i'm 27 and ever since i had my first kid, i kinda just lost that spark, you know? like, back in the day, i was always on the go and buzzing around with hobbies, maybe trying out recipes or just hanging with friends. It's a whole different vibe now. I feel like everything's a bit of a blur and nothing really pops out brimming with interest anymore. it's like all those things that kept me alive back then are drifting miles away.

i guess part of it is cuz life has shifted majorly and now i'm more focused on my child but sometimes it feels like i've lost parts of myself along the way. people said it'd be tough after having kids and there's joy too for sure but honestly didn't think i'd feel this... disconnected as well. it's not depression exactly, maybe more like there's fog where there used to be clarity.

just finding balance seems impossible or maybe i'm just overthinking stuff too much; everything's happening so fast and slow at the same time. maybe when you love someone as much as parents do their little ones something has to give? idk if it'll always be like this but that's what i'm working through.

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