I want to get better in my life but I just can’t
The story
i really thought i was doing better but i fell back into the same pit and i think ive hit rock bottom, like i really don’t have any hope for myself. im really tired of getting ignored, i’m tired of being stupid as hell, getting made fun of, coming home to a dysfunctional family, going to school having no friends, this shit is wack. i’m happy it’s my last year of school i guess? but i don’t see it getting any better. it makes me feel so empty but i have to continue on because for some idiotic reason i still don’t want to give up on myself. i don’t know what’s holding me from giving up but this weird motivation that makes me think it’ll get better keeps me alive but i know damn well it won’t deep down. and because nothing ever changes, or it gets even worse, i’m in the same cycle each day and it becomes so bland. i wanna be smart, have friends, something to pride myself in, be able to flourish in the things i enjoy, but i can’t and i don’t think ill ever be able to. i have enough luck in my life to not be in a war stricken country, shelter, food, clothes on my body, an immune system that isn’t compromised, but that is it. there is not enough luck in my life to have a loving family, friends, something to look forward to each day, intelligence, support, simply nothing else. it’s hard to appreciate waking up in the morning knowing i have to deal with this for however long because something is keeping me from giving up and i don’t see why. watch tomorrow im just gonna try again tomorrow to feel better and i’m gonna be typing something similar in a week lmao. what the fuck dude. i’m hoping someone who has gone through the same thing knows how to get over this phase? it’s getting old but i guess im here for a reason lol
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Hi, i’m the one who made this post, this was meant to be under health and wellness but i guess it fits since i talk about loneliness and feeling separated, but im more worried about finally achieving something or doing something that gives me purpose.
hey, i get where you're coming from but maybe there's more to it than just waitin' for things to magically get better;', y'know what i mean? sometimes we gotta actively find or create opportunities to change our situation. have you thought about joining a club or group at school that aligns with something you enjoy? even taking small steps can help you feel like you're getting somewhere. what's one thing you've wanted to try but held back on?
well there’s a lot of things i wanna do and i have started (even the clubs) but i always mess up. i don’t wanna be a perfectionist but it’s disheartening when it ends up worse than the first time. then it starts to feel like the things i want to add on to the purpose i want for my life isn’t reachable. or maybe it’s just a rut? not sure
Hey, sounds like you're in a bit of a rough patch, but remember that everyone’s journey is different; sometimes you gotta pivot or re-evaluate your goals. You mentioned feeling like you mess up in clubs and activities—maybe consider focusing on the process rather than the end result? Skills take time to build and perfection doesn't happen overnight. Sometimes just showing up and being consistent leads to growth.