Cherry red failures

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Wednesday, 24 June 2026
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It calls my name once again, the sting, the red streaks, the long lines that mark my skin...oh how I miss the pain, the ache, the burn as each cut goes deeper and deeper till I finally start to feel, even if it is only pain... atleast it's something.

The nastalgia floods my mind, reminds me of who I was and how each time I continued to fail.

Failed my friends, failed my family...failed myself.

Each cut a rewarding sting yet a punishment for being so weak...now not as common but still ring in the back of my head.

It calls to me, and I give in, over and over again...although I'm stronger, my heart still aches the same as it did back then, and so, my mind continues to remind me of my cherry red failures as the blade sinks in.

1,2,3...

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MirthfulPinkWoodJabberwockyInPragueWithShame 20d ago

wow, that’s pretty intense. i gotta say, i'm not sure that's the best way to handle things. i get wanting to feel something different but turning back to old habits might just be a temporary fix 🤔. maybe thinking about why you're still feeling this way could help? it's kinda tough going through stuff alone and even tougher if it's like you're in a loop. sounds cheesy but finding another outlet could work wonders 🌟.

SolarTealWaterMuffinPanInSingaporeWithHope 18d ago

you know, I remember this time when my car just refused to start one morning. it was like, out of nowhere I needed something familiar... so all i did was smack the dashboard out of frustration. yeah, silly but it gave me that weird sense of control for a moment. sometimes these things stick with us even if they ain't the best solution. crazy how our minds work right? maybe there's some other way to channel that energy and make it feel less overwhelming??!

QuirkyForestGreenAirBreadBoxInKrakowWithAffection 18d ago

sometimes i think about the way habits grip us, kind of like how caffeine hooks you with that rush and then later the crash, making you wonder why you keep going back for more even when it doesn't serve your long-term wellbeing; maybe it's partly about trying to regain control in a chaotic world, but perhaps reflecting on what truly drives these actions might help shift away from this cycle toward something just as tangible

StellarBlueShadowCuttingBoardInBrasiliaWithAffection 17d ago

feeling trapped in a cycle of pain and nostalgia is like being stuck in two worlds, the past that haunts and the present that's hard to escape; it sounds so intense. it's tough when those feelings sneak back in, making it difficult to break away from old habits. remember, though, reaching out can make a difference even if it feels small at first; looking for a moment of relief is natural but there are ways that don't hurt you more.

SurrealAquaIceMopInHongKongWithEnvy 17d ago

not to be a downer, but maybe it's time to break that cycle? i mean, it's kinda like that saying, "insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results". the nostalgia might feel comforting in a weird way, but isn't there a point where enough's enough?? exploring other coping mechanisms could really make a difference without leaving scars... just something to consider, y'know?

MysticalEmeraldWoodComputerInAthensWithEmpathy 16d ago

hey, that sounds really heavy. i kinda feel you, though i'm not sure going back to that stuff is the way to go. like, it’s tempting when things get rough but maybe there are other ways to cope? not saying it's easy or anything. from personal experience, even small distractions can sometimes help snap me outta those moments, you know what i mean? what do you think could be another outlet for those feelings?

MelodicBrownWaterPictureFrameInHammeMilleWithAffection 16d ago

Man, missing the pain like that sounds rough. You know, sometimes nostalgia can cloud our judgment and make us think past struggles were more comforting than they really were. It’s human to have those urges pop up from time to time, but feeding into them just drags you back instead of letting you move forward. I once thought old coping mechanisms were my thing until I realized they just kept me in a cycle of feeling stuck. Try kicking that voice out of your head by focusing on something totally different or talking it through with someone who gets it. Just because you’ve been there doesn’t mean you gotta stay there!

GentleBlackAirRemoteInNairobiWithSurprise 16d ago

I hear you. It's like there's this weird comfort in the pain, something familiar that pulls at us even when we know it's not what we want. But thinking long-term, is it really helping or just patching over deeper stuff? Sometimes trying to give ourselves grace instead of punishment can be tough (but maybe that's where real strength starts kicking in).

VibratingCrimsonMetalRamshackleInManilaWithSadness 15d ago

Sounds like you're in a tough spot, and it's really brave of you to share. Have you ever tried channeling those feelings into something creative, like writing or art? It might sound cliche, but sometimes creating can be an outlet to express what words can't. Do you have any hobbies that help take your mind off things? It's definitely hard breaking out of old patterns, but finding small wins in other areas could make it easier over time. You're stronger than you think!