A failure in a group of success
The story
Do you ever have that weird feeling in your body when you are in a group of people/a busy room with people where you feel like you don't belong in that place/moment or where you just feel invisible like a waste of space or a disappointment? that basically sums up me right now or a lot of the time.
story: So last night I went to my sisters high school for her banquet "BAND banquet" (my sister is in band/matching band so its like her "awards day" but for highschool/middelschool bad) It was me, my sister and my parents. when we got there our parents brought food and went to set it up. my parents friends MR and MRS P needed help checking people in at 6:00 and give tickets. so our parents when to the front doors to help.
my mother told me and my sister to stay where we are and watch our "stuff" (jackets and umbrellas) and as soon as they left my sister got up and I asked "where are you going??" she said: "To go find my friends." me; "why? her: "because I can" me: "but mom told us to stay here" her; "She didn't say that." me; "whatever just go-" (we started to argue so I just said go) I was upset because she wasn't supposed to leave even though shes older and she left me to be more mature and watch the stuff because I know If I left to wonder my mom would yell at me and my sister so I knew someone had to stay and I didn't feel like arguing. so basically people came in and started sitting and hanging out, kids being with their friends and my sister with hers. I started to get lonely seeing people so happy and looking like they belonged unlike me...eventually it was time to eat food, people got called up to go by tables. I had to wait for my dad to get my food so I could eat. still by myself My dad eventually came and I got to eat. my dad went back to helping I was by myself eating my dads cooking talking to myself acting like my family was with me and my dad asking how the food/cupcake tasted. and when I was done I felt sad and so alone while my sister had fun with her friends and eventually my mom came and was mad at my sister Abit for being with her friends. my mom came and ask; "have you been sitting by yourself this whole time??" me; "yeah" her: "you didn't have too, you could have come down and hangout with me." me; "but you told us to stay with the stuff and I cant leave it'" she eventually went to get her food and she/my mom sat with me and asked how my food was trying to make me feel better. and that's that.
I feel like my sister always does this. leaves when she feels like it or "change her mind" when watching our dog and cause an argument or make things unfair (keep note shes the older sibling, I'm the younger one) I feel like I have to be the adult between us and do all the adult like stuff when shes almost 18 next year and i'll only be 15. Its like she takes advantage of me so she can do her thing. even though shes the one that wants to do things "fair" when all she does is leave me to "baby sit" by myself and makes me feel wasted or like not important in anyway when I've done so much to be noticed in school, for others and my own family.
I just don't know. maybe I'm to hard on myself or my sister.
thoughts? (no negative thoughts or comments please)
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yeah... siblings can be a real pain sometimes. It sounds like you were just trying to do the right thing and follow your mom's instructions. Your sis leaving you like that doesn't seem fair at all, especially when you're trying to be responsible. 😅 It's tough when you're the one expected to act mature, even though you're the younger sibling. Have you tried talking to her about how you feel? It's important she understands your side too! You deserve to feel important and noticed, not just like a babysitter for "stuff" and pets! Are there other times she makes you feel this way, or was this a one-off thing? Keep your head up, things can get better!
honestly, it seems like you're being a bit too hard on your sis 🤔 siblings do stuff like this all the time. it's part of the deal. feeling invisible is tough, but maybe this isn't just about her actions; perhaps you're projecting? discussing your feelings with her could be really beneficial and help clear the air. also, it's understandable you feel like the mature one, but in reality, it's just a banquet, not a high-stakes endeavor; maybe try to let go a bit. stuff like this is common, don't let it get to you too much. have you considered that maybe she just wanted to enjoy time with her friends?
yo, i totally feel for you 😤 siblings can be the worst, huh? your sis definitely should’ve had your back instead of ditching you like that. it totally sucks when you're trying to do the right thing and just end up feeling like a background extra. i remember being the younger sibling too and getting stuck with all the boring adult stuff while my brother went and did his thing. but hey, this kind of stuff happens. it's not about you being a "waste of space" or anything, it's more about your sister needing to grow up a bit. you're doing awesome for being so responsible. keep your chin up, things will change as you grow; you’ll get to do your own thing soon enough 🎉 have you thought about just chatting with her about all this? like, laying it all out so she knows how you feel? might be worth it!
hey, I get that you're feeling frustrated, but maybe you're being a bit harsh on your sister? 🤔 it's just a banquet, not the end of the world. siblings are gonna do their own thing sometimes. when you said, "she takes advantage of me," it seems like you're reading too much into it. she's just being a teenager; wanting to hang with her friends is pretty normal. maybe try cutting her some slack and talk it out instead of holding a grudge. have you thought about that?