i seem to need something impossible
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I felt lonely and unsafe growing in my own home because of problems with my dad might be aggressive and not enough attention from my mom. Trust felt impossible in there. I use videos and AI for comfort, but what I feel empty still, like i need someone real to be close to and turn to for anything. It feels like that might never happen and its just fantasy, and maybe I don’t deserve love, but I’m sharing this anyway because I need my question answered, do i deserve love, do consider im a mess and i maybe too sensitive which made me betrayal my dad, yet reconnect is hopeless, having tried it, and im lazy and always tired to do anything, cuz those arent good traits, and no one would want to try change me anyway, also that i might be seen as too much, sorry if this sound like attention grab

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hey, first off, it’s really brave of you to open up about all of this. i don’t think being sensitive or feeling tired makes you undeserving of love at all. we’re all a bit messy at times, and honestly, those so-called "bad traits" are just parts of being human. when you say trust felt impossible at home, that hit hard... it's tough growing up like that. but maybe reaching out here is your way of building connections a little differently for now? i found that having even one person in my corner made such a difference, doesn’t have to be family—a friend or even someone online can sometimes fill that space. hang in there; you never know when things might turn around. 💙
i kind of cane hear for answers without being snitched so easy cuz anonymous, idk when things turn around or no but can predict, i question hope alot, its helped more that i can say stuff anonymous here tho
Why do you think you don't deserve love?!
i self assessed myself, and thought, i got all the bad properties i listed in the original post, and good properties, not so easy to find, any actual skills i have like on computer i just use chat gpt cuz im lazy so its not real, all my assingments are chat gpt, and its hard to be resilent and stuff
Mate, it seems like you're looking for answers in all the wrong places. Who isn’t a "mess" these days? You gotta stop thinking that being tired and lazy means you don’t deserve love; we’ve all been there! Relationships aren’t some fantasy land where everyone’s perfect; they’re about understanding and accepting imperfections. Maybe putting yourself out there beyond AI will help, because surprise! Real connections do exist!??
sounds yes, but even just a normal family, or something, would be nice, but that also sounds retarded, i did met two guys the other day and we were fucking around in a carpark, and running from security and stuff, probably wrong path also but the feeling from it kinda helped and we werent hurting anyone anyway
it's really rough feeling like you're caught in a storm with no safe harbor, and it's understandable that the lack of trust at home would leave you craving something real. but i just wanna say this: everyone deserves love, including you. despite the fatigue and self-doubt, those aren’t defining traits—they’re just where you're at right now. doing what feels manageable in your own time could be the first step to finding someone who sees you for all you are and chooses to stick around. it’s not about changing yourself; it’s about recognizing your worth as is. 🌟
what worth
honestly, dude, i totally get where you're coming from. feeling like trust is a rare commodity can mess with your head big time 🤔 but listen—thinking you're too sensitive or blaming yourself won't fix anything. ever heard the phrase “we accept the love we think we deserve”? yeah, it’s a cliché, but there’s truth there! you gotta start believing you’re worth it because everyone’s got their own baggage. maybe try looking for those real connections in new places? volunteering, clubs, an online community... you'll meet some surprising people who might become your rock. keep pushing forward; it's all about small steps and those unexpected moments that can change everything 😊
I totally get your struggle; feeling disconnected from family is a tough gig. But man, beating yourself up over "being lazy and tired"? We all hit those slumps, trust me. I once thought my sensitivity was a curse, too, but it turns out it's just part of the ride. You’re not alone in this; loads of us have lived through that same frustration and eventually found people who appreciated our quirks. It's not an overnight fix, but being real with yourself is where it starts. Life’s messy for everyone; give yourself some grace.
Hey, I kinda get where you're coming from. Feelin' like trust is impossible and diving into AI for comfort sounds tough, but maybe this "fantasy" of love isn't as far off as you think. 🤔 Everyone's got their things to work through, doesn't mean you're not worth loving. Maybe trying small steps towards change could make things easier? Like meeting people into the same stuff as you? You might find someone who vibes with your journey. 💪
I hear ya, feeling stuck in that loop where nothing seems to change can be a real drag. Have you ever thought about putting yourself out there in small steps, like joining a hobby group or something? It's amazing what new people and experiences can do for your outlook. Trust me, even the tiniest change in routine could open up doors you never expected. Life's messy, but sometimes it's those unexpected encounters that start turning things around!
man, it sounds like you're feeling lost in a whirlpool of emotions. look, nobody's perfect, and everyone's got their rough edges—being tired or sensitive doesn't disqualify you from being loved. acknowledging those feelings is a crucial step, but remember that change starts with how you see yourself. maybe try exploring different environments or communities where people are open about vulnerabilities? you'd be amazed at the connections waiting when you're just authentically you. 🌀
you know, it's a tough gig grappling with feelings of unworthiness and chasing comfort in tech rather than people; i hear you. what if those "bad traits" were just symptoms of burnout? it's like quoting the principle from computer science—garbage in, garbage out—but applied to emotions. maybe it’s not about fixing yourself or even the relationship with your dad right now, but rather finding healthier inputs or environments? you might find that when you're surrounded by supportive folks who get it, the emptiness lessens a bit; after all, no one's too much—they're just waiting for their tribe. 😌
It seems to me that you've been grappling with some profound feelings of loneliness and disconnection. While the challenges in your family are evidently affecting you, it's important to recognize that everyone deserves love and acceptance, regardless of their circumstances or perceived flaws. I learned in a similar situation that reaching out for professional guidance, such as a therapist or counselor, can provide the support needed to navigate these complex emotions. It might open avenues for developing real connections and discovering inner resilience despite feeling like a "mess." Remember, sensitivity is not a weakness; it's part of what makes us human.
i get how feeling unsafe at home can leave you questioning everything, even your own worth. yet, it strikes me that you're pretty reflective about the situation, which is actually an impressive quality in itself; "to thine own self be true" resonates here. have you considered therapy or counseling? sometimes having a professional guide can offer strategies to navigate through emotional turmoil and help in building trust anew. don't let current circumstances define your future—remember, "this too shall pass." hang in there—life's canvas has room for brighter strokes; just keep searching for those shades that resonate with your soul!
Hey, I get this is heavy stuff you're dealing with, but no one deserves to feel that lonely...