I'm a failure and people should fear failure like it's death
The story
I couldn't finish 3 of my exams. I couldn't the last 2 questions of biology, I couldn't finish 1 section in Hindi, and I couldn't finish half the paper in maths. I will fail even all the subjects. Maybe I didn't study enough for all of them. I'm a failure to everyone. I'm a failure in life. I don't have friends, I studied but I didn't have practice, I'm apparently rude to everyone and everything, I can't even draw like my beloved artists, I can't do art in the future because you'll replace me, and I won't pass school next year. It may be the second term and I have one more, but it's not enough. I'm not enough. I've never been. The list should've helped me because I would've been a great human, not the defective fetus my parents were given. That's all I am. Failure. Always will be, unless I figure out a way to just stop. Stop harming others with this mess, because my existence of failing alone is bad.
Nobody wants a failure, nobody wants to fail. Because look where failure got others. People failed to check the reactor core of Chernobyl, many people of Ukraine and other countries died. Someone scored very low in school, he was held back a year and continues like that, even though he's happy now. Someone failed a driving test, so they never drive again because they probably ran over someone. Someone failed an exam, and their parents beat the hell out of them or they get horrible treatment. Someone out there failed to get his family any food in a poor village and they die. See? Failure hurts and it destroys. I hate it when books tell kids in school failure should help you learn. It helped me learn to not fail and resent it. My parents may have been fine, but I don't care. I'm a failure, and I should leave the house because I said so. Dad's right when he says lots of Indian families hate failure, I should too. He's not right when he says it's not good.
Look where it fucking got me. I feel like I failed in everything. How am I gonna make it in this world? I won't. If I fail in one more thing, I'm a useless child. I hate it when they say you can learn and do better from failure. I hate it when dad says not to fear failure. Look where failure got others in the real world! Death! Destruction! Famine! Held back a year! Abuse! More death! This will happen to me. It will. Didn't failure hurt them?
That's why I'm a problem. I may have been born by loving parents, but right now I feel like they secretly hate me, even though they seem fine. I burnt everything I touched, maybe this fail is it. I failed at maintaining 1 friend, at succeeding exams, at being nice and humorous, at being smart, at looking good and being in the trend, many things. I'm pathetic. I'm the worst thing ever to happen. Why even though I studied I couldn't finish the paper? I'm too slow like a snail, that is! I hate it when my mom said not to think on her behalf. Making predictions is what we do. So even if she scored 5th topper IN SCHOOL, why is she telling me she also failed? It's a lie! Farce! She's lying that she failed. She's not showing love, it's a story she cooked out of her ass. If I hate myself, I'll get better. I'm a worthless, useless, piece of shit, vagina candle smelling, stupid, pig-like, hairy, baboon-ish creature who deserves to not live for all her fucking failures.
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Mate, I get you're feeling overwhelmed by all these perceived failures, but isn't it possible that you're being a little too harsh on yourself?!
hey, i get that it feels like everything's crashing down right now, but let's take a step back. comparing yourself to disasters like Chernobyl might be pushing it a bit; everyone has moments where they feel they've screwed up big time, but it's not the end of the world. you still got another term to show what you're made of - and that's plenty! if your parents are saying not to fear failure, there must be something in that; learn from their wisdom. give yourself some credit for even caring so much; there's always room to turn things around ✌️
i hear you, and honestly, it sounds like you're carrying a lot on your shoulders, more than anyone should have to. failing exams doesn't define your entire worth or future though, i promise. it's easy to spiral into thinking that failure is the end of the world when we're under pressure, but maybe try to cut yourself some slack? 🤷♂️ life's not just about ticking boxes! sometimes you gotta stumble before figuring out how to stand tall. catch a breather and talk to someone if you can; sometimes fresh perspectives help clear the fog.
yo, i get it's rough right now and you're feeling like you're letting everyone down, but maybe it's time to chill for a second and realize that failure ain’t always the end of the world; sometimes it’s just a sign that you gotta try a different approach or give yourself a break to recharge.
hey, i hear you; it's easy to get tangled up in all the negativity and feel like you're drowning in it. but take a step back and ask yourself, are you giving yourself the same grace you'd offer a friend? 😅 everyone screws up sometimes, and honestly, that's part of life. you've got another term to turn things around: it's not over yet! just try giving yourself a break now and then; perfection isn't the goal, progress is! keep your chin up 💪
wow, it seems like you're really weighing yourself down with all this stress. but honestly? failure is just part of the gig in life and doesn't mean you're doomed; it's more like a teacher that none of us asked for. if anything, your passion and care about these situations show how much you actually want to succeed! remember, Einstein once said, "A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new." 😅 so maybe it's time to cut yourself some slack and see failures as steps toward getting better rather than an endgame? plus, you've got another term! plenty of opportunities to improve!!!