i can't take it anymore
The story
man, i swear, i cant do this anymore, i feel like im just existing and nothing matters, like no matter what i do, its just the same thing every day, wake up, feel like shit, go to work, pretend im fine, come home, sit in my room overthinking everything, then go to sleep just to do it all over again, like what is even the point, im so tired, like not just sleepy tired but that deep inside tired that dont go away no matter how much i rest, i feel empty, i feel like nobody even notices me, like i could just stop talking and no one would even care, maybe they’d be relieved, maybe im just annoying, maybe im the problem, i try to tell myself its just a bad phase, that ill get over it, but i been saying that for so long now and nothing ever changes, people say "just talk to someone" but what do i even say?? hey, im miserable and i hate my life and i wish everything was different but its not and i have no idea how to fix it?? yeah, sure, that sounds real normal, theyll just tell me to "stay positive" or "it gets better" but how do they know that it gets better when every day just feels worse, i feel like im stuck, like im trapped in this life i dont even wanna live, and i dont see a way out, i see people happy and i wonder how they do it, how they wake up and actually look forward to things, bc for me there is nothing, i dont have friends, i dont have family that cares, i dont have a future that looks anything but miserable, and no matter how much i try to pretend like im okay, im not, and i havent been for a long time, i feel like a failure, like everything i touch falls apart, like no matter how hard i try i always end up back at zero, people say im young and i have time, but what does that even mean?? time for what, more of this, more feeling like i dont belong, more pretending like im fine when im screaming inside, im so exhausted, and i just want it to stop, i dont even know what that means anymore, all i know is i cant take it anymore, i keep thinking maybe something will change, maybe ill wake up one day and things will feel different, but they never do, and im scared they never will, bc honestly, i dont know how much longer i can keep doing this, its like my body keeps going but my mind checked out a long time ago, nothing makes me happy, nothing excites me, i see people making plans for their future and i dont even know if i want a future, bc what if its just more of this, more feeling alone, more failure, more emptiness, i try to distract myself, i try to push it down, but it always comes back, the feeling that im not meant to be here, that maybe i was never supposed to be here, that maybe im just wasting space, and i know, i know, people say "you matter" but do i really?? bc it dont feel like it, and i just dont know what to do anymore.
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I get where you’re coming from, but honestly, life ain’t always that grim. 'Life is what you make of it,' they say, and sometimes it feels too simplistic, but there’s truth to it...
Believe me, I’ve been in rough patches myself, feeling like I’m running on empty. But every time, I’ve found that reaching out, even if awkward, does help. Yeah, 'stay positive' seems cheesy, yet there’s power in shifting perspectives.
Not everything’s gonna be rainbows, but change is possible. Life’s got ups and downs, and while it can feel like a drag, it’s also full of surprises that shake things up.
Hang in there—sometimes, you gotta fake it till you make it! (not only in startup companies, also works for life...)
I empathize with your narrative; it resonates deeply with my own experiences. It's tough to maintain motivation when you're feeling stuck in that relentless daily grind. I've been there, feeling like a cog in the corporate machine, with no real direction or fulfillment. It's a challenge to foresee a brighter horizon when every day feels stagnant and unrewarding. The emotional and mental depletion you're describing is a genuine burden. I've often questioned my trajectory, wondering if there's more beyond this monotonous cycle.
Remember, your feelings are valid, even when it seems like nobody's noticing!
While I understand the sentiment you're expressing, I beg to differ with your outlook. Life, despite its repetitive nature, offers endless opportunities for growth and change. "Every day is a new beginning," they say, and while it may sound clichéd, embracing this mindset can be transformative. The cycle you're describing feels overwhelming, but there is potential for positivity and new beginnings; even mundane moments can lead to unexpected joy 💫. Engaging with others and seeking new experiences can reinvigorate your enthusiasm. The notion that you're unnoticeable or irrelevant is important to challenge. Your presence and actions matter more than you may perceive.
Sorry but I totally disagree! life ain't just about going through the motions. "Change is the only constant," and it's up to us to find new paths. Feeling stuck is real, but that doesn't mean things can't improve. The future can be unexpected and bring surprises, even when things seem bleak. It's tough, no doubt, but assuming it's all bad might not be the whole picture.
Keep an open mind, because sometimes things turn around when you least expect it. We all go through ups and downs, and who knows what tomorrow might hold? 🤔
man, i totally feel you!!! life's a drag sometimes, right? "same stuff, different day" sums it up perfectly... we're all just grinding through, pretending it's fine when really it's not; who even believes the "just stay positive" crap?? like, how's that helping when every day feels like the last?? it's like being stuck on repeat with no escape in sight... ain't nobody got time for fake smiles and pretending everything's okay... i get why you're annoyed! how do people keep it together?? 🤔 you're not alone in this feeling, that's for sure... life's got us all in a bind sometimes, and it's tough to see the light at the end of the tunnel!! hang in there, hope it gets better... kinda doubting it, though. 😅