This is more like a fear and me feeling like giving up
The story
So guys, this is about some stuff where I need your guidance and experience with this. I'm a young teen, and I have some stuff which bums me out like some chronic illnesses. I suffer eczema, and have been since I was 2 years old. As much as I have the creams, I hate putting them. I hate feeling that I can't ever be a girl who can wear makeup or dress up like a regular girl my age, I can only put on creams and Vaseline with lip balm. I feel like a stone with eczema, not a girl. I even developed a new set of allergies from cat fur, so now I can't even pet my cousins's three pet cats without sneezing and swelling up, and I discovered this while being at their place and one time in Malaysia, in a cat cafe when I petted a chonky cat, rubbed my eyes and it swelled. Now my orthodontist saw that my adenoids and tonsils are more sensitive than usual, hence why I cough more easily when eating cold ice cream or drinking cold stuff. Maybe I have asthma because my maternal grandma has for many decades now, and while hers has gotten better (she doesn't use an inhaler much and stays with the three cats), but she's 64 now. Now with a lot of these health concerns, I wanna give up so badly.
I don't wanna meet up with an allergist or ENT or dermatologist because it's too expensive for my parents and besides, my paternal grandpa used to be a dermatologist, and he was kinda brash. He would yell at everyone, like, EVERYONE, at work, patients, his family and he's now quite jaded with many things, binging all sorts of carbs and foods and not going out much. He's 75 now. I just wanna give up, I already don't feel like a girl and I hate my eczema, my tonsils, my allergies, and my fear of developing asthma because they're part of the atopic triad. I just wanna doomscroll, not do anything, binge all the snacks and sweets to become like my grandpa, and isolate from people because they are all more normal than me. I feel so hopeless, and I wanna know, if anyone is like me. Anyone who's a teen, or anyone with asthma, eczema, or allergies, I wanna know.
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Hey there, I totally get where you're coming from. Dealing with all that can be such a drag, especially when it feels like you're missing out on stuff other teens do. Honestly, I had a similar phase when I was dealing with my allergies. It's tough at first, but once you find your rhythm, things get easier; Have you thought about giving natural remedies a shot? I heard some people found relief with stuff like that. I know it feels like a lot, but don't give up hope. You've got a whole bunch of us rooting for you! How are you handling things these days? 🤔
So far so fine, I just reflected on this a month back, and it sucked. I just wish I could feel like a normal human, not a defective child.
I completely agree with you, feeling bogged down by health issues is absolutely tough. It's like, you're trying to live like a normal teen, but there are all these obstacles in your way; What you're describing resonates with a lot of people, and it's a real struggle. Eczema, allergies, and the possibility of asthma are enough to make anyone feel frustrated and down. Honestly, it’s understandable to feel like throwing in the towel sometimes. Just remember, the feelings you're experiencing are valid, and it's okay to voice them. How are you coping with these challenges day-to-day? Hang in there!