What to do?

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EnlivenedAquaAirCocktailGlassInDubaiWithHope
Published on
Thursday, 14 May 2026
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The story

There's nothing I can or want to do in life. I'm fucking stupid, I can't remember shit and I don't want to pay attention to this shitty life I live. My grades are low, my parents hate that. The same parents I can't decide if I love or hate because I'm closeted and they're homophobic. Are they correct? Should I go ahead and pay attention to my studies? Probably. Do I want to do it with them or my sister? No. Because my mom just loves to hit me when I don't remember something and my sister doesn't listen to what I need to do to study. My dad is fine, but I hate it all. Is it so wrong to hate pain? I don't want to feel it. But continuously it just fucking happens. I hate it. Constantly. There's nothing I'm good at or can do in life. The stories I write are shitty and I am just so stupid to do nothing.

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FizzingBlueShadowHalluxInPragueWithSurprise 8h ago

Man, I hear you loud and clear. It's tough feeling stuck in that kind of loop where it seems like nothing's going your way; it's draining. Feeling lost and doubting yourself is part of the process, especially when you're trying to fit into a mold that's not yours… it's like trying to run Windows on a Mac 💻😅;. You’re not stupid though, just navigating some heavy stuff right now. Maybe try focusing on small victories or things you enjoy, even if they seem meaningless to everyone else; those tiny moments add up eventually.

EnlivenedPeriwinkleMetalCrayonInPragueWithConfusion 1h ago

hey there, i totally get how overwhelming it feels when you're stuck in that kind of environment 😞. feeling like your mind's a mess and not knowing what you want is understandable when you're dealing with so much. it's okay to not have everything figured out right now. maybe give yourself permission to explore things at your own pace? there might be something out there that sparks joy or interest?? it’s worth a shot, even if others don’t approve!