I hate my body for that, I can't forget (TW)
The story
I met a guy 2 years ago online. he sent me a voice message first and I just sent a question mark. Then we started talking and talking he was a cute guy and made me laugh, I sent him some videos and he sent me some. He once even told me he would take me to the amusement park so we could have fun like kids if we were in the same city (We both were teens). as we talked he recommended me songs. He even sang some
(ignore if I have mistakes, English is not my first language). Things were sweet and cute. I had family issues back then like now so he was the only one making me smile and forget about bad things, so yeah I got attached to him. I was texting him in my fake account so I had another girl in my profile. after I trusted him I sent him a picture of myself and told him that I am actually this. he was even sweet then, he told me he can help me improve my style -We've talked about that too- but I got stressed and blocked him (I wish it stayed like that)
Later I couldn't forget him so I texted him in another account I created and we talked there too. I told him I was sorry for suddenly blocking him etc. he didn't see anything bad in that and accepted me but told me I shouldn't fake myself. (yeah fair enough). As we talked things got a bit out of hand. because I always sent him a photo of me I liked. one day it even came to being s3xualized. I don't remember how but we came to that topic. He wanted a photo of my chest (I'm so sorry if these are triggering you, please don't continue) I was reluctant at first but I fucking did it. Then I deleted it. and I thought he didn't have the photo anymore too. Later the days he told me we should do s3xting and I refused. and he said it wouldn't hurt. i obviously refused him again. Then he sent me the photo I sent him a couple of days ago. (Yes that one). Clearly threatening me to share it around without saying anything. So I just wrote a paragraph about how I trusted him and how I wanted to be near him but how he disappointed me. and I logged out of the account. after a couple of days I logged in and the chats were still there and he didn't even block me. Instead he had even video called me after the paragraph. I panicked and just deleted all the evidence and the account there. I am grateful that I didn't use my actual account because I think he could've threatened me to send it to my parents. But I still hate myself for that I should've known that he was a bad person and I should've kept him blocked from the first time. He is now mature and keeps living his life while I think and rot here again and again. he even makes some small contents and dubs. It just popped in my feed a couple of weeks ago and I don't know.
I did some research and I should've gone to the police. but I don't even have any evidence. and I just let it go like that. even after 2 years it still haunts me I've never told anyone about this I just wanted to vent here
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oh man, what a rough situation 😞 but honestly, it's essential to remember that we all make mistakes and sometimes trust the wrong people; your story reminds me of this quote I heard: "experience is simply the name we give our mistakes"
It's understandable to feel upset, but don't be too hard on yourself! It's a learning experience even if it didn't turn out great; people often show their true colors when you least expect it. Focus on what you've learned from this and how you'll handle similar situations in the future—you deserve peace and trust in your relationships.
Damn, that's a tough lesson to learn the hard way. It's pretty wild how someone can flip that quick from sweet to manipulative. The main takeaway here is never second-guess your gut feeling again. If something feels off, it's probably for a reason. At least now you're wiser about who you give your trust to online.
man, what a wild ride that was... it's totally understandable why you're feeling haunted by it all. 🤔 you definitely learned the hard way about trusting someone too much online, but don't beat yourself up too badly — it's a mistake anyone could make. hopefully sharing your experience here helps you process it and maybe move on a bit. venting is essential sometimes!!