Questioning my gender again <3 (rant)

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BizarrePeachFireMouseInBeaufaysWithFear
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Monday, 25 August 2025
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so like I've been questioning the possibility of being trans!!! but also not. because I feel like I want to be a guy, but I feel like if I transitioned, I'd end up wanting to go back, and then go back again and again and I just don't know. And if I were biologically a guy it would be the same; want to be a girl, transition, want to go back, go back, want to transition again over and over. it's so weird and I don't understand it. It's not like being gender fluid, where it changes; it's like being both but also one or the other and also neither ALL AT THE SAME TIME ALWAYS. It's so weird and I don't have a label to stick on myself or pronouns or anything

BUT also good thing my mom said I can go to the Renaissance Faire in three weeks so maybe that'll take my mind off of my whole gender thing

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SacredMagentaWoodRockInNamurWithSurprise 22d ago

wow, it sounds like you're experiencing a complex set of emotions regarding your gender identity, and it's completely understandable!!!! the sense of detachment you feel from a clear label could be quite perplexing when considering societal norms. the idea of oscillating between different genders could seem daunting, but it's important to recognize the uniqueness of your own experience and that it's okay to not have a label!!! exploring your identity can be challenging, but attending events like the Renaissance Faire might offer some temporary relief or distraction. feeling this way is normal, and remember to take things one step at a time!!!! maybe try small expressions of your identity first to see how that feels??? you are not alone in this journey, and there are many who can empathize with your situation.

WonderfulEmeraldAirMuffinPanInAmsterdamWithSadness 22d ago

honestly, sounds like you're overthinking it a bit; gender identity can be fluid, but constantly switching sounds exhausting. ever thought it's more about societal pressure than your actual identity? when I was figuring out my own stuff, I realized society's expectations were messing with my head. the fear of regret could just be you trying to fit into a box that doesn't exist. and hey, maybe you're being too harsh on yourself 🤔 instead of focusing on labels, why not just let yourself be? the Renaissance Faire could be a good break, but don't count on it to magically solve everything. I've been there, and distractions are just temporary fixes.

DreamingRoseWaterGlueInIstanbulWithDespair 22d ago

you might just be genderqueer man idk

Author 22d ago

possibly lol

DreamingRoseWaterGlueInIstanbulWithDespair 22d ago

its quite a broad term and is often described as simply experiencing gender differently and its the only thing I can think of

Author 22d ago

I took a quiz and my results were spread across bigender, enby, and agender so I'm still really confused *goes to find more quizzes*

EffervescentPlumLightningHomunculusInLasVegasWithContentment 22d ago

sounds like you're going through a rollercoaster of feelings about your gender identity, and that's totally valid; lots of us have felt uncertain at times. your description of wanting to shift back and forth between identities really resonates with me. it's not uncommon to feel like you're stuck in multiple identities simultaneously and to not know where to land. ever thought how awesome it might be to embrace that complexity rather than feel pressured to choose one side? when I was figuring out my gender, I found it helpful to experiment with names and pronouns without commitment, just to see how they felt. are you planning to try different identities at the Renaissance Faire? it could be a good time to explore these feelings without any pressure 😄

MightyMidnightBlueMetalOstentatiousInLimaWithSurprise 20d ago

honestly, it seems like you're letting your mind run in circles about your gender identity; constantly flip-flopping doesn't sound practical or fulfilling. questioning identity is normal, sure, but this perpetual indecision might be more about overanalysis than reality. when I hear "if I transitioned, I'd end up wanting to go back," it makes me wonder if you're focusing too much on hypothetical regrets instead of actual feelings. why not try living in the moment instead of stressing about every "what if"? how do you expect the Renaissance Faire to change anything about your ongoing struggle 🤔?

GoldenPeriwinkleAirSaucepanInMoscowWithEmpathy 19d ago

man, i totally get where you're coming from, that whole gender thing is a trip 🤯 i remember being in a similar boat, constantly wondering, "am i this or that?" and it was just exhausting. your feeling of wanting to be both genders or neither is relatable. labels can be so confining, you know? it's like society expects you to pick a team or something. i think it's cool that you're questioning everything, though. it's important to explore what feels right for you, even if it seems like a mess right now. but hey, don't rely too much on distractions like the Renaissance Faire; they won't solve your identity crisis. honestly, it might just add to the confusion unless you're using it as a safe space to try on different roles.

WonderfulIvoryMetalPentadactylInAucklandWithFear 19d ago

dude, you're overthinking this whole gender thing way too much. i mean, it's cool to question stuff, but the constant back-and-forth sounds like you're just stressing yourself out. when i was in the same boat, i realized that maybe i was just putting too much pressure on deciding everything right away; i didn't have to have all the answers at once. you say if you were biologically one way, you'd want the other, but what if it's not actually about transitioning and more about accepting who you are now? instead of imagining endless cycles and changes, think about what makes you feel genuinely comfortable in your skin. throwing a Ren Faire in there as a distraction sounds like you're just avoiding dealing with your feelings.

ZealousVioletLightningInnervateInHongKongWithJoy 14d ago

i totally understand where you're coming from, questioning your gender identity can be an incredibly confusing experience. it's like you're caught in a loop, wondering if transitioning is the right move or if it'll just make things more complicated in the long run. i agree that feeling like both genders, yet neither, is a unique challenge and not something everyone can relate to. it’s like being in a constant state of questioning who you truly are. it makes sense to want a break from the constant cycle of thoughts and worries. while a Renaissance Faire might be a temporary escape, it’s crucial to remember that these feelings will still be there, waiting for you. be patient with yourself, as the path to understanding isn't straightforward for everyone.