can't stop thinking about you

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WonderfulPearlEarthRefrigeratorInHongKongWithJoy
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Thursday, 27 March 2025
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i swear i dont even know whats wrong with me anymore. i cant stop thinkin about him like all day all night its just him in my head 24/7. like its drivin me crazy. we aint even talkin anymore but i still keep checkin my phone every 5 mins like maybe he’ll text or like maybe he’s thinkin bout me too (even tho i know he probly not). we was never official official but it felt real to me. we had a connection, the way he looked at me, the way we talked for hours, laughin about dumb stuff. nd now? nothin. just silence. nd it hurts more than i thought it would. like why can’t i just move on like a normal person?? why am i still stuck on someone who don’t even care if i’m breathin or not??

my friends keep tellin me to forget him, to block him, delete the pics, all that. nd i tried. for real. i tried to distract myself, go out more, talk to other ppl, even flirt a lil just to see if i could feel somethin again. but i don’t. its like no one hits the same. i see him everywhere too, like songs remind me of him, certain spots in school feel weird without him there. i even wear that hoodie he let me borrow still, even tho i know it’s dumb. nd the worst part? he moved on like it was nothin. he’s talkin to someone else now and actin like i never mattered. like i was just a phase or some fun thing he did for a bit. nd maybe i was. maybe i made it bigger in my head than it really was. but to me, it felt real. nd now i just feel stupid for fallin so hard.

sometimes i cry at night just thinkin bout what i did wrong. was i too much? not enough? did i scare him off by feelin too deep? i replay convos in my head, thinkin what i coulda said diff, what i coulda changed. nd yeah i kno, i shouldn’t blame myself, but how do u not when someone u gave your heart to just lets it go like it was nothin?? he said things that made me think he cared. he looked at me like i was the only person in the room. he made me feel seen, nd now i feel invisible. like i was only temporary. like i’m just another girl he’ll forget soon.

i just want it to stop. the overthinkin, the dreamin bout him, the way my heart still jumps when i see his name pop up somewhere. i wish i could just shut off the part of my brain that still misses him. that still wants him. but i can’t. he’s stuck in me. nd maybe one day i’ll get over it, maybe someone new will make me forget how bad this hurts, but rn? rn it feels like i’m gonna feel this forever. like he broke somethin in me without even tryin. nd he probly don’t even kno. or care. but i do. nd that’s what sucks the most. cuz even if he don’t feel nothin, i still can't stop thinkin bout him. nd i hate that i still want someone who dont want me.

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JollySalmonMetalKummerspeckInVeniceWithJoy 3d ago

Wow, I totally get this! I've been in the same emotional rollercoaster, and it sucks!!!! You're stuck in a cycle of hope and doubt; it feels endless. 🙄 And let's be honest, the heart does what it wants, no matter how much logic we throw at it. You deserve way better than driving yourself crazy over someone who can't even bother. The emotional energy you're spending can be used for YOU!!!! Seriously, don't waste another second on someone who treats your feelings like an afterthought. Day by day, it gets better, and you'll eventually find someone who matches your vibe and effort.


Stay focused on your own happiness!!!

Author 3d ago

thanks ❤️

ZanyMulberryFireBookcaseInHonoluluWithAnticipation 3d ago

breakups are never easy and it takes time to move on. give yourself time to heal. it will get better.

Author 3d ago

thanks ❤️

SapphireNavyLightningQuagmireInMumbaiWithAffection 2d ago

I kind of understand your feeling, i'm really going through the same thing lately. (sorry for any grammatical errors, i'm not from USA or UK).

I spended two whole years of my life in what i thought it was the love of my life, and as you say, it always feels so real, so special and unique. And even if in the deep of your mind, your logical part tells you easily what's wrong and what's not, or how you should feel, the heart acts as it wants, i can't really give you a solution but just hope you'll do better eventually, i'm going mad too about my ex and i see her everywhere or get constants reminders in my head of special moments with her, even if we don't talk anymore.

I can't tell if this works since i'm as stuck as you, but i heard somewhere something like "concepts as happiness or personal realization can just be consequences and not goals, and if you put them as goals, i'll only get further from you as long as you focus or force yourself on reaching such state.