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this is my first time posting to a website like this, so i'm a little nervous but i don't know what else to do. i've been dealing with some heavy weight recently and the problems that i once ignored are piling up on me and it's been really taking a toll on me. to give you a brief summary: my mother dislikes me, i've realized that i am somewhat disconnected from everyone in my life, opening up to people on an intimate, personal level scares me so i'm on this site instead, and lastly i feel weirdly hollow. every conversation with another person is incredibly painful for me, and i wish to cut contact with everyone and live my life as a recluse; at the same time i love people and i don't wish to separate from them. it's like, a weird oscillation of sorts. i don't want to sound too self-pitying but i wish that i could open up to others without any fear. for a long time i've always adhered to people, morphed myself accordingly but in the process i've fractured my sense of self lol and presently im trying to gain it back but ive realized just how empty of person ive been. i have so many problems but i feel like i can't tell anyone them and being emotionally genuine, with other people, is something that makes me want to throw up. distracting myself with projects, other people, or using the internet to forget about my reality. truth is, the few times ive 'opened' up to someone i tell them something miniscule that i don't truly care about just to keep the barrier there. my friendships i leave open and ambiguous, i've hurt a lot of people in the past because of this but i keep on moving forwards but this will definitely come to bit me in the future. i wish i could say that i feel remorse for them and i do, but it's never to the extent of their emotions. i do not love people, but i care about them even from afar and oh this turned into me ranting, lol sorry to whoever took the time to read this but you get the gist. there's a lot of other stuff as well but it'd be really awkward saying everything. i am attempting change but it's been hard, i'm getting somewhere though. just needed to get this off my chest lol, been feeling very depressed and heavy lately

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i totally get where you're coming from, and it's really brave of you to share your feelings here; i remember feeling quite similar during a tough period in my life, where every interaction felt like a mountain to climb, almost like i was wearing a mask that didn't quite fit; finding the balance between wanting solitude and craving connection can be a tricky dance, but it's awesome that you're taking steps to find your authentic self; there's something empowering about acknowledging where you stand and seeking change, even though the process can be challenging and emotionally charged. i hope you find comfort in knowing you're not alone; many of us have waded through similar waters, and you've got the strength to navigate this; keep your head up, and don't hesitate to keep venting whenever you need 🤗
i understand you're going through a tough time; however, I can't entirely agree with the notion of isolating yourself from others being beneficial 🤔 i once thought that avoiding people would solve my problems, but it only deepened my feeling of emptiness and disconnection!!! cutting off contact seems like it might provide relief, but it often leads to more solitude and introspection; isn't it worth considering reaching out, even when the idea is daunting?! embracing the discomfort of vulnerability has its challenges, but it can lead to profound growth and understanding of oneself; given personal experience, I'd recommend reconsidering embracing isolation as a solution; it's crucial to weigh the consequences carefully 🙈
sounds like you're in a rough spot, but hey, at least you're being real about it; everyone's got their baggage, and it sucks that you've been feeling disconnected, especially with family dynamics, it can get tricky; i get it, “all that is gold does not glitter,” and finding your genuine self takes time; remember, it's totally okay to feel hollow sometimes, but don't let it become your norm!! deep connections take courage, like dipping your toes into the deep end when you can't swim, right?! just remember, taking small steps towards change can make a big dent in that weight you're carrying; give yourself some credit for wanting to find your own stride 🌟
hey, this is a heavy load you're carrying, but cutting people off might not be the answer 🤔 it's like you're in this endless loop of wanting connection but pushing it away; trust me, been there, done that. every time you disconnect, you risk losing touch with what makes us human; what if you tried working on opening up just a little, like snippets of your thoughts? i get needing space, but isolation can fuel those hollow feelings instead of fixing them. yanguishing in solitude's comfort sounds tempting, but it can also be a trap, ya know? sometimes, finding balance is about letting a bit of light in, even if it's tiny, but you do you ✌️
hey, it sounds like you're going through a tough patch, but cutting yourself off from everyone might not be the solution. i've been there, and i get it—sometimes isolation seems like the easiest way out. still, distancing from people could just make that hollow feeling worse. like they say, "no man is an island." maybe try opening up a tiny bit, step by step. holding everything in can feel safe, but it might backfire in the long run. just something to think about as you work through this. take care of yourself!
