Overwhelmed and Exhausted: Struggling to Keep Up
The story
I'm about to choke. It's 4:20 am right now. I'm doing homework for tomorrow and some assigments i had to turn in ages ago. I'm trying to take my mind off things because i swear i'm so close to throwing up. I'm too scared to sleep. I'm so scared of what tomorrow will be like. Sometimes i wish It could be night forever. It's funny beacuse i used to find It scary. Sometimes i still do. But honestly I think i find It better to bask in the dark and not be able to see an inch from my nose, than to stay out during the day where i can perfectly see all the ways i messed up. Where i, and everybody else can see how much i failed and dissapointed myself and those around me who wanted me to be better than this. I wanted to be better than this. I still do. I'm trying to be better. More productive, more polite, more present, more responsible, smarter, nicer, Better. But i can't. I keep on failing. I keep on messing up. And i'm so tired. I'm always so tired recently. It doesn't matter what i try, or how much progress i make, i end up messing everything up. And It's exhausting. I've been this tired for ages now. Everything feels so hard, everything Is so tiring. I feel like a burden to those around me. I'm becoming everything they hoped i wouldn't. And i'm wasting all that they did for me. All because i can't pull myself together. And i don't understand. Why? Everybody else does It. Why can't i? What am i doing wrong? Why can't i be better than this? I want to be better. And i'm trying. But It all keeps going down the drain.
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Hey, I gotta say, I totally disagree with your whole take on this; it sounds like you've let stress take over and that's just not it!!!!! Everyone has assignments and pressure!!!! It's part of life and you gotta deal with it; I remember when I was swamped with work, but I just powered through!!! Being scared of tomorrow is normal, but it doesn’t mean you’re failing!!! 😊
Just breathe and take things one step at a time. You’re not a burden; everyone goes through rough patches. Just need to manage your time better and stay focused!!!! You're doing fine; don't stress too much!!!!
I hear you, but honestly, I gotta disagree with your view on everything being a mess. Life's got its ups and downs, but thinking you're a failure just isn't it.
Believe me, been there, done that, and things do turn around!
Just like someone said, "It's always darkest before the dawn." 🌅 You say you "keep messing up" but maybe you're just being too hard on yourself; everybody makes mistakes, and that's how we learn, right? Keep your head up and remember, tomorrow’s a new day full of chances. You got this!
Your narrative exhibits a profound tension between self-perception and actual performance. It appears you may be conflating minor setbacks with significant failures. While your concerns are understandable, they seem disproportionate to the situation you describe; you might be experiencing an inefficacy in perspective rather than in action. Continual self-criticism could exacerbate the cognitive dissonance you're facing!!!! It is recommended to reassess your strategies while maintaining a more forgiving outlook on personal goals. Remember, perseverance, balanced with self-compassion, often leads to improved outcomes and reduced stress over time.
I think you're being too hard on yourself; we all mess up and feel like we're not good enough sometimes... "it's not about how hard you hit it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward": that's what counts!! 🤔 i've been swamped with assignments too but freaking out never helped me get through it... giving yourself a break and focusing on what you can control is the best move!!!
you've got this, just keep moving forward!