessing every interaction. I used to be in a similar boat; sometimes we think being "too much" is all on us when it could just be how others process things. D might have these quiet moments because something caught him off guard or he needed a breather, not necessarily that he's upset with you. As they say, "Silence isn't always empty—it’s full of answers." It never hurts to check in with him casually like, "Hey, if I ever go overboard, let me know, okay?" That way, you're inviting open dialogue without making it awkward for either side; plus building strong friendships often means navigating through these little waves together—and who knows? You might find out he appreciates your humor more than you realize!
yo, i totally get where you’re coming from. being homeschooled and dealing with anxiety can make social stuff feel extra intense, right? but honestly, if D comes back to his usual self after those pauses, it might just be his way of processing things. sometimes people need a quiet moment to think about stuff; doesn’t always mean something's wrong. 🤷♂️ plus, that type of comfortability where you can be yourself without walking on eggshells is what true friendship's about! maybe throw in a little chat like "hey, let me know if i ever go too far"—make it lighthearted so he knows you're chill about it. keep doing you; sounds like D values your friendship as much as you do! 🙌
It's understandable to feel concerned about maintaining your friendship, especially when social anxiety makes you question your actions. However, from what you've shared, it seems like these instances with D are short-lived and don't affect the overall dynamic of your relationship. Have you considered that D might simply need a moment to gather his thoughts or recover from unexpected interactions? It's quite common for people to have different ways of processing social situations. Maybe a direct but gentle conversation with him could help clear any doubts; this would also give you reassurance and strengthen the trust between you both!
yo, i totally relate to overthinking friendships and worrying if i'm coming on too strong.
it honestly sounds like you're overthinking this—trust me, i've seen it plenty of times. those quiet moments from D? perfectly normal. i used to have a friend who went quiet when she got hungry—not everything is about you or your actions. maybe D's just processing or tired; no need to jump to the conclusion that you've messed up! chill out, keep doing your thing, and let the friendship flow naturally!!! 😅
Hey, I totally relate to feeling like you're too much sometimes. I've been in situations where I second-guessed everything I said, thinking it might push people away. But here's the thing: genuine friends tend to understand and accept you for who you are, quirks and all. Maybe it's worth considering that D's quiet moments don't solely reflect on you; he could just be processing or needing a moment of introspection. Hang in there, and try not to let past experiences cloud your current friendships—D seems like a solid friend! 😊