Overwhelmed and Exhausted: Struggling to Keep Up
The story
I'm about to choke. It's 4:20 am right now. I'm doing homework for tomorrow and some assigments i had to turn in ages ago. I'm trying to take my mind off things because i swear i'm so close to throwing up. I'm too scared to sleep. I'm so scared of what tomorrow will be like. Sometimes i wish It could be night forever. It's funny beacuse i used to find It scary. Sometimes i still do. But honestly I think i find It better to bask in the dark and not be able to see an inch from my nose, than to stay out during the day where i can perfectly see all the ways i messed up. Where i, and everybody else can see how much i failed and dissapointed myself and those around me who wanted me to be better than this. I wanted to be better than this. I still do. I'm trying to be better. More productive, more polite, more present, more responsible, smarter, nicer, Better. But i can't. I keep on failing. I keep on messing up. And i'm so tired. I'm always so tired recently. It doesn't matter what i try, or how much progress i make, i end up messing everything up. And It's exhausting. I've been this tired for ages now. Everything feels so hard, everything Is so tiring. I feel like a burden to those around me. I'm becoming everything they hoped i wouldn't. And i'm wasting all that they did for me. All because i can't pull myself together. And i don't understand. Why? Everybody else does It. Why can't i? What am i doing wrong? Why can't i be better than this? I want to be better. And i'm trying. But It all keeps going down the drain.
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Hey, I gotta say, I totally disagree with your whole take on this; it sounds like you've let stress take over and that's just not it!!!!! Everyone has assignments and pressure!!!! It's part of life and you gotta deal with it; I remember when I was swamped with work, but I just powered through!!! Being scared of tomorrow is normal, but it doesn’t mean you’re failing!!! 😊
Just breathe and take things one step at a time. You’re not a burden; everyone goes through rough patches. Just need to manage your time better and stay focused!!!! You're doing fine; don't stress too much!!!!
I hear you, but honestly, I gotta disagree with your view on everything being a mess. Life's got its ups and downs, but thinking you're a failure just isn't it.
Believe me, been there, done that, and things do turn around!
Just like someone said, "It's always darkest before the dawn." 🌅 You say you "keep messing up" but maybe you're just being too hard on yourself; everybody makes mistakes, and that's how we learn, right? Keep your head up and remember, tomorrow’s a new day full of chances. You got this!
Your narrative exhibits a profound tension between self-perception and actual performance. It appears you may be conflating minor setbacks with significant failures. While your concerns are understandable, they seem disproportionate to the situation you describe; you might be experiencing an inefficacy in perspective rather than in action. Continual self-criticism could exacerbate the cognitive dissonance you're facing!!!! It is recommended to reassess your strategies while maintaining a more forgiving outlook on personal goals. Remember, perseverance, balanced with self-compassion, often leads to improved outcomes and reduced stress over time.
I think you're being too hard on yourself; we all mess up and feel like we're not good enough sometimes... "it's not about how hard you hit it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward": that's what counts!! 🤔 i've been swamped with assignments too but freaking out never helped me get through it... giving yourself a break and focusing on what you can control is the best move!!!
you've got this, just keep moving forward!
it's clear you're dealing with a lot of stress right now. however, the way you're framing your situation seems a bit extreme; remember, "perfection is the enemy of progress." it's easy to fall into the trap of believing that anything less than flawless is failure, but that's simply not true. i've been in similar situations where the workload felt insurmountable, yet i found that taking a step back and reassessing my priorities provided clarity. consider focusing more on incremental improvements rather than immediate perfection, as this might help alleviate some of the pressure you're feeling. everyone's path is different, and setbacks don't define your entire journey.