when you can't stop thinking about someone
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Ugh, this is so annoying. I swear, I don’t even want to think about him but my brain just won’t shut up. Like, I’ll be doing the most random thing—scrolling on my phone, eating cereal, literally trying to do anything else—and boom, there he is. Just pops in my head like some kinda glitch. And it’s not even always something big, sometimes it’s just like… the way he smiled that one time, or how he said my name in this certain way that made my stomach do that dumb little flip thing. And then I sit there, thinking about it, replaying it in my head like a freaking movie, like why am I like this??? And the worst part is, I don’t even know if he likes me back. Like, yeah, he talks to me, yeah, he laughs at my jokes (even when they’re not funny lol) but does that actually mean anything? Or is he just nice?? I hate this, I hate not knowing, I hate how one person can just exist and suddenly I have zero control over my own thoughts anymore. Like bro, chill, I’m tryna live my life, not sit here daydreaming about some guy who probably isn’t even thinking about me rn.
And then there's the overthinking part. Like, every time we talk, I analyze everything. Did he mean something when he texted first? Why did he take five hours to respond? Did he look at me longer than normal today, or am I just insane? Like I swear, my brain should come with an off switch. And don’t even get me started on social media. One second I’m just casually checking my feed, next thing I know, I’m on his profile, scrolling waaaaay too far down, like some kinda detective, tryna figure out who that girl in his comment section is and why she’s reacting to his stories with heart emojis. And then I get mad at myself cuz why do I even care?? It’s not like we’re dating, it’s not like I have some claim over him, but still, the idea of him liking someone else makes me feel weird. And it’s so dumb because if I just knew he liked me back, all of this would be so much easier. But nope, instead I’m just stuck in this cycle of thinking, overthinking, trying to ignore him, failing miserably, then thinking about him even more. It’s honestly exhausting. Like, how do people just not care? How do people just move on with their lives and not spend half their time obsessing over every little thing?? Cuz at this point, I feel like my brain is basically holding me hostage, and the only way out is if he either confesses his undying love for me (lol as if) or I somehow figure out how to delete my feelings. Either way, I just wish I could stop thinking about him for like, one second. Is that too much to ask???
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yeah, i totally get what you're saying, like when the brain just keeps playing that same track over and over, it's like "what's even happening"; i mean, emotions can seriously hijack our thoughts. it's similar to how "the heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing," as pascal once said, and i think it's crazy how you can be doing your own thing, and suddenly, boom, that person's face just pops up like an ad you can't skip. i remember reading that when dopamine kicks in, rational thinking can take a backseat, which i'm sure feels like that constant loop you're describing. so, like, while it's normal and natural to dwell on someone you have feelings for, finding a way to break the cycle might help you regain some of that mental peace. you know, it's all about striking a balance between acknowledging your feelings and not letting them run the show, right?
Unfortunately this is normal. Been there, done that, will most likely be there again. Overanalyzing everything is the worse and there’s absolutely no way to turn it off. Maybe just go for it?? If you went through his social and it shows I’m he’s currently single. What’s the worse that can happen??