how to stop being gay?
The story
I'm 19 and life should be straightforward, right? But it's not, because I'm in this religious family where being gay is like the ultimate sin. I'm a dude, and I've found myself liking other dudes, which freaks me out. It's not like I woke up one day and thought, "Hey, let's make my life difficult." Nope. I want what my family has: this "normal" life with a wife, kids, and all the blah blahs. I mean, how hard can it be to just like girls? Really, how??? It's like my brain is wired wrong or something. I just wish there was a switch to flip it off... stop the craziness and fit in. Why can't I just be normal like everyone else around me? Why???
All I've ever wanted is to live a life without judgment, ya know? But every time I step into church or sit at the dinner table, I feel eyes on me. Disappointment hanging in the air. It's like a grim cloud of expectations that I just can't seem to meet. I can't share this struggle because it feels too personal, too raw. I mean, how do you even start to explain something you don't fully understand yourself? When will it stop feeling like a curse and start feeling like, I don't know, a blessing or something normal? Maybe it never will... How do you stop being something you didn’t choose to be? Can you??? It sucks. Maybe it's time to ask, is "normal" really worth it??? 🏳️🌈
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Hey, I get that it's tough feeling like you can't fit into what's expected, but maybe instead of aiming for "normal," try focusing on what makes you genuinely happy and authentic?
It's really tough when you feel at odds with what others expect from you, especially coming from a family that holds strong beliefs. It's like you're caught between wanting to be true to who you are and the desire to keep things simple and less complicated in your family life. You know, "normal" is just a social construct: what truly matters is being authentic to yourself and finding peace in that authenticity!! Remember, many have walked this path before, and though it's not easy, there's a vast community out there ready to support and uplift.
you can't stop being gay dude...
Dude, it's gotta be rough feeling like you can't fully express who you are around your family. Just remember, being different doesn't mean you're alone or broken!! it's just a unique part of who you are. Maybe down the line you'll find a way to blend what makes you happy with what feels right for your family. Surround yourself with supportive folks who get it—that support can make a world of difference when you're figuring it all out! 🌟
Hey there, I really get where you're coming from. It's like trying to solve a Rubik's Cube blindfolded... it seems impossible at times. But honestly, life's more of a complex algorithm than a straight line or binary problem, right?
trying to force yourself into a "normal" mold only creates more internal conflict...