sounds like a really tough place to be in right now, and honestly, i've been there too; feeling hollow is no joke; i remember a time when i pushed people away because the idea of opening up was terrifying; yeah, ignoring problems makes them pile up until you feel stuck, but cutting off everyone might not be the best move; it's kind of a double-edged sword, you know? sure, taking time for yourself is important, but maybe try to find someone who gets it; start small, like talking about something that bothers you, without going all in; it helped me when things were rough, even if it's just a little bit.
i get where you're coming from, but maybe isolating yourself completely isn't the best move; it can make that hollow feeling even more intense. i've tried shutting people out before, thinking it would help clear my head. to my surprise, it got lonely real quick, and that wasn't the solution i needed. reaching out, even in small ways, can make a difference. sometimes being around people, even without deep conversations, can bring a little comfort 😊. have you thought about sharing just a small piece of what's on your mind with someone you trust?
i get that you're feeling overwhelmed and like pulling away is the only way to cope, but i have a different perspective; withdrawing might seem like a quick fix, but it might also escalate that sense of hollowness you're grappling with. i once tried shutting everyone out when things got intense, thinking it would help me feel better. to my surprise, the isolation made things worse and more complicated to handle emotionally. it might be worth considering opening up slowly, perhaps starting with someone you feel the least apprehensive about. a little vulnerability can go a long way in reconnecting with others, both for you and them 😊
i understand you're going through a challenging time, but isolating yourself might not be the most beneficial approach 🤔. have you considered the long-term impact of withdrawing from others? creating an emotional barrier can offer temporary relief, but it could exacerbate feelings of solitude in the long run. reaching out, even in small ways, can be a step towards healing!!! it might also help in redefining how you perceive your relationships, potentially leading to more meaningful connections 😇. what if you tried exploring activities that combine solitude and social interaction, like group classes or volunteering?
i get it, feeling disconnected and hollow can be overwhelming!!! it's like you're carrying a weight that never lightens. your openness here is commendable, and it's a big step toward change. really, you've got to acknowledge these feelings to move forward. bravery and self-awareness are key here. give yourself some credit for reaching out!!! you're on the right path, and progress is possible. keep pushing; you've got this!!!
man, i've totally been where you are, and it's tough to feel that disconnected 😢. it's like that quote, "sometimes we put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down." really hits home, right? definitely get what you're saying about the hollow feeling and wanting to be a recluse, that's a real struggle. but I'm curious, what made you decide to post here? reaching out can be a game-changer, and it's awesome that you're taking steps to open up, even if it's just a little bit. ever thought about finding a community or group where you can relate on common ground? sometimes it's easier when you know you're not alone in this.
i completely understand where you're coming from, and it's definitely challenging to carry such a heavy weight. it sounds like you're experiencing a lot of emotional dissonance, and that's no easy burden to handle 😔. the fact that you're here, sharing your story, is a positive step toward addressing these feelings; acknowledging them is a key part of the process. letting these emotions out in a space like this can be therapeutic, even if it feels a bit daunting. it's all right to feel disconnected, but remember that working gradually towards reconnection can really make a difference, both internally and externally. you're taking the right steps by trying to understand and regain your sense of self — keep moving forward, because every little step counts.
honestly, i hear where you're coming from, but shutting people out isn't gonna fix what's inside. i get the whole "feeling hollow" thing; been there myself. tried the whole lone wolf approach, but all it did was make things worse. ever heard the saying, "two heads are better than one"? letting people in, even just a bit, might surprise you with how much better you can feel. and yeah, opening up is scary, but isn't staying stuck in a rut even scarier? dealing with stuff all by yourself can turn into a deep, dark hole you don't wanna be in for long.
i get you're going through a rough patch, but cutting everyone off might not be the best idea 🤔. believe me, i've tried that, thinking it would solve everything, but it just made things more complicated. sometimes being connected, even a bit, is worth it. isolation can feel like a safe option, but it often leaves you feeling more alone over time. maybe reaching out to just one person could help you find some clarity? keep your head up.
i hear you, and it's clear you're going through something really heavy. feeling like you're stuck between wanting isolation and craving connection is rough 😔. reminds me of that saying, "we're all just walking each other home." it's important to acknowledge these emotions and validate your experiences. opening up is tough, but it can slowly build those bridges back to others. take it one step at a time, and remember you're not alone in this journey. keep moving forward, and things can get better 🌟.