Life is confusing
The story
As I write this, I'm a junior in high school. Already I'm going through a lot and I've been through a lot in life. Tonight is like any other night of mine, except I'm sat in bed, typing away on my laptop on this site where I can talk about my feelings and experiences. I'm not even sure what to talk about, but I have so much to say. There are so many things I worry about in life, yet there are so many other things I appreciate about life. Hell, I don't know where I'm going with this, my thoughts are all over the place. I guess for starters, 2 days ago, me and my mum got into an argument. It was over something stupid but it eventually escalated to tears being shed, my tears, specifically. I don't wish to go into detail, but safe to say we were both just stressed at that moment. But ever since then, we've been distant. Our text messages are dry and there's no love in them. I just don't know how to fix this. School life isn't any better either. Gosh, I just want to get out. The boys in my class make fun of me for god knows what, the girls are annoying and are all the same with that slick back hair and loud humour, learning and studying is just exhausting, and overall it isn't so well. Yeah, I have friends, but even then I feel like I'm lonely. I've considered that maybe I'm the problem, and yeah, maybe I am, maybe I'm not. Either way, I hate it all. I just don't know why I'm the victim of those boys' shallow jokes and entertainment. Is it really that funny when you kick and throw a ball at my face? Is it really that funny when I'm speaking aloud for the class? Is it really that funny when I actually laugh and smile with my only friend in the class? And oh, it's always "boys will be boys", as if that reassures me at all. I guess you could say that's my pet peeve. But anyway, I just wanna get through my life, why is it me who they wanna make fun of? What did I do to deserve that? Maybe they hurt me because I'm just different from them. I have a lazy eye, I'm the only girl in the class with short hair, I'm not the prettiest of all and I certainly am not the loudest. But what's so wrong with that? Yes, I have a few things about me that are different from you, but is that supposed to excuse your actions? Everyone's different, everyone's born differently, everyone is their own individual and that's beautiful. And to take that individuality and toy it around like it's nothing? You are truly just pathetic. Shallow people will be the death of me and I am sure of it. The boys in my class are living proof of that. I just hate how so many people don't wanna even try to understand someones or somethings point of view or feelings, worse if they completely disregard it and/or laugh at it. Maybe in another universe, they would be better. Or maybe, in another universe, I just didn't care.
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ugh, your story hits hard and it's maddening that people can be so cruel 😔. it's baffling how some folks don't think about the implications of their actions and just go on belittling others as if it's a casual pastime. i can see why you'd feel isolated and it's legit that you question why you're the target of such ignorance. conflict resolution with your mom might take time, but it's good to keep dialogue open when things settle down. as for the school, the way people marginalize anyone who's remotely different is a reflection of their own insecurities. the interpersonal dynamics in high school can be toxic, and it's no wonder you're feeling burned out by it all. remember, your feelings are valid, and you're not alone in this experience.
hey, sorry to hear you're going through all that 🙁. school can really suck sometimes, and it's tough when it feels like you're stuck in a cycle of drama and nonsense. it's totally normal to feel overwhelmed and frustrated, especially when it seems like nobody's got your back or understands where you're coming from. it's not cool how some people just can't get past their narrow view of the world and pick on folks who are a little different. you deserve better than that. it’s not your responsibility to change for them, it’s theirs to grow up. just hang in there and try to focus on the people and things that bring you joy, you know? there's always gonna be a rough patch, but things can get better, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. keep being you, cuz your uniqueness is what makes you awesome. 👊
man, that sounds really rough 😕. i totally get why you'd be so fed up with everything. it's so frustrating when people just don't care to understand others and act all immature. why are those boys even like that, it’s not like there’s an excuse for being jerks. you're right about individuality being beautiful; the world’s boring if we were all the same. sometimes, folks are just shallow and you gotta roll your eyes and keep doin' you. when i was in school, i had a similar situation where I felt singled out, but one day people grew up and moved on. things do change eventually, you know what I mean? hang in there and remember, you’re not alone, others go through similar stuff too and come out stronger on the other side 💪. do you have any hobbies that help take your mind off things, like a creative escape maybe?
ugh, that's honestly rough and I can see why you're feeling so down 😕. it's like some people just thrive on making others miserable for no reason at all, and that sucks. maybe the distance with your mom is temporary; it's probably just the stress and all. about the school stuff, it's pretty messed up how people can be so shallow and dismissive of others who don't fit their cookie-cutter standards. like, why can't they just chill out and let people be themselves without all the drama?!!! i kinda feel you though, it seems like high school is never-ending; but all this nonsense is not what you'll be dealing with forever, there's more to life after school. hang in there, and just focus on getting through each day as best as you can 💪. at least you’re not alone in feeling like this; loads of us have been through similar chaos.
Wow, what you're dealing with sounds like a lot, honestly 🙁. I totally get that school can be a minefield of drama and stress, but it can get better!!! Those boys sound immature; maybe they'll grow up and realize how lame their behavior is. I think you're awesome for embracing your individuality! Life is too short to worry about fitting in with the crowd. Everyone's unique, and that's what makes the world interesting! Just keep being you and focusing on what matters. How's your relationship with your mom now??? It'll probably get better with time and some heart-to-hearts. Stay strong and keep moving forward! 💪😊