I don't want to live
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hey there, just wanted to spill my heart a bit, if that's alright. i'm 51, lost my husband and my son in a car crash. life's just feeling empty and pointless right now. ever felt like that? it's like every day is a struggle to get out of bed. they were everything, my love, my life, my rock. i feel like i'm just floating through the days, you know? trying to keep it together, but it's tough, really tough. it's like i'm watching my life from the sidelines and not really living it. i'm trying to hang in there, but sometimes, i just don't want to live anymore. do you ever feel like you're screaming inside and no one's hearing you? it's like a big hole inside my heart and no matter what i do, i can't fill it.
i try to be strong, but i'm honestly just really tired. tired of crying alone, tired of pretending i'm okay. i miss them so much it physically hurts. ever feel that way? folks say it gets better with time, but it's hard to believe right now. can't even honestly remember what happiness feels like. i just keep asking, what's the point of all this? i'm not bitter, just numb. i do try to focus on small things, like a cup of coffee in the morning or a good book, trying to find a spark of joy. anyway, thanks for reading this. i know folks have it tougher, and i'm trying to keep my chin up. just felt like sharing, maybe you can relate or share a kind word...

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hey, i'm really sorry to hear what you’re going through. losing family like that just ain't fair. 😔 i've felt lost and empty before too, it's like you're in a fog and can't remember what happiness even feels like. people say time heals, but sometimes that feels like such b.s., right? i hear ya on the whole "pretending to be okay" thing, it's exhausting. it's wild how one minute life can be so full and the next it’s just... hollow. i guess trying to focus on little joys, like you said, might be a step, but it’s just frustratingly slow. anyhow, hang in there and hoping for better days for you, even if it seems impossible now.
hey there...first of all sorry to hear ur loss..I won't say say that ik ur pain ... or I relate to you.. cuz I'm a 21 yr old girl and life has just started for me .. so I really don't know what you're going through... cuz ik that one who's actually going through the problem knows it better that what they are feeling... being a stranger ..I read what ur going through.. and as a human being.. I just feel to give you a tight hug to let you know that don't feel alone..not at all.. rn I just feel like hold ur hands and listen to whatever you wanna say .. cuz we are humans with emotions and humanity so we should never forget that... I just wanna feel ur emotions as a human being.. I'm myself very naive at this age doing things which I regret then later try to make it better... but we all are going through something.. and whatever u want through is not at all comparable .. it's a big loss... so u shouldn't pretend...later with time we got to accept the truth even when how harsh it is...we as human beings in this generation have forgot that death is truth .. and it has to occur some day to all of us... sometimes god gives a big shock to our lives to make us remember what the reality is .. death is a certain thing... we shouldn't get too much attached with anyone..the truth should always be there in our minds... but yeah as a family ... we form bonds with ppl ... cuz it's necessary for us otherwise we won't be able to live ... but we don't know when someone leaves us suddenly... that's life.. so being on this Earth all we can really do are just good deeds... small things to make people happy...or to help some needy... we are born on this Earth to do good karmas .. cuz that's what we carry with us after death ... I won't say you to just pretend that ur happy...cuz when ur grieving..let urself grieve fully .. cuz ur a human too... don't be harsh on urself.. whatever memories u created with ur family and ppl are the real moments u really collected...I hope u heal with time soon and properly... even though how hard it is... u need to be strong rn ... cuz those ppl who are rn not with you... must be watching u from somewhere and they just want to see u happy cuz u deserve it... so if u really wanna help there souls anyway ...just remember ur good memories with them..and live ur life to fullest .. if not for you then at least for them... cuz ik that's what they really want for you rn... I suggest you to go to church or temple.. and connect urself with God and ppl around you ... try to make ppl in need some help and happiness cuz in return that'll give u happiness as a human being... so just connect with God and ppl ..ik ur loss is very big and it's a thing which I truly cannot understand at this age... cuz I've not been in this situation... but I hope God gives you more strength and power to you...I'm sorry if any of my things anyhow was hurtful ... cuz I truly can't know what ur going through... I just wanted to let you know that ur not alone..all my power and strength to you !
hey there, my deepest condolences; losing loved ones in such a tragic manner is profoundly heart-wrenching 😔. i wholly empathize with your experience of life feeling “empty and pointless.” i’ve encountered similar sentiments after losing my father. it’s like you’re part of an involuntary suspension, experiencing life’s vestiges but feeling disconnected. i’ve found solace in mundane routines, though it feels hollow most days. “time heals” often feels reductive when the heartache is perpetual. when i was in that place, i tried practicing mindfulness, though the impact was minuscule. each day might feel insurmountable, but may gradual healing find its way to you.
hey, losing your family like that really sucks. totally get why you'd feel like life's just floating by. when my uncle passed, i felt like i was on autopilot too. but honestly, wallowing in that feeling won't help. try to grab onto whatever makes you feel even a bit alive, like that morning coffee. gotta admit, time doesn't fix everything, but it changes things up a bit. just don’t shut yourself out from the world, it could surprise you. stay open to even the smallest sparks of joy. there's still stuff worth sticking around for!
hey, really sorry to hear about what you're going through 😔 what you've faced is undeniably tough. feeling like life is empty and pointless after such a tragic loss is something a lot of folks experience, and it's definitely understandable. but gotta say, even when everything feels like it's floating in a kind of detached way, there might still be a flicker of hope in the little things, like those small joys you mentioned. you talk about "every day being a struggle to get out of bed," and that’s a reality for so many. however, even in the most challenging times, maybe finding just one small reason to keep moving forward can help gently remind you of life's potential. i totally get it's not easy, but perhaps focusing on those little sparks can lead to gradually discovering a bit more peace. life's journey is unpredictable, and even when it seems bleak, have you considered that there could be unexpected moments of joy down the road; maybe those small sparks will eventually grow into something bigger?
hey, so sorry to hear what you're going through 😢 it’s no surprise feeling lost after such a loss. "they were everything" really hit home!!! people say time heals, but sometimes it feels like that’s just a broken record, doesn’t it?? still, i believe that tiny sparks of joy like a good book can slowly help. do you have any favorite books or authors that bring you a bit of peace?? hoping those small moments of joy will grow bigger for you. hang in there!!!
hey, that sounds rough, no sugarcoating it 😔. life can be a real jerk sometimes. "every day is a struggle" is something i totally get. been there, done that. but you gotta keep pushing, ya know? even if it feels pointless now, things can change. ever heard of that saying, "this too shall pass"? cheesy, but true. focus on the little things, they count more than you think. a good book or coffee can be the best therapy. hang in there, keep fighting. brighter days will come. 🤞
hey, i’m really sorry to hear about your loss 😔 but, honestly, i think claiming life is empty might be a bit shortsighted. every day has potential for new experiences, even if it feels tough to see now. have you ever considered diving deeper into something you love; maybe a new hobby or interest can slowly reignite some passion? hanging onto small joys like coffee and books is a great start, and those little moments can build up. i know it doesn’t solve everything, but it’s worth a shot, right? keep your head up; there’s hope in the journey ahead.
hey, i'm sorry for your loss, but saying life is pointless seems a bit much. there are still things out there to live for, even if right now it’s hard to see. sure, times are tough but every day is a chance to find something new. try to look for moments of joy or purpose!!! maybe a new hobby or meeting new people could bring some light. sure, it feels overwhelming!! but who knows? it might just lead you to unexpected places. stay strong and keep pushing forward. life's got more to offer, even if it takes time to find it.