I hate my feelings
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Guys, this may sound so ridiculous but I need help.
I've been in an orchestra in 2 months. There's a 44 y.o man that I really obsess over. I'm 18 btw.
He's a nice guy and he makes me feel like I'm not a stranger. He always notices me.
I'm so obsessed to the point that after he joined the orchestra, he's my only hope for a day of practice session. I don't want him to leave.
I don't want to be more than friends with him cause he has a wife; but I want to be in contact with him. I know that if he gets out of my life, nothing is going to happen and he's not gonna affect any aspect of my life; but I'm still worried.
I don't know if he's gonna appear in the next orchestra project or not and that's what stresses me. Also, my parents are judging me and they think I'm a devil who wants to ruin a marriage...
(I forgot to say that I had a history with this kind of obsession which led to something horrible)
_now how can I get rid of this obsessions and normalize my friendship with him, just like anything else?

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man, i totally get where you're coming from, it's so easy to get a bit carried away, especially when someone's super nice to you. 😅 i remember this one time i got a bit too attached to a coworker, just cause they seemed to genuinely care, and it was kinda hard to deal with. it's tricky cause you're just tryna be cool but your brain is doing all these somersaults. like, i've been there and it really messes with your peace of mind. from experience, maybe try keeping some distance and focus on other cool stuff happening in your life, like hobbies or other friends? just tryna find that balance might chill things out a bit. hope it works out for ya!
hey, i totally hear you, and it's understandable that you're feeling a bit tangled up in this situation. it’s only natural for people to form attachments, especially in a group like an orchestra where you spend a lot of time together. i think the key here might be to focus on the music and the bond you share within the orchestra rather than personal feelings. think of him more like a musical mentor or fellow musician, that's maybe less stressful. prioritizing practice and music might help shift your attention and energy to where it benefits you most; perhaps it could bring more harmony to your interactions. hope it helps you find some peace.
man, that's a lot. feeling super attached to someone who's already tied up, might not end great 😕. feels like you're risking more than you think. not sure obsessing over a fellow musician is the best move; it's not like it adds to your solo or orchestral prowess. maybe a little introspection could help figure out why you're so hooked. seems like distancing might be wise, especially if it's causing distress. remember, the music's the main act, not individual players; you gotta keep your eye on the score.
honestly, it seems there's a bit of overreaction going on here 🤔. forming bonds is one thing, but becoming "obsessed" might be stretching the limits of a healthy rapport, especially in a professional setting like an orchestra. "all the world’s a stage," a wise person once said, and it's crucial to recognize the boundaries between personal feelings and professional interactions. your talents and practice sessions should hold your primary focus, not someone who is part of the ensemble. maybe reevaluate what's driving you, as it's important to cultivate connections that aren't based on dependency. you're talented and have so much to explore beyond individual relationships within the orchestra; this might prove enriching and divert the current course.
hey, i totally feel for you with this situation!!! it's really something how our minds can get totally wrapped up in these kinds of connections, isn't it? "absence makes the heart grow fonder," and sometimes, it makes us anxious and stressed too. it's pretty wild how these things can just take over your thoughts when you're part of something like an orchestra, which is intense by itself. maybe set boundaries in your mind, you know? focus on the music, the rhythm, the harmony!!! it sounds like a good strategy to keep things on track and prevent any drama. keep your head up, and don't stress too much about what your parents think. what matters is how you navigate your own feelings!!!
hey, i get you so much!!! it's wild how quickly we can get totally hooked on someone, especially when they're nice and stand out in a group setting like an orchestra 🎶. you know, "the heart wants what it wants," right? i recall a time in college when i found myself really attached to a professor who showed me a bit of attention, and it just kind of spiraled. it can be so tricky because these feelings take over even when we don't want them to. just wanna say that it's okay to feel this way, but maybe try focusing on other aspects of the orchestra or new friendships to get your mind off things. keep your chin up,, and know you're not alone in dealing with this kind of stuff!!!!
dude, you gotta chill with the obsession!!! it's not healthy to get so wrapped up in someone just cause they’re nice in an orchestra setting 😑. maybe stop putting so much weight on this relationship; it won't do any wonders for your playing skills or social life. not trying to be harsh, but acting like this isn't gonna help anybody. focus more on the music and let things roll naturally without forcing it. you’re in an orchestra to make music, not to fixate on one person!!!
hey, i really get where you're coming from and it makes total sense!!! it's easy to get attached when someone makes you feel special and noticed. i’ve felt that way before, like when someone at work gives you a bit more attention, and suddenly they’re all you think about. "absence makes the heart grow fonder," and it’s tough because you don’t want to cross any lines. just remember, things might not be as big as they seem right now. sometimes it's helpful to focus on other interests and friendships to balance things out. keep your head up,,, you’re gonna find a way through this!!!
hey, i totally get what you're going through and it's not ridiculous at all 😊. when you're in an orchestra, it's not just about the music, but also about the connections and the vibes you share with others. i've been in a similar boat where someone just stood out and became the highlight of my day. it's like the rehearsals suddenly start to mean a lot more, right? while it’s tricky with him being married, it's great that you recognize that boundary. maybe channel some of that energy into practicing your instrument more or exploring new pieces with other members. building different connections might help balance things out and keep you grounded, ya know? hang in there!
hey, i see where you're coming from, and i totally get that it can be tough, but maybe it's not as big a deal as you think. feeling drawn to someone can happen to anyone, but it doesn't have to spiral into obsession. i've been in situations where i got too attached to a mentor figure, but i realized i was just projecting some stuff from my own life. "don't make a mountain out of a molehill," as they say; maybe try to refocus on what you love about the orchestra itself. you're there to enjoy the music and connection with everyone, not just one person!!!
hey, it's completely understandable that you feel a certain way about this person in the orchestra. at 18, it's natural to be drawn to people who make us feel valued and seen, especially in settings where we're passionate like music. but you gotta remember, there's a fine line between admiration and obsession. maybe consider focusing more on your personal growth within the orchestra, like mastering a challenging piece or building rapport with other members? by investing energy into your own development, rather than just one connection, you'll likely find balance – both emotionally and musically 🌟. hope things work out well for you!