High Expectations
The story
He told me "I'll never love you, as much as you love me".
I love too deeply, I care too much. I pour my heart and soul into every person I care about. He's socially awkward. He has a hard time expressing and understanding emotions. I've managed my expectations because I know he's right. I know it's not malicious. I know he loves me and he has done so much for me.
I just wish I could feel him love me as deeply as I love him but, it's unfair to ask that of him.
I've spent so many years, in such dark places in my mind. I put so much of my heart into people because I know what it's like to hurt. I want everyone I care about to know they are loved. I want them to feel supported, so I do anything I can to help.
I've never expected that back from anyone. It wouldn't be fair to expect that much from someone else. It hurts just the same though, when you take a step back and look at it. I just want someone, anyone, to love and care about me the way I care for everyone else.
It seems so simple.
It feels so selfish.
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damn, that sucks... but it's not selfish to want to be loved the way you love others. like, who doesn't wanna feel that same level of care??? sounds like you give so much of yourself and it's understandable to crave that back. maybe try talking with him about ways he can show love in his own way instead? it might not be the same as how you do it, but it can still be meaningful.
it's quite the conundrum, isn't it? loving someone who can't reciprocate at the same level can be downright exhausting and leaves an emptiness that gnaws at you. while he may not match your depths, it's crucial to value and appreciate whatever gestures he makes; though small, they hold meaning in their own right. remember that ultimately, finding balance and fulfillment might require stepping out of this comfort zone and surrounding yourself with people who share your intensity.